blue || nate maloley fanfic(MAJOR EDITING)

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Layla

It's been a week, a week since my life turned upside down. My dad passed away from a brain aneurism how ironic since he was a brain surgeon.

I haven't told any of the guys. Nate has been calling me none stop since he the day that he left for tour. They've all been worried, but I don't have the strength to pull myself together to tell them.

My dad was my rock, he taught me everything in life except how to live without him.

I'm still in New York since the funeral is in three days and my mom is a mess. I gathered all my strength to tell Nate so maybe he could come to the funeral I need him.

I selected Nate's contact on my phone,

Nate: Hey lil mama I've been calling you! I've been so worried.

Layla: *I couldn't help but cry from the sound his voice...I just need him* m-my dad Nate

Nate: hey what's wrong? What happened to Eric?

-Nate met my parents a week after I moved in-

Layla: H-he had a brain aneurism

Nate: He's ok right?

Layla:No Nate he's gone

Nate: Oh my god Lay I'm sorry

Layla: I wanted to know if you could fly out the day of the funeral

Nate: Uh I can't Layla
Layla: w-what do you mean you can't? If it's the money I can buy you a ticket to fly out.

Nate: It's not that I just can't fly out I'm on the tour. I literally just got here about a week ago.

Layla: But Nate you can just come for a couple hours...please

Nate: I can't do it Layla I can't I'm sorry

He hung up.

"Why can't he be there for me when I need him the most?" I cried softly to myself.

I later called Swazz and Ty and they said they would fly out here to attend the funeral.

Three days later...

Play: Una Mattina by Ludovico Einaudi

I picked off the little pieces of dust on my black top. My eyes were too red and puffy to apply makeup so I put on my black aviator sunglasses. I put my hair in a low bun I really didn't have the energy to do it.

As I walked out of my old bedroom...making sure to grab the eulogy, I noticed a picture of me and my dad at Disneyland,

"Daddy can we go on all the rides?" He laughed, "Of course princess that's why we're here!" I hugged my daddy, "I love you daddy." "I love you more than you'll ever know princess."

-end of flashback-

"I love you more than you'll ever know daddy," I whispered as tears threatened to escape I held them in because if I started I wouldn't be able to stop.

I walked downstairs meeting my mom, Ty and Swazz.

"Are you ready honey?"

I grabbed a water from the fridge, "Yes momma."

Swazz looked at me with a toothless smile.

I grabbed my jacket since it was still chilly in NYC, "Are you okay?"

"Please don't ask."

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"He was a blessing to have in my life. Not only was he the best father to Layla but he was the best husband any woman could ever ask for. Now my daughter Layla is going to speak a few words."

Ty kissed the back of my hand as I got up.

"Thank you all for being here it really means a lot to me and my mom. My dad was the most amazing person I have ever known. He lived everyday to save someone's life but unfortunately they couldn't save him. He was my hero, the first man I ever loved. This past week and a half have been so hard with him passing. But I-" I couldn't keep my composure I silently sobbed with my head down for a couple seconds, "He made the world a beautiful place and I'm sure you guys see it that way to. I really can't go on but I just wanted to say I will miss you more than you'll ever know daddy."

I walked out of the service, I had to let it all out. I ran to my moms car, sat there and just cried my heart out. John knocked on my window, I rolled it down, "Get out I'm driving."

I got out of the drivers seat and moved to the passenger seat. "Wait John we have to stay for the burial."

John shook his head, "Your mom said to take you somewhere other than here plus Ty said he'd stay with your mom."

I just put my back and closed my eyes trying to rest for a couple minutes.

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"Layla wake up we're here," I get out of the car and followed John. He took us on the edge of the Hudson River, "You know it's ironic I would come here all the time when I needed to think."

"You would tell me all the time so I decided to get a look for myself, but listen Layla I want you know if you need to scream or cry I'm here for you."

"Scream?"

John chuckled, "Yeah scream."

I squinted my eyes at him and scream at the top of my lungs as he screamed with me too, at the end of my scream I couldn't help but break into sobs. He ran to me and put me down on the ground since my legs were starting to give out.

"I miss him so much." I cried out.

"I know you do Lay " His voice shook, it hurt him to see me like this.

"Why couldn't Nate be here?" I said as I looked at him with red eyes.

"I don't know but he's an idiot for not coming ."

I looked at the time and noticed it was 4:45pm I bolted up, "Your flights at 5:30 we have to go!"

He got up, "Layla, Ty and I are staying the week, you need us."

  was so happy to hear those words come out of his mouth. So I rushed up to him and gave him the he biggest hug in the world, "Thank you."

At Layla's moms house, 1:45Am

Ty and Swazz were sound asleep in our guest rooms so I walked past my moms room and heard her sobbing. I walked in and laid in the spot where my dad would lay, "Why does it hurt so much mom?" I silently cried, "I don't know honey, I don't know."

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I woke up and walked to the kitchen and noticed it was 5:30am. When I lived with my parents this was around the time my dad would eat breakfast so he could go to work.I got so use to waking up just talk to him and go back to sleep it became a daily thing but since I moved out to LA I had overcame it but being in the house just brought it all back.

I grabbed a plates from the cabinet and started throwing them on the floor, "Why did you have to leave!" I threw another one, "I need you!" Another one, "Please Daddy come back!" As I was about to throw another one John caught my arm and hugged me as I sobbed, "shh shh it's okay."