Santana pov: my mama and Jp left and it was just me, Raven, and my sister serenity sitting at the table in silence. The other day we talked things got pretty heated and I ain't have nothing to say to her honestly.
Serenity:(sighs) I'm sorry little bro. I tried to blame everything on you and it wasn't right. I just miss you and I know mama missed you. You been gone 9 years and it just hurt me. I never should've said you wouldn't be shit cause I see you're doing amazing in life and I'm so proud of you
Santana: I'm sorry too, should've never called you a crack head or said I hope you overdose. I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy
Serenity: hug it out ?
Santana:(stands up ) come on bring it in
Serenity: damn boy you're tall (stands up and hugs him)
Raven pov: I'm happy Santana was able to make up with his sister and mama. I know it means a lot to him. After a while they say there catching up and laughing and taking pictures and stuff and I felt real outta place and honestly just wanted to go home. I've been somewhat battling depression since my brother was killed and I just don't know what to do. It's like everyone else's lives kept going on but mine stopped that day. I just wanna sleep .I slid on my shoes and grabbed my purse and then went into the living room to tell santana I was about to go.
Raven: Tana I'm bout to go
Santana: why? I thought you was gone spend the night with me?
Raven: I'm just not feeling like myself right now ( hugs him) I'll call you later, nice meeting you serenity
Serenity: you too Raven
(Raven starts walking to the door)
Santana:(frowns ) I'll be back sis ( gets up and goes to the door) best friend what's wrong?
Raven: Tana I gotta go (tearing up )
Santana: what's wrong ? Why you crying ?
Raven: I'm okay I promise I just wanna go home and sleep
Santana: uh uh, come talk to me ( walking her down the hall to his room and shuts the door )
Raven:(sits on the bed) tana I'm straight
Santana: you think I'm gonna believe that and you got tears in ya eyes. What's wrong ?
Raven:( tears roll down her cheeks)I'm depressed as hell Tana, I'm tired, I really am. I feel like everything is not going the way it should. I'm tryna be happy but I can't no more
Santana:sits next to her and pulls her into a hug) you miss your brother and it's bothering you isn't it ?
Raven: yes, I can't even bring myself to go to his grave. Every time I go on the porch I still see the blood stain and I get flashbacks. My parents act like everything is normal and it's not ! Why does everyone act like my brother didn't mean shit ? I was the only one who cared about him (breaking down ) and now he's gone and I can't bring him back. I couldn't save him!
Santana: (holding her tightly ) I know you feel like you could've did more but you couldn't. Everyone grieves different so you may feel like everybody moves on but trust me they didnt. I don't want you holding these feelings in . You know I got ya back and anytime you need to talk just come to me. I don't care if I'm busy or not. I don't want you feeling like this.(wiping her face) I promise you imma help you through this alright
Raven: nods) Thank you
Santana: I'm not letting you leave upset like this so (takes her keys) imma hold on to these you finna lay down and relax
Raven: Tana gimme my keys
Santana: nope ( kisses her forehead) relax (walking out the room)
YOU ARE READING
Crushing
General Fiction19 year old Raven Price falls for a 24 year old drug dealer that's not cut out to be as bad as people make him seem. The more time they start spending together the more she's sees maybe he isn't so bad after all.
