Embracing the Chaos (Eclipse Series #1)

Chapter 31

I told Wyn about my mother's offer on the other day. Sa totoo lang ang laking offer n'on sa akin na 'di ko talaga mahindian, matagal ko narin itong hinihinay. Plus I'm still starting on this field, I can't deny that I need the studio and our clothing line to grow there.

I can't waste this opportunity just because I'm afraid to go back in La France. Alam ko naman na sa ayaw man o sa gusto, babalik parin ako ng La France and this time? I need to be professional and decide immediately. This is my reward, I proved my capability enough for her to send me back.

Ayoko rin na ma-stuck na lang ako sa takot ko at hindi ko na ito kailanman ma-overcome pa. I worked so hard in the past years for this profession tapos ganito? Mag-aalangan ako?

I'm better than that.

Ngiwi lang ang nakita kong reaksyon nito na parang hindi makapaniwala sa sinabi ko. Ni hindi man lang ito nabahala sa nalaman niya, as in super kampante niya lang ngayon habang pinapaikot ang swivel chair niya.

"Seryoso ka ba diyan?" Tanong niya, busy na nags-scroll siya sa desktop niya sa tingin ko  ay nagc-check siya ng mga important emails. "As in?" Tanong niya pa ulit.

I do a face palm on what she asked. Mukha ba akong nagbibiro rito? If this is just a joke I won't be this stressed and frustrated! I won't topic my past that I can't get over at for a mere jokes 'no!

"I'm serious." Naiinis kong singhal.

"Then go back." She eyed me. "Don't run away again, we're too old for that."

She said that as if that was easy thing to and it's just like that! I mean, naka-move on naman na ako pero kasi baka awkward kami once we met again? I don't like to be in an awkward position. I can't compose myself.

"What do you mean? Parang ang dali lang n'on ha." I pouted, I sat in my swivel chair and played with the pen here. "What if we meet again? I mean, I moved on to him but I'm not ready to face any of them and I also don't want to be in an awkward positon."

Kita ko ang pag-iling nito. Pinagsiklop niya pa ang palad sa itaas ng mesa bago ako nilingon sa pwesto ko. Napairap ako kasi mukha siyang principal na handa na akong sermonan. Tatayo na sana ako para umalis na lang nang bigla siyang magsalita.

"What I mean is, ano bang tinatakbuhan mo sa lugar na 'yon? Is it the fact that you chose to not to believe to him before but instead you chose to end it up? Well, that's not your fault." She said and smiled at me. "You made the right decision back then. See yourself? You came this far, tapos hahadlangan mo lang dahil ano? Takot ka? Then what is the purpose of letting each other go if you let the opportunity in your hand to slips away? Come on, Sach. I know you waited for this moment to come, to be recognized by your mother for she's great at this."

Napapikit ako dahil sa sinabi niya, I hate it that they are on point. Tama naman siya at muntikan ko na naman malimutan ang purpose ng mga desisyon ko noon. I'm just being coward and acting up again. Pero sa totoo lang, takot ako sa nararamdaman ko.

Hindi ako sigurado kaya mas natatakot ako.

"And heard about Axel? He topped the Civil Engineering board. If you just heard about how is he doing now. Masasabi mo na tama ang naging desisyon mo." She said. "I also heard they held their 2nd world tour in Paris, manunuod din ako later." She added.

Of course I heard about it, they made a huge impact now. I also know Axel's started on reaching his dreams one by one. I'm proud on the achievement he's reaching. And, later after our break up and a few months after I flee here in Paris, Eclipse's manager admitted that they post the photos of that to create more issues..

To make noise about a loveteam.

It's really a past picture of him and Briana before he noticed me and dated me.