Loving Her is Red

Nine

YOUR POV

It's not my place to say anything. I just need to comfort Yelena before I try to deal with the people out here.

- Melina : I had no idea

- Alexei : It's okay, it's okay. I'll go talk to her

- y/n : No, you sit the fuck back down. You have done enough. You handed those little girls, those sweet innocent little girls to a predator who ruined their lives so no. You don't get to go and comfort Yelena because you don't deserve to make yourself feel better. Melina, I get that you only know the Red Room but I don't care, Yelena and Natasha are your daughters, you can't refer to them as "your girls" and then say that your family wasn't real. And you, Natasha, what's your excuse? That is your sister in there whether you want to believe it or not. I get that you haven't seen her in 20 odd years but that is no reason for you to be a raging bitch towards her or me. If you're stressed then tell me, don't be a fucking asshole. What is it with you three? God, no wonder Yelena is mad at you all. I'm mad at you all. I'm going in there and I'm going to sit with Yelena and listen to her because obviously you three can't do that

- Alexei : I like her

- y/n : Well I really fucking hate you

- Natasha : Y/n-

- y/n : Not now Natasha. I need to take care of Yelena and this huge fucking mess

My priorities are now Yelena, Natasha, myself and getting home. I know Nat, she will bottle up until we get home to the compound and then she'll burst. She'll lash out and cry and scream and have nightmares but that's an issue when it happens. She'll also probably hate me for a few weeks. But right now Yelena needs someone and I am that someone so I'll deal with everything else later.

- Yelena : I like you. You make Natasha happy and you don't stand for the bullshit she says

- y/n : She knows I love her but that I won't let myself be walked over

- Yelena : She's right. We're not really sisters

- y/n : Not you too. This argument you two are having, is just more proof that you're sisters. I argue with my sister all the time

- Yelena : We're just old colleagues. The Ohio mission was just work

- y/n : God someone bring on the day you're my sister in law so it's acceptable for me to knock some sense into you

It doesn't matter how much of an asshole Nat is, she'll still be my wife one day, I know it.

- Yelena : You're actually going to marry her? I wouldn't go that far

- y/n : I mean I haven't really shown it recently but I am so in love with her

- Yelena : Ew

- y/n : Stop being a child. I don't know how to describe it

- Yelena : I'm going to get a dog when this is over

- y/n : Fair enough

- Yelena : What am I supposed to do when this is over?

- y/n : Come back with me and Nat? I know Nat is going to struggle when we get back and it might be nice to have her sister there.

- Yelena : What do you mean? Struggle?

It's not my place to tell Yelena the whole story but I can tell her the basics.

- y/n : It's not my story to tell. Nat struggled a lot. She'll need professional help when we get back to the Avengers

- Yelena : Maybe

There are bright lights shining into the house and a whirring sound. This doesn't seem very good.

- y/n : NAT?

- Natasha : I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Melina called the Red Room. It's Dreykov. I love you so much. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry

- Yelena : What?

- y/n : What do we do?

- Natasha : I got a plan, you just have to go with it

- Yelena : They're going to sterilise her Nat. You can't let them get her if you want a family

- y/n : What? Me? They're not sterilising me. Nat? Please, tell me they won't sterilise me

- Natasha : Well she can't run or hide. Just go with my plan please detka. Everything will be okay

Not being able to have children terrifies me. I want to give Nat everything she wants and she wants a family.

- Dreykov : The only thing that can make the famous Black Widow cry. Oh look, it's waking up

- Natasha : Y/n? Are you okay?

- y/n : Crap. My head hurts

- Dreykov : Y/n Hill, the newest Avenger, Natalia's lover

- Natasha : Don't fucking touch her

- Dreykov : Or what? You cannot hurt me, you know that

- y/n : I can though

I've never imagined I would ever have to do this. I have a gun to his head while he's staring straight at Natasha.

- Dreykov : You would not shoot me. You do not have the courage

- Natasha : Put then gun down detka

- y/n : You're a monster. Do you know how many times I've had to hold Natasha while she's crying over what you did to her and thousands of other girls. You're worthless

- Natasha : Please, detka, put the gun down. You don't want to do this

- Dreykov : Listen to your lover

- y/n : I know exactly what I'm doing

- Natasha : Detka please, listen to me

- Dreykov : Do it Y/n

- y/n : Tasha

- Dreykov : You need her permission to kill me. How adorable

This is Natasha's past, I need her permission to end the man who ruined her life.

- Natasha : Put the gun down detka

Okay.

Authors Note
Have a drink and
a snack please