Silent Screams

Poem 69

It's ironic
How I said I'd never write one
It's hypocritical
The way I tried to write one
It's astonishing
How I can put sad words down
It's upsetting
That happy ones are hard to write
It's interesting
How I can fake a smile so well
It's beautiful
How you can actually make me smile
It's shameful
How I treat myself
It's distressing
The way you think of yourself
It's wonderful
Now I can forget my lined thighs
It's intriguing
How you find beauty in me
It's mesmerizing
The way I am starting to change
It's frightening
The way I'm starting to think
It's hypocritical
The way I'm writing this poem
It's dishonest
How I actually wrote this
It's careless
Expressing my actual feelings
It's reckless
The way my guard is down around you
It's scary
The way I have been thinking
It's comforting
The way you compliment me
It's confusing
I think I might be getting better
It's jumbled
The way my thoughts differ
It's laughable
How different three am and three pm are
It's wonderful
I think I've found something for myself
It's scary
The way I crave your attention

But that's all okay.
I think I'm getting the hang of this.