One fell first, the other harder

Hurts so good

What hurts is not that i loved you but that i chose to stay knowing you would hurt me
The author

(This quote was written inspired by something personal so anyways)

Vegas POV
*flashbacks*
I want to rip my head out. I am going in a mission and my uncle decided to pair me with any other than Porsche.
I don't want Pete to feel insecure or think of silly things.
And the worst was what my father told me as soon as we left the meeting and head to the car.
-This is our opportunity. You need to look after Porsche and make a move. If Kinn is affected that will cause a domino effect on the major family. Do whatever you need but get in line with Porsche- he said smiling.
-But pa i don't think that works. He is really secure with Kinn and- i tried to say to avoid the situation. I don't want anything to come up between me and Pete specialy because we are not official yet.
But i can't go against my father's choice. This is all he has been fighting for in his life so i can't let it split up. Besides if i do things carefully Pete might understand my reasons.

*present moment*
Porsche is alone so i go against me in porpose making his shirt wet. Kinn is dealing with other costumers that have a common insterest of finishing some of our enemies.
Its my oportunity.
I push Porsche by the door softly pretending i only want to help him.
I unstrip his shirt but i don't feel anything. I would rather have a view of Pete's beautiful curves and lines.
Then all the toughts of my father are ringing inside me so i just throw myself in him and try to kiss him.
His lips taste nothing like Pete's and i don't like them. It disgusts me that i have to do this but my father wants it and i cant disapoint him anymore.
Porsche pushes me away from the sink and look at the door surprised.
He sees Pete standing there alone watching us.
Shit i messed up everything.
When i look at him he walks away as fast as he can leaving the bathroom.
I leave Porsche alone not looking back and go after Pete.
Porsche seems greatly surprised but because i let him go he doesn't care anymore.
I follow Pete out of the bar and find him sitting alone with his head in his knees.
I lay on my knees in front of him and call his name.
-Pete listen i am sorry. My father- i was cut off by him.
-No Vegas. I am the one who's sorry for believing that you actually loved me. I should have known i am just a bait for your plan to conquer Porsche. I am not anything else besides a scape goat right- he says with his shaken voice and lifts his head with an overflowing amount of tears in his face.
-Pete- i held his hand and he tries to push it back but i don't allow him to do so- it was my father's plan. I was never interested in Porsche. My father asked me to do something. You know i cant go against him. I am scared too Pete. I am scared that you will stop loving me for something i cant just stop- i say lowering my voice and holding back tears.
His eyes observe mine and we are quiet for a while.
-I am sorry Pete.  I am sorry i gave you no reasons to trust me- i say.
-Vegas i understand you but i am also a human you know? I also feel a lot and i am hurt. I chose to stay even if i knew you could break my heart. How do you think i feel seeing you kissing my best friend which also happens to be Porsche- he asks helplessly.

Pete POV
-Pete i am sorry. I can't undo all the bad things i have done to you but you know i cant stop myself from doing what my father wants. Even if it cuts me deeply to bleed i can't just do me. I need to follow my family too Pete. Even if he is a bad father he is the only one i have left besides Macau- Vegas voice is shaking so much. I have never seen him like this before.
He is crying so much as he holds into my hands.
I am shut quiet. I don't know what to say so i just hold him. I know he needs this hug more than i do.
He says between his breaths in a whisper:
-I am scared Pete. I am so scared.
-Don't worry i am here- i say to him softly.
-That's what i am the most scared of. I am scared i might make you bleed so much you wont be here anymore. I am sorry Pete. I promise i will never do anything like this again- he says holding me even tighter.
We both start crying in each other's embrace and so we decide to go to my room since Porsche is staying in Khun Kinn's room anyways.
We lay down and cry for long minutes hugging each other tight scared of letting each one of us go.
-Pete i am sorry.
-How many times have you said that already? I understand your reasons Vegas, just don't do something like this again- i say rubbing my nose against his face.
He smiles at me widely.
-Pete
-Hum
-To end all of minsunderstandings i want you to be my boyfriend officialy. I want you to date me. Even if you can't tell the major family and even if i have to give time to my crazy cousin i accept it all. If you are willing to accept my twisted mind Pete. I can-
I kiss him stoping him from saying anything else.
We kiss passionately holding hands and i smile.
-I accept.
I am ready to give Vegas a second chance or maybe many more.

End of chapter! Uploading it soon or yall are going to rip my head out lmao. For this fic i want them two to communicate a lot a go through things together.
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