Oh Oh
It's the bright sun
Shimmers down on my face
The clouds
Form shapes I cannot unsee
I can't believe that you
Have always
Believed in me
I'm like a cowboy down in the west
Who always looks different from the rest
It used to be a tightening in my chest
But I never would have guessed
That my horse was the one who supported me
She's the one
Always has been
As I'm thinking about the water on my toes
2022 is a fresh wash
From the past two washed out years
I felt so unmotivated
But I still wrote about my issues
They were simple one hundred words
But now I'm done crying
The bright sun
Shimmers down on my face
And now I'm saved
The water
Drips down the back of my coat
As my feet
Are dancing through the puddles
Because I'm finally happy
I finally have something to be happy about
I have something that I can look forward to
I now know that I'm important
As I pray to God about self peace
I found in the storm
And I learned it all from the pain
Smiling
In the mirror
After too many years of hating myself
But now I feel so free
Like the shackles being lifted off of me
I'm finally free
Free
Oh I'm finally free
The sun
Brighter than I was
But I'm brighter than the sun today
As I'm looking into the sky
I see the clouds smiling at me
Knowing that I've solved self war
That I finally can say hello
After saying goodbye
Never standing up to the ones who hurt me
But now I'll fight back as long as I can continue smiling
It was the dark side that took everything and everyone from me
It was that same dark side that kept me out of the main picture
As I kept on trying
I kept on tearing myself apart on the inside
But now I
Can finally look at myself in the mirror
Like the way the lake reflects on the most important parts of my life
Telling me that I won't have enough time to be happy if I'm always hurting
If I tried calling to the better version of myself it would go straight to voicemail
It was the kinds of things that would tear me apart on the inside
It felt like I was drowning in a sea of abandonment and dirty laundry
And I just want to say sorry for everything that I have done to you
I want to say that I've found out that life is worth the pain and the fight
Because you could be that one person who stands out from the rest of the world
You could be that one person that saves someone from falling down the same hole you did
We couldn't stand the heat off every single situation as it would even worse
We were the ones that blamed ourselves because we were that desperate for the hurt feelings
But now we don't need to feel that pain anymore
Because while I'm looking at the sky
I see the girl that has been needing to be seen this whole time
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A Deep Dive Into My Teenage Mind (From The Vault)
PoetryI decided to write a whole poetry collection that concurs everything that has been happening in my years on this planet. I've been going through things good and bad. I'm so happy to put this out on short occasion but I'm ready to get this out.
