[Wei Wuxian's first-person POV]
Lan Zhan woke up. I walked him to the gates. We faced each other. Staring and memorizing each other's faces.
When he suddenly hugged me tightly.
"I am going Wei Ying... I'll see you later..."
How I wished I heard those words before... But...
I have made up my mind.
I have to end this.
For me... For him... For us...
"I'm sorry Lan Zhan... But I can't see you anymore..."
Like the star and sun that can never meet. Same time, in the same place, the damage was far too much.
"I don't want to hurt you anymore..." I said with tears rolling to my cheeks, "this is the last..."
I am sorry. I am sorry, my love...
"I will meet you..."
Lan Zhan's embrace lossen. His hands fell to his side. We parted from the embrace, lay my forehead to his.
"This will be the last... I let myself love you..."
"Wei Ying... I..."
"Lan Zhan... I have always loved you... Let myself hurt for you..."
His tears falling. Even the night did not spare us and make it even colder.
"Wei Ying..."
"I want to be happy Lan Zhan..." I cut him, my hands holding the bangle I cared more than my life.
"Away from you..."
I smiled, remembering those sweet moments.
"I want to love you... But I can't... I don't want to give you up... But I can't... I want to spend my life with you but I can't..."
(I promised.... you will be my bride.)
Our promises were long lost forgotten. Broken by the same instance we fell apart.
There was nothing between us.
"I have hurt for you for far too long..." I said in a fond tone, "and I want to be happy now..."
Oh, how wrong it is...
"I know... I can never be happy with you..."
Why? Why would come to me right now?
Why would you beg me now that I have made up my mind?
Why would you seek for me now that I have let you go?
"I am here to tell you... To stop... Lan Zhan..."
For me... For you... You don't have to suffer the pain with me.
"I want you to find happiness.."
Not with me.
"I want you to find a person to be with me.."
That will never be me.
"Want you to be happy."
By someone's side.
"And spend the rest of your life with that person..."
Not me... Not to a dying man.
Taking out the treasure I have protected in my entire life.
Now is the time to return it to his rightful owner.
"Lan Zhan..." Taking his hand I placed the bangle on his palm.
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One Year Time Bomb
FanfictionLan Wangji has to spend a year with a troublemaker, falls in love, is hurt for love, and hurts the love of his life. After breaking that person's heart, he realized how much he loves him. But it was too late. He should have never let go in the first...
