Possessing Nothing Novel (쥐뿔도 없는 회귀)

Chapter 71 - Sword Dragon

"It was actually rather endurable. There was your magic too."

"The Mind Cleaning spell is only a temporary measure. Although I did teach you that, I... honestly thought that you wouldn't hold out. I thought you'd run from your training, or go crazy."

Scarlett giggled. She crouched down by the fire and pulled on her blanket.

"What? Keep doing whatever you were doing."

"You aren't going to sleep anymore?"

"Didn't I tell you that I had a nightmare?"

"What kind of nightmare was it?"

"Quite generous, are you? Why do you want to know about my nightmare? Are you going to solve it for me?"

Scarlett asked, her lips curved upwards. Since Sungmin was completely used to her kind of intonation, he shrugged his shoulders.

"I can at least listen."

"I don't really want you to listen though."

"Then you don't have to talk about it."

Saying that, Sungmin raised his spear again. He concentrated and agitated his internal energy. The purple fog clad around the spear clumped and became a flame. Compared to the first time, he took much less time to create spearforce. However, he was still too slow.. Sungmin had come to the conclusion that he lacked the knowhow to do it properly.

"I dreamed about the past."

Scarlett muttered. Sungmin did not stop his training. However, his ears were open, and he heard Scarlett's words. If he stopped and focused on listening to Scarlett instead, she would no longer bother talking about it.

"It was about when I was young. The time I... was a very cute girl. Before I was summoned in Eria. It sounds like nothing much, but a war erupted."

The story suddenly escalated.

"You know, there will always be orphans in war. I was like that too. I dreamed about back then. My family died and my village burned. I was lucky enough to survive, and I had a good fortune even after that as well. I was able to survive somehow, and also got to learn magic."

Surviving, you know? – she added.

"I think everything is like that. You survive because you are lucky, and you live because you are lucky. It's obvious that you'll die if you don't have luck. Around me... were plenty of people that didn't have luck. I just became close to them, and if they die because they didn't have luck? The side that lives due to luck feels a tremendous sense of loss. It's always like that."

Dying because one didn't have luck. Sungmin agreed to to that. Sungmin died because he was unlucky in his previous life. In this life, he survived because he was lucky. Though, he didn't know himself if his 'luck' was just that.

"It is very hard to get used to a sense of loss like that. At least... for me anyway. This is something like a defense mechanism for me. I was lucky until now, and I feel that I will be lucky in the future too. But, I don't think that the people around me will also have as much luck as me. That is why I don't want to get close to anyone."

What am I saying, – she muttered.

"So, it's like this. I just don't need to get close to anyone. Isn't everyone like that? They feel a lot of things if someone around them dies, but if someone unrelated dies, then that's just that. Yeah. It's not being selfish, that's just human nature. I'm like that too."

The three basic moves of the spear became the Nine Skies Infinity Spear. He was now quite used to the art he had learned and trained for a considerable time, and no longer hesitated in his actions. His internal energy flowing from his dantian maintained his spearforce. However, the light became thinner and thinner. It required a tremendous amount of concentration to maintain spearforce, and he was listening to Scarlett's words on top of that.