Imagines with Ben Fankhauser (REQUESTS OPEN AND REALLY NEEDED!)

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So... hi there

I just wanted to give you guys a life update so im not judged for taking so long to get chapters out lol. I broke it up into sections so I remembered to get everything. Even if you guys dont read it, just letting all of it out lets some stress off of my back. Okay, here we go.

My dogs (if you remember my a/n ab my winnie girl)
Idk if i talked ab this in my last one, but about a week and a half after winnie passed, my family drove to knoxville, Tennessee to pick up 2 white female schnauzers. We initially were planning to only get one, but they were twins and we didnt want to seperate them after seeing how well they got along and played with each other. We got a discount on the second one because we were taking both. The new plan would be to resell the other one because we really do not have the room to have 4 dogs (again, i have 2 other dogs named Smokey and Blue). The only issue was my parents both fell in love with different dogs. We named them both, which is when i knew there was no way we would be selling either of them. Their names are dixie and dolly, and they are precious. Dolly was the runt of her litter, and my dad loved her. Dixie was the same girl, just a bit bigger, which my mom thought would be perfect to breed with my dog smokey.

Now, you saw i said they were white, female schnauzers. Winnie was a white, female schnauzer/westie mix (a wowzer). Lets use our context skills people and come to this conclusion together- these new pups look just like her. Small differences- winnie has a bit of westie in her, she got really fat really quickly, her fur texture was straighter than these girls. But sometimes i just walk to the gate that divides our living room from the hallway my bedroom is in and look in and swear im looking at winnie. This may seem like a good thing, but it hurts so much because i snap back into reality and know that its not my baby.

Have you guys ever seen the movie "a dogs purpose"? Well, if you havent heres a spoiler alert. Whenever bailey dies and comes back to ethan at the end of the movie, he doesnt know its bailey but starts to notice how he acts just like his old friend. He comes to the realization it may just be bailey reincarnated (which it is but stupid humans cant understand what dogs say to them). Well, not only do the girls LOOK just like winnie, they dead ass act just like her. Both hate car rides, and one of my favorite things about winnie is something they have somehow picked up- when you stop petting them, the hit you or drag your hand back to them to continue. It feels just like her. Im not totally convinced that its not her just split into 2 dogs. Its more dixie than dolly that reminds me of her, but both are similar to my beloved.

Last part of dogs I promise. Dolly went into heat about a week ago and the boys got to her before we noticed, so she might be pregnant? My dad and i dont think so, but my mom is certain. The gestation time for schnauzers is 63 days so, i guess ill let you know in two months.

School
So hahahah this part is gonna be fun. I don't remember if ive ever told yall much about myself, but im a junior in high school this year. Im taking APUSH, AP English, Adv/AP physics, Honors Pre-Cal, Adv Spanish 3, Foods and Nutrition, and Chorus. And let me just say- it is kicking my ass. Apush surprisingly is not very difficult, but i think i was just blessed with an amazing spectacular wonderful teacher who i love so much, shes like a second mom to me and doesnt even know it. AP english isn't terrible, i just dont really like reading (which feels weird typing into a book im writing lol). But Adv physics....whoo. I feel like i could either handle the class or my teacher. His teaching style is to bully his students until they are afraid to be wrong. A huge dick. In the past idek how many months weve been in school, he has belittled me, caused my anxiety to spike every day, my depression to go from moderate to severe, and most recently body shamed me and my classmates. He embarrasses all of us in the middle of class. I cry every day in that classroom. I asked my counselor to be switched out to which he replied "I understand physics is a hard class to adjust to". Bitch. I wanted to scream. Not helping, ive never really understood science and have had crappy science teachers since the 7th grade. I can make you a punnet square but after that, im useless. Also the ACT is coming up and i cant even count how many emails ive gotten from colleges. Academic life is hella stressful rn.

Personal life
On a happier note, my personal life is kind of great right now. I have a solid group of friends that I absolutely adore and make me feel validated like no one has before. Also, my sister is pregnant with a baby boy! The first one in our family (not married in lol). His name is parker and he is due in less than a month! Im so excited to be his aunt, along with his two older twin sisters. Still no relationship for poor ol me, but im crushing soooo fucking hard on this one boy. I will not be exposing his name bc of my irrational fear that someone from my school will discover this book and bully me relentlessly over it. Anyways, hes super tall, like at least a foot and a half taller than me, he has blonde curly hair, blue eyes, and he is so sweet and funny. He also has a stutter which i find really cute. Most people wont let him finish his sentences bc of the stutter and finish them for him, but im a listener. Ive built this fantasy that hes at home thinking about how great i am for actually listening and not interrupting him. Crazy, i know. Imagine your perfect bf/gf just relying on them being able to listen. But the craziest part is that HES NOT EVEN MY TYPE YALL FKEKFKWKDK. I like guys with dark hair and dark eyes, not too much taller than me but fairly tall. Like my dream guy honestly isnt even ben fankhausers height, im looking for like a 5'8 or 5'10 guy. Too much taller and ill need a step stool lol. Its fun building our fantasy life, however theres a bit of dilemma in it because hes christian and im questioning so idk about our kids. I say we let them figure that shit out on their own.

My books
I PROMISE THAT IM WRITING! I REALLY AM! ITS JUST BEEN DIFFICULT! The next chapter im putting out is literally over 2 years old and i feel so bad. The person that requested it hopefully wont be tooo mad at me? Idk. I also dont know wgere seeing davey is headed at this point. I need some hardship in their relationship so that its not boring lovey dovey perfect but my mind went to hella dark places. We might get that though. I have extreme writers block atm, so pleaseeeee drop some ideas in the comment. Clarify which book is all i ask.

I dont wanna make a whole section for this because its literally 2 sentences but THERES A GUY ON TIK TOK WHOS VOCAL COACH IS FUCKING BENJAMIN CHARLES FANKHAUSER JCKEKCKWJCKWJJDKWN I SCREAMMMMMEEEEEDDDD. HES NOT DEAD HES ALIVE AND WELL AND STILL SINGING!

I love you all, hopefully you didn't forget about me :)

Xoxo, Fawna