beautiful boy - nick nelson x reader

7 - party

october

i'm packing up for the end of the day when nick walks over to me.
"sooo do you want to come to ben hope's house party with me?" he asks me.

"ben hope's having a house party?" i never really knew ben too well. like,, he's really popular and well attractive, but i've never paid attention to him really.
"yeah, please come with me. i want you to be there." nick says.

i smile.
"yeah. i'll be there. just text me the information." i tell him. "well, i need your number first." he laughs.
"oh, right." he hands me his phone and i put my number in.

. . . . . . . . . . . .

i put on a graphic t-shirt, a flannel, baggy ripped jeans, and my converse on. this is just a house party, so i figure that i don't need to dress formally.

i ring the doorbell and harry greene opens the door. i hate harry greene. he bullied me a lot last year because he knew i was queer. he laughs when he sees me at the doorstep.

"who invited this freak?" he chuckles. his mates behind him laugh.
"nick did." i said. i regret it, because he begins laughing even more.

"ok fine. come in." he says after he stops laughing. i feel uncomfortable already.

i walk in. i look around for nick because neither tao or charlie or any of my other friends were invited. i guess this is considered a 'popular kids party' and i only got invited because i'm friends with a popular kid.

ben hope's house is actually pretty large. i walk around and stumble into the kitchen. i find nick. his face and body is blocked by everyone in the view but i recognize his dark blonde hair. relieved, i walk through the crowd and that's when i see it.

nick's face.
and he's kissing someone.
he's kissing imogen heaney, a girl from the higgs school across from truham.

at this point my face is becoming red and my eyes are tearing up. i run into the bathroom and sit down in the bathtub as i cry. i shouldn't be crying. i really shouldn't.
nick is the star player on the rugby team. of course he's gonna fall in love with a pretty and popular girl. i shouldn't even have thought he might like me back in the first place.

he's the straightest person i've ever seen. imogen is really pretty anyway. she deserves him. i don't. i don't fucking deserve someone like nick nelson. someone as beautiful and amazing and kind as him. i don't deserve any of it. i deserve to be fucking alone for the rest of my shitty life. suddenly someone comes in the bathroom. shit, i forgot to lock it.

"oh. hi." he's holding a bottle of beer.
"uhhh.. beer?" he offers me.
"yes." i say, without hesitation. i don't know what i'm getting myself into. i don't know what i'm doing to myself.
he hands me the beer bottle and i chug it like my life depends on it. hopefully i can drink the misery out of me.

after drinking the entire thing i stumble out of the bathroom and almost pass out when ben hope catches me. looking in his eyes i realize that he's actually a very attractive guy.

he says something but i can't comprehend what it is because i've almost passed out. he brings me upstairs and lays me on a bed in a bedroom.

he's trying to help me. he knows i'm wasted so he's trying to help. he's a nice person. he's..
a

nice..

person.

i close my eyes. i'm safe now.