Always

Frame Me, For The Fault Defined, And I Would Stand An Anchor In Your Name

-She closed her eyes and continued. "For my end, it's not so much. You know the same old thing over and over again. I feel like my body is just used to it, even though I'm still bleeding from the new whiplashes." She chocked, trying to hold her tears. "I..I missed you guys. I missed all of you. I actually lost track of time. I don't know how long I've been here, cause every time I ask, they don't answer me. But I can feel it's been like eternity. I don't know if I have enough strength to keep going. I just feel...exhausted. Every time I look at her eyes, I see disappointment. I see someone who's disgusted by me. I feel like..I lost her forever."

-"However, I.." she chuckled disappointingly. "I chose this path. I know that you might be angry at me. But I really can't afford losing her. I love her really. And I know she doesn't anymore. Even if that's the case, I just want her to live a normal life." As gulped so hard as she began sobbing. "I lost my family. Regardless of that I pretty much had a proper life. But she didn't. She hadn't felt like how to be loved. How to feel the warmth of a family. I tried to give her that. But...but time always! Always against me!"

-She sniveled and whipped her tears that she failed to hold, as she laid down on the floor. "Promise me. Whatever happens. No matter what's the consequences. Whenever she comes to you, to my friends, and even to my house. Welcome her with open arms. Remember she's not to blame. I guess it's actually my fault for being inconsistent and being an idiot."

-"Is that it Freen? Are you truly going to give up and wave at everyone goodbye?". Freen's eyes fluttered with shock, as she sat down and looked up. "SONG!" she gasped, while the latter had both of her hands on her waist, tapping into the floor with her heel. "Tsk tsk. What happened little sis? Where is the Great Freen Sarocha that my father always brags about? Hmmm? Where is she?" Freen's lips were partially open, as her eyes don't believe what she saw. "Song. I..I"

-"Nope! I want a proper answer Freen. Sit down properly and talk to me. Come on let's take it from the top". Freen nodded and sat properly as requested, looked straight into her eyes and replied. "Nothing. Nothing happened to me, besides my luck was too bad". Song scoffed as she leaned over. "And does that really make you feel this..grumpy, giving up state, or I'll give you something better. To die!". Freen giggled while lowering her head. "What do you want me to do! I am already living in hell! She hates me! I killed her father Song! I did all of this!

-Song sighed and sat next to her. "Freen? Do you actually believe those lies? You didn't kill anyone. You are just trying to convince yourself otherwise, so that pain that you are feeling will be easier to deal with". Hugging her knees as she tilted her head against the wall, Freen couldn't find any words to express how much she felt. The ordeal was too much, but her love towards her always prevail. After a moment of silence, she tilted her head to the right and said. "I don't know what to say. I guess spending time in here..made me believe it. Actually, I don't know how long had passed. I just want everything to end. I am tired Song. My body is failing me. She's breaking me into pieces. She's...well doing more than that"

-Song sighed and said. "You loved her Freen. You chose her over everyone else. You knew everything, yet you chose to continue. Now after all what you've been through. You want to give up? Leaving her just like that?". Freen's eyes walled with tears once again, as she turned and gazed up into the ceiling. "Still. You don't know how much it hurts me. You don't know how much I am in pain seeing her like that! It just makes me feel..like a loser. I haven't foreseen this outcome. I was blind Song! I failed her and failed all of you! I am a disgrace to everyone"

-"And you think that, just because you weren't prepared, and pretty much everything is against you right now, made you feel that you are a disgrace to us! After all that you've done for everyone! You still see yourself so small!" she said, as her voice filled with sarcasm "Freen. You are living. You are smiling again. You are doing all of the wonders that you always dreamt of doing. You are in love. You are everything that anyone wants! You've done so much! You should be proud of yourself" Freen gulped and replied. "I don't know Song. I just-" Song interrupted. "Young lady listen! Stop being so grumpy. Stop feeling sorry, and stop feeling you are the blame for everything. You aren't raised to be like this Freen. Remember that"