I always feel like I'm floating through life. There was nothing to hold me in one place, there's nothing that has enough weight for me to stay.
Still... I wanted to believe that there's something special out there waiting for me.
Pero hindi pala g...
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CHAPTER 42: SUBSCRIBE
ERIS' POV
"Alam mo sa pelikula, hindi ganito ang ginagawa."
Hinapit ako palapit ni Blaze sa katawan niya kasabay nang pagdaan ng kung sino sa tabi ko. "What do you mean?"
"In romantic movies, the characters usually rent the whole place to go on a date."
"We're not in a romantic movie."
"Wala nga. Nasa action movie tayo na mamaya magiging thriller kapag nabangga ako at aksidente kitang nasaksak ng blade."
He planted a soft kiss on my temple before I felt my feet left the ground. Impit na napatili ako at pinalo ko siya sa braso na ikinatawa niya lang.
Hindi naman nagtagal ay inupo niya ako kung saan. Inabot niya ang mga paa ko at siya na ang nagtanggal ng suot ko na sapatos. Nang maramdaman ko na may isinusuot siya sa akin ay napabuntong-hininga ako. "Kailangan ba talaga nating gawin 'to?"
"Ito na lang ang natitira sa bucket list mo. Number ten."
Ngumuso ako, "Pwede naman tayong maghintay na matapos ko muna ang treatment ko. Or we can wait for my happy time."
Nitong nakalipas na dalawang buwan ay mas madalas pa ata akong matagpuan sa ospital kesa sa sarili kong bahay o kay Blaze. Minsan kapag kinakailangan kong magtagal sa BHO CAMP Hospital at inaabutan na kami ng gabi ay mayroon ng kuwarto doon na nakareserba kung saan ako natutulog. At si Blaze. Dahil kahit saan ako pumunta ay nandoon din siya.
The Experiment Department, and Ezio Castenalla and BHO CAMP's doctors, are all teaming up for my treatment. As of today, the flashes of time that I gain back my ability to see have longer period than the first time I experienced it. Blaze and I call it my "happy time" whenever it happens.
Hindi iyon nangyayari araw-araw, but everyone can see the progress. From lasting to less than what seems like three minutes, and now that my longest is almost twenty minutes.
Pero kung ako ang tatanungin ay bawat minuto ng mga nagdaang buwan ay matatawag ko na happy time. With the things we went through, we became more centered. Understanding that life is in deed too short makes every moment special.
Kahit siguro habang-buhay ako na hindi makakita ay mananatili na ganito ang nararamdaman ko. Dahil alam ko na kung ano ang mas importante.
"Why do you want to wait? Are you uncomfortable with doing this right now?"
Napabuntong-hininga ako nang marinig ko ang pagbabago sa tono ng boses niya. He's such a worrier. "I know uncomfortable and this one is not it. Do you remember that time that you want to go with me to the comfort room when I said I needed to pee?"
