Even If The World Was Ending

10. No control

Shubman harshly pulled Ishan. And he clenched his collar. "You had your mind fucked?! I was the one drowning in guilt during the campfire while you were dancing and drinking your ass off!Aur hain woh hai mera dost, par puri duniya janti hai ki Shubman ka best friend kon hai! So I didn't think of it as anything. Itna possessive bas ek friendship keliye hona kuch zyada dramatic nahi tha, Ishan?!" Shubman spoke yelled with his nose flaring and eyes red and teary.

Ishan swatted Shubman's hand harshly. He gave two hard push Shubman which made him hit the bathroom door harshly. The half open door now fully opened.

"Tum na Shubman, bahut kamino insan ho. Tere liye, main jitna bhi karu na, you always doubt. You always get insecure. And woh insecurities ko bhi main hi handle karta ho. I give so much in this friendship that now it hurts Shubi.. it hurts to share you with anyone because more than anyone, I value you more. And you know why?! Because I LOVE YOU Damn it! And I hate that I love you so much. I hate it that you have so much effect on me. I hate that even a minute away from you feels like an eternity. I hate that even right now.. when you are so close too me, you feel so far. And I hate that even though I love you.. I can't have you. Because I will lose you Shubi.. and I am ready to die rather than not having you by my side." Ishan said with so much pain in his voice, that it was hurting his heart. His voice cracked at the last sentence and now Ishan almost started crying.

Shubman was stunned. Ishan loved him. Ishan LOVES him. ISHAN LOVES him. ISHAN LOVES HIM.

Unable to look at Ishan's state, Shubman with both of his hands slowly cradled Ishan's face and made him look up at him. Ishan slowly stopped crying as he looked up at Shubman. He saw Shubman's almost teary eyes, cheeks flushed and lips wobbling. He looked beautiful, without even trying. 'Here I should hate him.. but still I can't resist his beauty.. even while he is sad' Ishan got lost in his thoughts.

"You love me Ishan... are you sure? Are you very sure that what you feel for me is love? Because Ishu, you are like a fresh breath of air I need every second to breathe in. You are the pain that my heart loves to endure.. you are my only reason to wake up. Hell! You're also my only reason that I have stayed sane in this team Ishu." Shubi said softly almost as if every word he spoke was fragile enough and caused severe cracks in his heart.

Ishan felt relief. Though after the drunken night, Ishan knew that Shubman did have feelings for him, but after seeing him so close to Abhishek.. Ishan had so many doubts. He was worried of losing his chance.. a chance at confessing his love. And that was the last straw.

Ishan grabbed Shubman's face in his hands, slowly tip toed and then kissed Shubman, right on his lips.

And this time, the kiss was slow, soft, with lots of love, more than lust. It was everything they both wished to have as their first kiss with each other.

In that moment, nothing mattered to them. The only thing that mattered was them being in each other's arms, feeling the love and warmth.

They slowly parted their lips away from each other and touched their foreheads.

A small smile appeared on their face, and slowly a full blown grin.

They looked at each other at same time. Ishan brushed his thumb against Shubman's cheek and Shubman just swept the strand of Shubman's hair away from his eyes. The moment was soft and nothing could ever top this moments they thought.

"Ishu..." Shubman spoke softly and Ishan felt so good hearing his nickname from Shubman's lips, after a long day of him just saying his birth name.

"Haa Shubi... bolo" Ishan said softly almost in a baby like voice.

"I Love you too Ishu."

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