Red Flavor

A Glimpse

My alarmed blared, waking me up from my sleep. I blinked a few times and rubbed my eyes, before turning to look at the clock on my bedside table. It was 5.30 am, and the sky was violet, with a few streaks of cantaloupe from the rising sun. I grunted softly, tossing under my blanket. I was still sleepy, but I knew I had a long Sunday ahead of me, and I needed to start early.

I stared at my ceilings, trying to make out the mixed emotions I had in my heart. Somehow, the one that stood out the most was guilt. I closed my eyes. Yes. I felt guilty. I made a huge mistake last night with Yeoni.

Sure, we didn't carry on to have sex, but somehow I could still feel it, I could still feel him. I could still feel Yeoni's lips kissing my tits, his gentle hands kneading my butt, his tongue dancing around my nipples. I could still feel his 8 inches of manhood in between my thighs.

Still the best blowjob ever.

I shook my head, trying to shake away the thought. What was wrong with you, Sana? Yeoni wasn't the first person to tell you that! Heck, he wasn't even the first man to say it! I knew my oral skills were special, and both men and women had told me that repeatedly, so why did Yeoni's words make me wet my panties immediately? Why did his touch make me almost lose my cool last night?

I kicked angrily at my blanket, and my feet accidentally kicked a cold, slimy, rubbery thing. I jolted up and screamed, thinking that it was an animal, but when I looked down, I saw that it was the dildo I used last night to masturbate. I sighed and slumped back to my bed, clutching my forehead.

"Shit... Get a grip, Sana..." I scolded myself.

This wasn't right. I had promised myself that I wouldn't think of that thing I did to him in IPG's headquarters last year, back when it was still looking like a warehouse. I had told myself countless times that I did it merely because my boss ordered me to do so. I had told myself that my love for Dahyun and Jeongyeon was greater.

"Jeongyeonie..." I whispered longingly.

I reached to my side. It was empty, of course. Jeongyeon was probably still sleeping in her family's home in Suwon. I missed her so much, but I also missed her Eomma and Appa, and both Yoo Seoyeon-unnie and Gong Seungyeon-unnie too. They were so kind and loving when Jeongyeon brought me home to introduce me to her family for the first time a few years ago.

I chuckled. I remembered how afraid and hesitant I was to come with Jeongyeon to her hometown back then. I was afraid that her parents and sister would be angry to find that their youngest daughter was lesbian and had been in a relationship with me, a foreigner. But instead, I was met with a very welcoming and loving family. I remembered Yoo Changjoon-abeoji cooked a delicious feast to welcome us, and when Jeongyeon told them about our relationship, they were overjoyed and immediately welcomed me into their family as one of their own.

Somehow, this thought made me feel even guiltier. It felt like I had betrayed Jeongyeon's love and trust for me. I reached for my phone and sighed as the screen lit up, revealing my wallpaper: A photo of Jeongyeon and I together, sitting cutely side by side in front of our lodging in Zermatt, Switzerland. A chuckle left my mouth, but a single tear dropped from my eye. She looked so cute and so cool. She looked like she absolutely enjoyed herself.