Burning in revenge 2

Physical Love

Jenny's POV 

I was surprised seeing all the Christmas decorations, they put all these efforts for my happiness! I'm so blessed to have this family. I had fun time before going to bed. They planned Surprise Christmas party for me but they don't know it's my birthday. Who cares! Unlike my other birthdays, I'm going to have wonderful day with my new family in the beach house. 

I'm scared to talk about the truth, it's means I have to leave Ram...but I Couldn't hold myself from asking Ram if he hates me because he hates lies and I'm nothing but lie. He said no but didn't want to talk. Is he lying to not hurt me? Why wouldn't he hate me? I totally deserve... I couldn't sleep with these thoughts...I probably disturbed Ram, I toss a lot if I can't sleep. I apologized. 

After that Ram did came as a shock, he removed pillow wall between us and took me into his arms, kissed my head...I felt so good, secured. He doesn't hate me! 

Everyone planned surprise birthday at midnight, it was amazing. First time I felt I'm so lucky. Next morning, I woke up in Ram's arms, best morning ever. I kissed his forehead and went to get ready. I wore the lehenga Ram gifted, it's beautiful, fitted me perfectly. The diamond set he gifted is perfect, to my taste. I was struggling with dori, startled hearing Ram's voice, "May I". Hearing his voice my heart skipped beat. When he was tying dori, his fingers touched my bare back, giving me jitters, my heart is beating erroneously. He kissed my back, his name came out as moan. He looked at me through mirror, seeking permission, I couldn't meet his eyes, closed my eyes tightly. He placed kisses all over my back. I didn't want Ram to leave his lips from my body, I felt like I'm on fire

 God my heart is racing, definitely beating over 200bpm. How in the world am I alive? Medically it's impossible. I felt my dress is too heavy suddenly... 

He turned me towards him, cupping my face. I couldn't look at him, buried my face in his chest, hugging him tightly. His heart is beating erratically like mine... he can hear mine too! Oh god! His hand moved to my dori, making circles... he is contemplating whether to remove or not... I wanted to tell him to remove, didn't want any barriers between us but how do I tell him? I'm feeling shy...

Just then I heard door knock, it was Nivi... I escaped with her. What was I doing? Am I ready for intimacy with Ram? We haven't discussed about our relation. 

"Penny for your thoughts!" Nisha bhabhi's voice brought me out of my thoughts

"You look deep in thoughts, is everything ok?" She asked. I nodded

"Jenny, I see you as Nivi, you can tell me anything... I'm worried seeing you like this, thought you would be happy..."

"I'm so happy, it's the best Christmas and birthday I ever had..." I said, she didn't buy it

"I'm really happy but confused... I don't know how to say... whom and what to talk... I really don't know..." 

"I'm right here" she said and took me out for a walk on beach, asked me to talk. What can I say when I myself don't know. After lot of persuasion I decided to talk after she promised to not say anything about our talk to anyone 

"How did you feel when... you.. Vishnubhaikissedyou"

"I don't understand what you said" she asked 

"How you felt when Vishnu... bhai... kissed you" I shut my eyes. I opened my eyes, not getting any response. Nisha bhabhi is looking at me weirdly

"Why are you asking now? Don't tell me Ram kissed you for the first time today" she laughed. 'You are dumb! Anyone would think the same' I scolded myself