Orgasms

Daydream

It's been four months since we started dating. Balogun and I. As I sit in the school bathroom, the noise of my schoolmates sound like the ocean far far away. I daydream of waters and a lifeless body. Reuben still lives with me, Papa and Mama. Now he acts like a cousin should and not once has he let slip that I have a boyfriend. If Papa and Mama knew, I would be dead. They had met him, but they thought he was just a study buddy. And they made sure we were never out of their sight. Can't leave their little daughter alone with a boy ofcourse.
Rueben is silent. Sometimes Auntie Yinka brings his daughter Tilda home to visit. Auntie Yinka had adopted Reuben's bastard. This is a blessing to her and her husband, they cannot have babies.
I hate the way Reuben looks at me. I hate the fact that he clearly does not care for his child. Well, she is in good hands now. They really should not let him near her.
I don't know where all these random thoughts are coming from. A single tear escapes my eye and falls on the clear screen that says 'positive'. My fears where right. I am pregnant.