Crazy For Your Love (Jensoo)

18| "Would It Be So Bad?"

|Jennie|

My sister is a happy drunk. Not that she's unhappy sober, because frankly, the girl never stops smiling, but alcohol somehow magnifies that happiness. She lets her guard down after a few drinks, like most of us do, but instead of being sloppy and obnoxious, she exudes joy I want to soak up.

Tonight has been all dancing and booze and laughter. In truth, I wasn't looking forward to the bachelorette party. The only bridesmaid I really know is my cousin Sabrina, and she and I don't exactly have a great relationship. Maybe it's a good thing she's not arriving until tomorrow morning. I can give my attention to Nayeon and enjoy myself without feeling judged by Sabrina.

Nayeon comes up to me on the dance floor and swings one arm around my shoulders. "This is the best weekend ever." She means it, and I couldn't be happier about that. "Do you know why it's the best ever?" she asks, swaying.

I grin. "I don't know. Maybe because you're marrying the love of your life?"

She snorts. "I would've done that on the dreariest day in the ugliest courthouse in America. And it does make me happy. But you know what makes that happiness even more awesome?"

Everything, it seems."What?"

"Seeing you and Jisoo!" She groans. "Oh my gosh. You guys are so cute together! Even Mom is loving her, and she wasn't sure about it, because you know how she feels about Kai."

How everyone feels about Kai, I think, because Nayeon likes him nearly as much as my parents do.

"But Jisoo. Damn, girl. No one, and I mean no one, is worried about how fast this thing happened between you two now that we've met her."

Guilt is a dull blade twisting in my gut. "You guys were worried about my relationship?"

"Of course we were! Come on, falling for a pseudo-celebrity who has women chasing after her? Yeah, we were worried. Not now, though." She waves a hand, as if what she said shouldn't matter. "I like her. I like that you like her, and I like the way she looks at you. I remember the first time Liam looked at me like that. I'm pretty sure that was the moment I fell in love."

I laugh. "And how exactly does Jisoo look at me?"

"Like you're the first starry night she's seen in a decade." She sighs dreamily, hanging on me a little. "Like you're the moon and she's the sun."

"That's poetic."

She grins. "I figured you'd rather hear that than the truth."

I frown. I kind of liked the idea that Carter looked at me like that. "What's the truth?"

"Like she wants to lick every inch of you and make you come."

I smack her arm. "Nayeon."

"You two haven't done it yet, have you?"

"Nayeon!"

"I can feel the tension. I know you haven't. Is it her? Does she have like religious reasons for waiting, or . . ." She narrows her eyes. "Or is it you? Maybe after everything . . ." The joy seems to drain out of her in a rush. "Maybe you're scared to be with someone again."

I roll my eyes. "I've been with people since Taehyung."

"So why not Jisoo?"

Why not, indeed? I don't have a good answer. Not one that doesn't involve more lies. "We want it to be special," I finally say, because that feels like the truth.

"Oh my God." She throws back her head and tugs on her hair with both hands. "That is so hot. But you do other stuff, right?"

"Seriously, stop." I laugh.