It's just after 4 pm on a Sunday
I'm screaming on the inside
Until my silent vocal cords spit out
All over the hardwood floor
Falling perfectly into place
to spell it out:
"I miss him."
Can anyone hear me through the forced silence?
Can anyone see my vocal cords tightening;
Getting ready to burst at their seams?
I wish I could slit my throat without ending my life
so you could see how I'm being ripped apart
From the inside, out.
I feel like punching walls
Putting chaotic holes in them
Like a toxic teenage boy with anger issues
-Is this what it's like inside their heads?
(Maybe they're not as psychotic as we think)
ShitshitshitshitSHIT!
But instead what can I do?
Write.
I can fucking write.
:)
Just like Ernest Hemingway said to "write hard and clear about what hurts."
Here the hell I am!
Who are you to say what I can and cannot do
when I am trying to listen to what The Lord wants first and foremost?
Who I get to love and when I get to love them?
Who are you to advise me your opinions like they're biblical
when I can't find a single passage to prove they're sound and safe?
Sounds like Bullshit.
Pure! Shit from a Bull
Trying to maul me into legalism
You cannot put timeframes on The Lord.
Isn't that what you preach?
Make it make sense.
I will listen to my Jesus,
Please and Thank you.
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Acidic Art
PoetryMay 31st 2021-Present (Book 3) YOU CAN FIND BOOK 1, Silent Soul, on Amazon! Search: "Silent Soul by Racheal Lynn Edwards" under the "book" category. BOOK 2, Twisted Thrill, on Amazon as well! XOXO