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AA

the sign is an AA meeting for the family's of users i sigh we sit next to lip the meeting starts and people start going up and talking about their lives with alcoholics it sounds like it sucks to be around these people ian grabs lia and goes up
|uh hi i'm ian and this is lia my boyfriend he's new this is his first meeting i guess and he does t like admitting he's an alcoholic but i mean who does my father is a raging alcoholic but mickey isn't like his dad or my dad he has a heart and he loves me and lia which is why we're here|-i
fuck this is gonna be brutal
|conveniently for this meeting i have a great example for what he's put us through, for the past two weeks mickey has been a raging drunk all the time he hasn't been sober for two weeks straight which when this was happening mickey came to my work intoxicated and started screaming and throwing bottles till i had to send him home and i lost my job luckily for me i got it back but mickey didn't stop it's not like he hasn't done it before but now it's coming down to custody with our child but two days ago my brother a sponsor here lip was warning mickey he was one night away from a black out and he was right because today at 1 am i got a call from our local bar that we had a unconscious person due to a fight we showed up and i find my brother lip unconscious and mickey was uncontrollable i thought that would be the end of us he hurt my brother and he also left our child with a teenager i trusted for 1 hour to watch but i know i can't give up on him he didn't give up on me when i was going through my mental problems and that's not fixable so i came here and i hope he listened to atleast one thing i said and i hope he starts his journey from this point on because i will support him along with everyone else|-i
shit.
10 minutes later
lip goes up i'm already stressed and on the verge of tears what more could they do
|hi i'm lip ive been sober for about a year and i'm here with mickey i'm ian's brother lias uncle and i just wanted to pop in and say a few more things|-l
fucking great i'm in for it now
|mickeys like a brother too me he's been around for longer than ian and mick have been dating which is four years he's played baseball with ian i mean ian tutored mickey he's a truly smart person he's got a big heart and doesn't give up when things are rough but lately i've seen nothing but my father in mickeys eyes and my father has hurt ian he has hurt me and he's hurt our youngest brother liam he's done nothing to be a father a husband a friend nothing and that's becoming mickey i'm scared he's going to hurt ian and lia i don't care that he hurt me i threw the first punch but mickey has had a problem with alcohol and ian they don't mix well and i've seen what mickey can say when he's drunk i mean ian had to handcuff mickey to the bar and force feed him granola bars and water because he just wanted to have a normal conversation with him and i am dreading the day he lets go completely so yea i want him to sober up and i'll do anything to help because i love him i love my brother and i love my niece|-l
1 week alcohol free
i'm trying i'm trying so goddamn hard i can't do it i need a beer just one i'll have only one
AT THE ALIBI 3 BEERS IN
lip walks in he just stares at me
|the fuck do you want|-m
|let's go to a meeting there's one now|-l
|no i'm not gonna stop drinking just for you i'm perfectly fine|-m
|mickey you are not doing this lip you are doing this for orange boy and lia so you will go and you will not cry like little bitch would cry about it|-svet
i get up and go with lip
AT MEETING
i'm sitting here waiting for it to be over i get a text from ian
ian<3|where are you|
mick|AA meeting w lip|
ian<3|ok see you at home|
mick|yep|
|you wanna go up|-lip
|what would i even say|-m
|hi i'm a raging asshole i treat my boyfriend and his family like shit even though they all care about me|-l
|fuck you|-m
|maybe my dad never showed me what it's like to be successful and sober so i was raised to be a raging asshole who hates everyone but i really don't want to be i just want to make people happy and be who i am because who i am sucks|-l
|that one's a little better|-m
|that's cause i said that the first time i was here and it didn't suck to actually say how i felt then|-l
|i'll say stuff next time|-m
|or you can go up and act like your talking to ian and he won't say anything back that's what i did aswell|-l
|fuck i guess i'll go|-m
i walk up everyone stares at me fuck this shit i look at lip he has my full attention
|hi i'm mickey i drink like a lot and i suck because i have a family who cares so much about me and i really appreciate them but i don't know how to express that so i drink because i feel like when im drunk i don't have to say anything i can just do what i want no repercussions but im learning that when i do talk to people they listen and help so i don't have to drink to hide that anymore but you know it's so hard because right now for some reason i'm stuck on thinking the only person i can trust is my boyfriend and that's hard to do when he also has his own problems and i guess that's another reason because i'm so pissed i am always taking care of him but i want to i really do he's so important to me and then i get caught up with him and myself drinking helps but his brother lip got me here after he found me at the bar so yea|-m
i walk back to lip and we leave