Mirror Me

Twenty-four

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Y/N

          I could visibly see his face turn red. He placed his dominant hand on the small of his neck and nervously chuckled. Nervously..... like he didn't fuck my brains out a few hours ago.

What the hell is wrong with him?

I reached out once more and he stood up taking my hand. "You'll have to stand behind me because of your stitches." he gave me an agreeing hum. I turned on the water and watched as the mirror fogged up. I turned to face him. He almost looked shriveled against the bathroom door. I tilted my head to the side and spoke, "You know you don't have to shower with me right?"

He shook his head, "No I want to... I was just wondering if I used protection last night."

I gave him a confused look, "I told you I'm on birth control..."

"Forgot." He smiled sheepishly, rubbing the back of his head.

Shinsou brushed past me and pulled down his pants. My eye's winded seeing he was missing his boxers. He stepped into the shower and let his back hit the water careful of his stitches. I smirked and let the sheet fall from my body, It pooled at my feet. His breathing picked up as I stood behind him, the water now hitting me.

I reached for him and he stepped back. "Shinsou?" I reached for him once again and he pulled his arm away. "Are you scared to touch me?"

"Y/N...."

"Answer the question." I plainly said crossing my arms over my bare chest. He let out a breath.

"I- I don't remember last night..." My eyes widened and he started to panic. "I don't remember how to touch you.... Hell I don't even remember if I was any good." I started to pull away from him covering myself more. Shinsou grabbed my face, bringing my attention back to him. "It's not your fault, I drank the liquor, it's not your fault Y/N."

"N-No I knew it was a bad idea when you asked me to sleep with you. To let you take care of me. I knew you were under the influence!" I cupped my face in my hands. "I'm no worse than a rapist... I'm sorry Hitoshi." I felt disgusting like I took complete advantage of him.

"Y/N please. Don't say that... I'M sorry. I took your first time and now I'm leaving you with bad memories."

"It's the truth Hitoshi!" I screamed as tears pricked in my eyes. "Even worse I'm in the shower with you!" Completely pulling away from him I Stepped out of the tub and grabbed a towel from the waist high rack against the wall wrapping it under my arms. I shut the door behind myself.

I cant believe this... what the fuck, how? How could I slip up so badly?!

I heard the water shut off. Shinsou came out with a towel low on his waist. "Let's talk about this, please!? You didn't do anything wrong." He said rushing after me.

"Just go! Dont lie to me, I did something wrong and you should shame me!" He grabbed my wrist and pulled me into him. My body squirmed against him.

"Look at me! look at me
Y/N!" I snapped my head up my chest heaving. "You didn't do anything wrong.... Do you hear me? I. Don't. Think. It. Was. Wrong. Because I want to fuck you. I want to do horrible things to you and if my drunk ass sex last night was good enough to get you off then grate. You're special and all I care about is you feeling that way. So yes it was a mistake but hold me accountable as well."

The hard thumping in my chest slowed. What...