Trigger - Part 1

CHAPTER 4 - I Did What I Had To

My eye catches a flashing light;
00:24. I turn to look at the ceiling.

You have no idea what you are to me?

I jump up storming the door. A silhouette makes me flinch, I fall back catching myself on the doorframe. Slowly my eyes follow him stepping forward under the faded light strung from the ceiling. Distracted from my initial outburst, my eyes study his frame tightly wrapped in a navy towel. I follow the series of water drops gliding down his toned chest. Catching my breath, I meet his eyes.

"We need to talk!" I snap quickly in the hope he didn't catch my stare.

"Go to bed, it's late." His voice seems calmer than before.
"No! We are going to talk!"

"Don't test me Sage, now move!" He pushes past me towards the lounge. I run after him, grabbing his arm as hard as I can.

"You cannot do this to me-" I catch my breath as he turns around and starts moving towards me. I feel my back kiss the wall and swallow deeply at his sudden presence hovering against me. My brain can't think past the fact that all I can feel is his wet burning skin against me while his eyes pierce through my own.

Refusing to let him intimidate me; I lift my hand but before I could carry out my plan he catches my arm and pushes it straight above my head. Feeling anxious, I am unable to look away. His eyes reveal a side to him I can't quite place yet. His breath touches my lips while his fingers firmly wrap into mine.

"I can't do what?" His words fall slowly one for one gruffly. His hips dig into my body as he lifts my other hand next to my stretched out arm securing it with his thumb.

"I - I won't allow you..." I try to sound brave but my brittle voice gives me away. I am afraid; confused...

"Hm... Like you allow him?"

My brain stutters and my eyes take in more light than I expected, every part of me goes on pause then suddenly my thoughts catch up: Nikolai.

"Like you allow him to run his hands all over you." Shane copies his words while running his fingers down my arm to my hip, applying pressure.

"Like you allow him to force his way." My skin tightening under his firm hold.

"To use you... HURT YOU!"
My skin jumps at the sound of his knuckles connecting the wall next to my head.

"I... I don't know what you are talking about." I say confused, weeping bitterly.

"I know what he did to you Sage!''

Before I could defend myself he pulls me away from the wall and drags me to the end of the hall into his bedroom. His grip fades, he digs in some luggage placed at the end of the bed and whips out a laptop pulling me next to him. His fingers moving rapidly I can't quite make out what he is trying to do. A video pops up and I see myself sitting in a chair, my eyes closed like I was sleeping. I look at Shane stunned not knowing why he is showing me this. He taps the volume key a few times before setting the laptop down. I stare at him as he storms out the room and I quickly follow, but the sound of my voice stops me. I look back and hear myself crying out Nikolai's name hysterically.

My body fails to move as every word I speak feels like hot metal seeping through my ears. My heart drops to my stomach, causing me to fall on all-fours. A burning sensation filling my stomach sends me bolting through the door looking for the nearest bathroom.

Unable to keep it down I throw myself at the open toilet, my muscles tense, I grip the seat above my head. My grip slides as I lose all sense of feeling, I drop.

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My eyes fly open while grabbing my stomach, remembering the pain I felt. I press my palm against my head trying to piece together how I ended up in bed. I fix my eyes on the open door at the sound of footsteps approaching.