All Too Well

30

After one hour, nakarating na kami sa bahay ni Cherish. It's her own pent house. Wala na kasi ang pamilya nya dahil namatay na ang Mama at Papa nya dahil sa isang ambush na nangyari sa Italy. Kaya sya nalang ang mag isa ngayon ngayon sa buhay.

I stopped the car and looked at her. She's looking outside the window and I feel like I want to comfort her. I know she's in her deep thoughts because of what happened earlier.

Tinanggal ko ang seatbelt ko bago lumapit sa kanya at niyakap sya mula sa kanyang bewang. Naramdaman kong nagulat sya pero hindi sya nagprotesta.

I put my chin on her shoulder and pouted my lips.

"What's the matter, love?", I softly asked her. I felt that she tried to looked at me but it's hard for her because I was resting my chin on her shoulder that's why inilayo ko sa kanya ang chin ko at bumitaw sa pagkakayakap sa kanya. Hinawakan ko sya sa kanyang balikat bago pinaharap sa'kin.

Seryoso lang syang nakatingin sa'kin, halatang may iniisip. After five years, hindi ko akalain na mararamdaman ko pa ito. Akala ko ay hindi na. Akala ko ay sa kanya ko lang 'to mararamdaman.. hindi pala.

"Are you scared? Did they made you scared? Are you hurt? Tell me anything. Say something, please!", I softly said, begging her to speak up. She gave me small smile and kissed my lips. It's only a pecked but it made me smile.

"Your friends are right. I'm just your fuck buddy for three years and now, we end up having a romantic relationship. I-I think it's not right. I t-think we should stop seeing each other.", halos pabulong na ang pagsasalita nya dahil sa mahinang boses nya. I felt a slight punched inside my chest and I don't even know why.

Ngayon nalang ulit ako nasaktan ng ganito. Ngayon ko nalang ulit ito naramdaman sa maraming taon na halos wala akong girlfriend.

I held her cheeks and looked on her eyes, knowing if she's alright. I was stunned when I saw that her eyes are now starting to getting blurred. She's about to cry that's why I kissed both of her eyes.

Mula pa noon, ayoko nang makakita ng babaeng umiiyak. Hindi nila deserve ang masaktan. Hindi nila deserve magsayang ng luha dahil sa isang taong mahal nila na nagawa silang saktan. 

Dahil ang babae minamahal, hindi sinasaktan. At hindi naman porket lalaki ay sasaktan mo na dahil gaya ng babae, hindi rin deserve ng mga lalaki ang masaktan sa babaeng mahal nila. 

Inilayo ko ng bahagya ang aking mukha sa kanya at seryoso syang tiningnan. Nakangiti sya habang nakanguso, parang bata. 

"You're so cute, babe", papuri ko sa kanya habang namamanghang nakatingin sa kanya. She's so beautiful. She deserves to be happy and to be loved. She deserves the world. 

"Really?", nakangusong tanong nya sa'kin. Hinawi ko ang ilang hibla ng buhok nyang humaharang sa kanyang mukha. "Binobola mo lang ata ako e"

I laughed because of her cuteness. Damn! Mas napatunayan ko na gusto ko sya!

"Of course, not! Ni hindi nga ako marunong mambola e!", pagtanggi ko sa kanya. 

"Psh! Whatever!", she even playfully rolled her eyes at me, that made me laughed. It's so cute of her! "Sige na at baka gabihin ka pa. Diretso uwi ah? Don't forget to text me when you get home.", she added. 

"Opo, I'll text you kapag nakauwi na 'ko. Don't forget to eat your dinner, hmm? Don't skip dinner and don't forget to sleep early. Take care of yourself, love. It's more than enough for me", I seriously utter to her. She giggled and nod before she kissed my lips. It's just a peck but it made my heart beat became fast.

"Alright! I'll update you too when I already ate dinner. I'll call you when it's convenient for you and your not busy. Kailan nga ulit ang pasok mo?"