Loving Her is Red

Thirty Nine

YOUR POV

It doesn't get easier, the hole in my life hasn't shrunk, I've just grown around it. It's been 6 months of hell, of crying, screaming, fighting.

- Maggie : Daddy said he's trying to get Auntie Nat back

- Bucky : Be quiet Maggie

- y/n : It's okay. Nat isn't a trigger word. Auntie Nat died sweetie, she's not coming back

- Maggie : But Daddy said-

- Bucky : Daddy said nothing

- Maggie : No he said he was going to do it today. That he was going to get Auntie Nat

- y/n : Maggie, you're sweet. But she's not coming back

- Maggie : But Auntie Y/nnnnnn

- y/n : Buck

- Bucky : Come here Mags. You can't say things like that. What if Ives or Cece heard? You'd be getting their hopes up

Things with the kids are different. Ivy is distant, she doesn't want much to do with anyone no matter how hard we try. Cece is talking again, just about, she's the opposite of Ivy, she wants to be around someone all the time. The boys are still too young to get it. They're barely 3, they're not supposed to get it.

- Steve : Hiya

- Maggie : Daddy! Tell Auntie Y/n about that thing

- Steve : What thing?

- Maggie : That you can bring Auntie Nat back!

- Steve : I just, Maggie, that was our secret. I just thought if I returned the stone, could I get her back?

- y/n : It's very unrealistic Steve, and wouldn't work anyway. She's dead, we're accepting that, very slowly but we're getting there

- Steve : Come outside. Look, I'm going to try it. I can't not try it. If there's a chance it could bring Nat back, you have to let me try. That's my sister

- y/n : And that's my fiancée. She's at rest, she's gone and me and kids are learning to live without her. We don't need to dig up things we've laid to rest

- Charlie : Mom

- y/n : Hiya sweets

- Charlie : When are we leaving?

- y/n : When I managed to get the boys shoes on. Go tell your sister we're leaving

Steve is driving a minibus now, a fucking minibus. I avoid driving at all costs so Steve got a bus. It's crowded but it works for us.

- Tony : It's my favourite clan

- y/n : Where are my sisters?

- Maria : I missed you

- y/n : It's been three days. Where's Lena?

- Yelena : Come on Fanny, come see Y/n. She's being really uncooperative

- y/n : Fanny, come here

- Yelena : So she listens to you and not me. Great

- y/n : Come here Lena

- Lena : Missed you

- y/n : Me?

- Lena : No, Cece. Wanda's almost done in the kitchen by the way. And Bruce wants Steve and Bucky in the lab

I should help set the table considering there's millions of us eating today. There's like nearly 25 of us eating at once, Wanda won't let anyone touch the kitchen to help her cook.

- y/n : Hey Wands

- Wanda : Someone competent. Set the table and make sure there are water jugs on there. I'm not running to and from the kitchen for the kids

- y/n : On it. How are you Wandy?

- Wanda : You would've thought Stark would offer to help considering it was his idea, but no, I do all the work and I don't even live here

- y/n : Tony's still in a wheelchair Wands. He offered to order pizza so you wouldn't have to cook

- Wanda : No. No junk food. It's all Talya wants to eat at the minute. Pizza, fries, chicken nuggets, ham burgers. We're all going to enjoy something healthy

- FRIDAY : Y/n has been requested in the lab

- Wanda : No, don't you leave me

- y/n : I'll be back Wands. Love you

- Wanda : UGHHH

I'm being summoned. You can guarantee one of the boys has gotten into a can of paint or messed up some of Tony's plans for some invention.

- y/n : Hiya. What's up?

- Maggie : Daddy did it!

- y/n : Did what Mags? Your Dad does a lot of stuff, including annoy the hell out of me

- Maggie : Daddy bought Auntie Nat back!

- y/n : Maggie, it's not cute anymore. Auntie Nat died and she can't be bought back, that's how it works

- Natasha : This is a little bit awkward then

What the fuck?

Authors Note
Have a drink and
a snack please