Her Silent Scream

birthday...

I opened my eyes , only to stare at the ceiling blankly , I don't know what time it is maybe it passed mid night

My head is going to explode,  I hadn't changed my dress last night , I didn't treated my wounds and let them bleed .

I don't know when I returned home last night , I was shivering totally soaked in rain ...

I don't care ..I don't care if I am going to get sick, I don't care anymore
Life was always been unfair for me ...

I was jinx to my mother I destroyed her killed her that's why God is killing me slowly by taking my love away from me

Soon my eyes started watering,  it is more painful than I have imagined,  it hurts I am hurt ....

I stretched my hand to take my phone laying on the table ,only to see it is flooded with happy birthday messages from Ana,  this girl is crazy
Why she cares so much for a girl like me why ??

I went to through all messages but I can't find the single message from that particular one , my heart is logging for his single glance
A tear rolled down my cheeks , he forgot my birthday, he forgot me...
I shouldn't have expect such things from him , afterall who  I am ?

Daisy chuckled bitterly, we were happy John,  yes after long time of my mom's death I was so much happy to have you in my life ....
It's ok I am used to it...I am used to get hurt....

I sighed heavily,  it's my birthday today I don't want to celebrate,  but that shorty will force me to celebrate it , I know how stubborn she is ...
I don't feel any special to celebrate it ...
But for my Ana I will do it ,
When mom was alive ,I used to be so much excited to celebrate my birthday those days were magical , but now that magic faded in this darkness..
This place suffocate me , I want  to  go back to my mom...
I miss you so much mom...

daisy picked herself after lots off efforts, she stared at her reflection in the mirror

Same  face same pain same puffy eyes same dried tears, she felt like this things were never going to change
A sigh escaped her mouth , she rolled up her sleeves to see her hands  still red and the cuts are  looking fresh ,
She took a quick shower, changing herself into hoodie.
She hissed as the alcohol came in touch with her cuts , after properly disinfecting it , she applied bandages on it
Her knees were always bruised,  it feels nauseous to treat this type of cuts again again but she have to do it...
She don't want Ana to see her this side , she don't want to burden her more...

After successfully covering her wounds , daisy layed back and soon drifted to sleep due to her mental exhaustion.

Daisy shot open her eyes due to loud scream, she clutched her chest looking horrified,
She rolled her eyes , looking at ana with big wide eyes
And here goes away Ana with cake in her  one hand ,the other holding a knife 
With a birthday cap on her head, with wide smile plastered on her face
Soon she started singing happy birthday song her lungs out ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR DESICCA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUUUUUUU

daisy covered her ear , gosh this girl is looking like a total psychopath with cake and knife in her hand and singing her lungs out heck, shouting , barking on top of her lungs

Common daisy cut the cake , ana shouted excitedly
Daisy just chuckled at her crack bestie blowing the candles and slicing the cake feeding it to ana
Ana took a large peice and showed it in daisy mouth , hugging her tightly