The Space Between

When One Of Us Puts Down the Gun

I woke up completely hungover. My head was pounding and I felt like I wanted to die. I groaned as I opened my eyes and felt like I might go blind. It was so fucking bright. I couldn't do this anymore. I had to push her away. There was only one way to do that. She cared, I had to make her not want to. I got up and went downstairs.

"Oh shit. Look who it is." Shane teased.

"Fuck off." I grumbled.

"You're like one of the only people I know that wears sunglasses to breakfast." He said laughing.

"Cut her some slack." I heard Nate say.

I plopped down in a chair and groaned. "I'm going to kill him." I tell my youngest brother

"I know." Nate says patting my leg.

"Quite being such a baby." Shane said.

"Bridesmaids will be here today." Nate said grinning.

I couldn't help but laugh. "You know me to well." I said breaking out into a grin.

"I'm about to find me a wife!" Shane said sticking his fist in the air.

Nate started laughing. "You guys kill me. I can't even believe we're related."

"Make me some damn breakfast." I tell him.

Surprisingly he did. The three of us sat down to eat and were joined by Benji.

"Where are all the white women at!?" Benji said loudly as he sat down.

"Can you not please!" I said laughing hysterically.

"You guys are terrible." Nate said throwing a napkin at Benji.

In response, Benji stuck out his tongue and chuckled mischievously.

"The white women." Nate said putting air quotes up as he said it. "Will be here in a couple hours. In the meantime, we should probably all make ourselves presentable once we finish with breakfast."

"Ok, thanks for the list of chores Debbie downer." Shane said rolling his eyes.

"Also Demi." He said looking at me. "Don't forget you're going out with all of the ladies tonight."

"Are you fucking serious?" I asked.

"You agreed to this a couple months ago." Nate replied.

"Don't worry. We will be on our best behavior." I said with a smirk.

"Why am I not comforted by that statement." He replied while shaking his head and laughing lightly.

We spent the rest of breakfast talking about the usual. Cars, drinking and women. Once we finished, I took a scalding hot shower. I let the water wash away all of my frustration. Mostly, I wanted the guilt to be gone. I've betrayed my little brother and its slowly chipping away at me. No matter how much I wanted her, I wanted that to go away more. I wanted to take it back. It was my fault, not hers. I shouldn't have kissed her.

I got out of the shower and got dressed. I felt a little bit better. I was going to move on and leave my indiscretions behind me. I felt relieved. I could hear several excited voices downstairs. I went down to investigate and sure enough, Selena had returned with three blonde women. I couldn't help but smile.

"Hey" I said smiling at the group of women. "I'm Demi."

"I'm Taylor."

"I'm Ashley."

"I'm Dianna."

I gave Taylor a once over as Selena rolled her eyes. She didn't like it much. "It's nice to meet you." I said taking Taylor's hand and placing a kiss on the back of it. She blushed.