Being Fearless

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"It was a lie! All of it just one big lie!" I screamed at her. She was standing there just smirking at me. Everything I once knew was just a lie. All of the memories and the fun we had. It was all a lie for her gain. Standing on the frigid roof top, the wind blew alerting me of the salty tears coating my cheeks.

She was standing a distance away from me and Alex. As much as I hated that he lied, I still loved him. My love would never change for him no matter what.

"It was for your own good darling." She cooed at me. All my life I wanted her to comfort me. I wanted to hear the sweet words of my mother. I wanted to feel her love and for her to be proud of me. But now, I wish I had never met her.

"No Lilith. Everything you did, all the lies, was all for you. You don't care about me and you never did, I was just another pawn in your game. I trusted Amelia! I told her everything I felt, all the pain I went through from a man I thought was my father! Only to find out that she's just your bitch and my 'dad' was just a man you hired to train me into your own personal assailant. Do you even know what he did to me?!" Tears streamed down my face as I yelled at her. The sound of the wind whipping around me. Cars passing by 30 stories below us. Alex looked just as heart broken as me. He was standing between me and my mother starring at the ground.

"I know everything he did to you." Lillian said. "I was the one who authorized it." What she said made my body scream at the little she actually loved me.

"You knew he beat me and let men rape me for money?!" My voice was broken and I was a shaking mess. Lilith's eyes widened slightly.

"I don't know what you are talking about."

"Oh really, you don't know that he would let men use me when he owed someone money, or would let men test out their strength on me? Or was that just your way of making me 'better'." She didn't say anything and instead just looked away, giving me my answer.

She never cared about me. She just wanted a heir that she could use as a pawn. She never wanted me to find out anything, she was just going to use the 'I left you for your own good. I'm sorry for what he did to you, I didn't know' card.

I walked over to Alex not even sparing another glance and my so called mother. I grabbed his face making him look at me.

"Did you even love me?" My voice shaking as the words came out. Memories of all the first time he said he loved me. The way he said the now bitter sweet words to me.

"I always loved you. I never stopped and I will never stop." His words making me cry harder. I knew I could never say I loved him too because it would just hurt him more in the end. Maybe if he thinks I never loved him, he will move one. I saw Lilith moving from the corner of my eye. She was reaching for a gun. She knew if Alex died then I would have no one.

I squeezed my eyes shut and rested my forehead on Alex's. I pressed a soft kiss to his lips, salty tears hitting my tongue. I pulled away and looked him directly in his eyes.

"I'd do anything for you. You know that right?" He face twisted into confusion. Before he could react, I pushed him away from me. As soon as I got him out of the way the sound of the bullet leaving the chamber rang through the air. I opened my arms and closed my eyes waiting for the impact.

It felt like it happened in slow motion. The bullet flew through the air piercing me in the stomach. Pain soared through my body but I was numb. The only thing I could think of was all of the memories we shared.

I was already close to the edge but the bullet made me stumble back further.

My foot fell off of the edge. I fell straight back off of the building a 30 story drop. I knew I couldn't survive this and I was at peace with it. I was a dying girl at least now Alex couldn't think he could of stopped it. My eyes opened to see Alex running to the edge. The echo of his screams around me.