Teddy where are you? (tk) ✔

Burning planets

Jungkook tosses around in his bed after his outing with jimin, bidding goodbye he went straight to his bed feeling tired to his bones and muscles, sighing loudly as his body hits the mattress.

" who bought this stupid soft mattress "

He groans when he can't get comfortable on his bed he's using for past four years that feels too big for him now, he looks up the ceiling holding a pillow in his arms trying to imagine it to be Taehyung holding him all warm and firm in his grip, so soft and reassuring .

His grip tightens horribly knowing that nothing can replace what he feels when the demon held him in his arms, not any pillow, not any soft toy, not any person.

" I'm so screwed "

He bitterly smiles curling himself into smaller ball

He wonders what happened after his last day in hell, Taehyung made him drink his blood forming a scowl on his face being worried and sick to his gut that Taehyung didn't get to exchange blood with him, his breathing heavy in frustration for not knowing how to communicate with him that soon turned into silent sobs

Again

How much more they'll have to suffer before everything starts to form meaning , he haven't slept more than an hour or three Max for past month, crying or worrying his guts away in endless destructive loophole of his mind , he miss Garry like hell too, feeling his body shake in futile attempt to suppress his increasing cries remembering Garry's smiling face.

He buries his face deep into the mattress, whimpers of pained emotions whispered in his lonely room that too must be pitying and used to his random witness of whirlpool of emotions he's trying to live by

Even though he never got to say, nor he got lucky enough to hear it from the demon but Taehyung proved it to him that he loves him in the end

How bitter fate is being with both of them, keeping them together for all the pain and misery and as soon as happiness and love started to grow in their lonely garden, it got tangled and crouched down by shoes of their destiny that took away his chance to speak those three words to the demon by his heart ,missed to let him know that he's indeed lovable and most precious little cotton ball who shattered his life only to built something more firm and Big in its place which have space for everyone.

Taehyung proved his love that no one else can dare to deny

He loves him enough to let him go

And He hates him and loves him for this, god how much of a mess he is.

He turns his head sideways letting his face away from the suffocation of the mattress before lying on his back again with his brows furrowed

His body feels warm

Did he catch a fever?

He place back of his hand on his forehead and it indeed feels warm so he props his elbow on bed to get up and take medicine before it gets worse than how much he's sweating at the moment

But he can't, his body falls weak on numbed support of his elbow catching him off-guard, he breathes heavily with his mouth, feeling the dryness whenever he tries to gulp.

He let's his hand linger over his navel, feeling the undeniable urge to scratch which he tries to reduce by patting and rubbing to not harm his already sensitive skin

His eye lid feels droopy with the urge to throw up everything he have in his stomach, making him repeatedly groan in discomfort, even keeping his eyes open seen difficult

He fumbles with his tired arm around him for his phone to call someone , he wants to punch something badly when he can't find his phone under his palms but thank the person who got saved getting hit by him, he soon feels the cool object in his palm .