Inside the Minds of the Unspoken

if only

There's something inside of me that's trying to get out

I don't know if it's emotion

Or feelings

Or just my doubt

There's something within me that wants to hide

It might be my opinion

My thoughts

Or just my pride

There's something hidden that wishes to be found

It could be my love

My wonderful sight

Or just the fact that I'm drowned

There's something here that no one can see

It is my emotion and feelings

Opinion and thoughts

And everything that makes me

It's my dreams and nightmares

My farewells and hellos

My loves and my hates

And my rights and wrongs

It is me that wishes to get out

It is me that wants to hide

It is me that is begging to be found

It is me that is conflicted

It is me that is sure

It is me, yet not me at the same time

It is the version of myself I have created for others

It is the version of myself that is original and true

It is me in all forms

Me, in the forms that have been created over the past years

They want to come together and form one, constant me for all to see

If only I could allow them to make one image

To make one me that I loved instead of several that I hate

If only I could take the step and not be afraid of where it will lead me

If only the step was onto a flat plain and not off a cliff

If only I could fly and I needn't be afraid of falling

If only I could open myself up and not keep everything in

If only I could do all that I want

If only.