Admiring Her : The Heiress (Unedited.)

CHAPTER 48-Taliya's Explanation.

Atasha's POV.

"Atasha! Open this God damn door! Don't you dare do something to harm yourself!" I heard Taliya is shouting behind the door at pilit na binubuksan ang pinto na nakasarado.

I don't know what is happening with me. The darkness is here again, it's slowly coming back.

Would it be better...if...I..end this?

The pain, the betrayal, the dishonesty I got from the woman I always love from the very start is too much. The betrayal, that even my brother and lola knew before they died. Am I still their family? I thought a family never lie to one another...but, why?

"Please, Atasha! Open this, kapag hindi mo 'to binuksan ay sisirain ko 'to!" Sigaw ni Taliya, ngunit, ang pintig lamang ng puso ko ang tanging naririnig ko.

I am here to enjoy, I almost came back rushing to her. I...almost. Bakit nga ba ang tanga ko? Even Wendy, she already reminded me what to do. I disobey her because of this feelings!

I saw a scissors and get it. This is the solution. The only solution. Inilapat ko 'to sa pulso ko at ramdam ko ang unti-unti nitong pagbaon sa pulso ko. I smiled, even though it hurts. Maybe, this is for the best.

Ngunit, bago ko pa man 'yon mailaslas ay bumukas na ang pinto at kita ko ang pagkabigla sa mukha ni Taliya. Her tears start dropping and I saw Harly at the back, ganon din si Shiro na nagulat. Harly tried her best na takpan ang mata ni Shiro at itinakbo 'to papalabas.

I thought Taliya will get mad at me, but, to my surprise, she didn't. She didn't say anything at inalis ang gunting sa kamay ko bago ako yakapin.

Hindi na ako nakapalag at sinimulang suntukin nang marahan ang dibdib nito. Para akong mamamatay, sobrang sakit. Napakasakit! They betrayed me. Lalo na ang babaeng akala ko'y mamahalin ako nang lubos.

"W-What did I ever do to y-you...to h-hurt me l-like this?!" Mahinang sigaw ko dahil nauubusan na ako ng lakas na lumaban pa. I felt how Taliya started comforting me at mas hinigpitan ang pagkakayakap sa'kin.

"Please...please..don't ever think of hurting yourself. I-I am begging you. P-Please.." Pagmamakaawa n'ya habang hawak hawak ang pulso ko na may mumunting dugo na tumutulo.

"B-But, you. Y-You're...you a-are the one w-who i-is hurting me.." I whispered and sob. How can she say those things to me, kung s'ya naman ang nananakit sa'kin?

"You..you are the one who's hurting yourself. Please, l-let me e-explain first." She said na ikinatigil ko sa pag iyak. I saw her face, with expression this time. Napaiyak muli ako ng makita ang sakit sa mga mata n'ya. Her eyes can't lie.

"Taliya, Atas-"

"Not now, Parcia. Can you give me and my s-sister some time first? Can you go out? I need some time to talk to her." Putol ni Taliya sa sasabihin ni Parcia. I saw how Parcia froze at tumango bago lumabas at isinarado ang pinto.

Taliya looked at me and smiled for a bit bago ako ayain na sa sala mag usap. I don't want to say no because I know that I want to know something too. Ayokong mabuhay ng puro hinanakit at takot na malaman ang totoo. I was afraid to know the truth for four years, I can't afford to lose myself again. Hindi ko na kakayanin...

Well, I almost lost it earlier.

"What do you want to know first?" She asked ng makaupo at inabutan ako ng tubig na kinuha ko naman at dali daling ininom. Parang nanuyo ang lalamunan ko sa tanong n'ya.

"B-Bakit hindi n-n'yo kami hinanap..n-ni na mama..Bakit hindi ko alam na may k-kakambal a-ako?" Panimula ko na ikinaupo nito nang maayos at tumingin sa mga mata ko bago malungkot na ngumiti.