Premise: 1 ½ years later --- (a/n I promise this is the last slightly sad and short one but that also means that next chapter might be the last which makes me emo but whatever. Also I promise that the next chapter will be nice and long and have a bunch of fluff and cute blurbs about their future)
"You're medically clear"
The words bounced around in Lydia's head as they drove home. She had to go in for a check up to see how she was doing and the doctor had told them that if they wanted to start trying again, that Lydia was healthy enough to start the process. Lydia heard those words and tuned out most of the rest of the conversation.
Luckily, since everything had happened, JJ had come to realize that if Lydia got really quiet after hearing some type of news, it meant that she was lost in her thoughts. So, JJ continued the conversation with the doctor, asking questions that he knew Lydia would want answers for later.
"What's the risk of Lydia developing the same condition?" JJ asked
"Statistically, most mothers don't have recurring cases of preeclampsia. I'd say that your chances are pretty good of having a normal pregnancy and delivery" The doctor replied
"And what are the chances of losing the pregnancy?" JJ tightened his grip on Lydia's hand, bracing himself for whatever the news may be
"I can't tell you that there is zero chance or else I wouldn't be doing my job. There is about 1% of women that have multiple miscarriages. And, with the reduced risk of her condition returning, I'm fairly confident that with extra monitoring that you will be able to get pregnant again. Now that we know about the condition, we can start preemptive care, meaning that we can start doing things now to decrease the risk even further" The doctor explained
Lydia was snapped out of her thoughts when she heard the car shut off. JJ had taken them to one of their favorite beach spots. He guided her over to some driftwood that sat upshore.
"You've been quiet. I can't help if you don't talk to me" JJ desperately searched for any type of emotion on her face. She had become very closed off after they lost Maisy (a/n the baby aka the daughter they lost). Lydia thought she was being strong for JJ but in reality, it was worrying JJ even more.
"I guess we have to talk about everything we're feeling after what just happened at some point" Lydia shrugged, biting her lip nervously
"Well I can start" JJ paused taking a deep breath, "I think about Maisy every day. I think constantly about how she'd be walking around the house by now, exhausting us with her boundless energy"
"JJ-" Lydia began
"No wait, just let me finish. I know you hate thinking about the what if's and all the things that the three of us were robbed of but, I brought it up for a reason. I want to have those experiences. We built a house way too big for it just to be the two of us" JJ hurriedly explained before she could cut him off again.
"JJ, I can't" Lydia's voice cracked and she turned her head away from him
"Come here" JJ brought his wife into his chest and let her cry until she had calmed down
"I'm terrified. What if we lose the next baby? I can't lose any more pieces of my heart, JJ. I feel like I'm barely holding it together as is." Lydia sniffled
"You know what the doctor said, 99% of women who had a miscarriage will not miscarry again" JJ explained, adding in the information that Lydia seemed to miss
"With our luck, we'll be the 1%" Lydia muttered
"When have we ever been in the 1%. That's kook shit baby" JJ chuckled, trying to ease the mood
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Romance"You and I both know you haven't been okay in months" "So what? It doesn't matter. Not with all the other things we have to worry about." "See that's the problem Lydia. You don't give a shit about yourself and it's going to end up killing you. You...
