So Many Doctors, So Many Fears

Chapter 12

 I ran.

I ran as fast as my legs could take me, as fast as I could go, but having just collapsed on the ground and being in a busy hospital was making it harder. I panted, darting passed everyone. Once I finally got outside, I wondered. Why did I run? The answer was so obvious it seemed foolish. I was scared. I walked over to a bench and collapsed, resting my head in my hands. 

I knew Alex would find me in a matter of seconds and probably be really mad, but, I was terrified. When I finally heard footsteps I knew it was Alex. I didn't even have to look up, I felt his hands rubbing circles on my back in an attempt to calm me. I cried into my hands. "I'm sorry." I sobbed. It was silent for a moment until Alex pulled my hands away from my face. 

"Sorry about what?" He asked. 

I just cried again. 

"Evan, why do you think you're mom is dating me?" I looked back up at Alex, then shrugged. "Well, there's two reasons, one is, she likes me, I'm not trying to be selfish or anything but she really likes how I act," I turned my head away from Alex. "And because of you," I closed my eyes tightly when he said that, trying to shut his voice out. "She wanted you to get over your fear because she cares about you Evan, she thought I could help, and I'm doing the best I can." I still didn't look at him. "at least tell me why you have PTSD against doctors, why are you so scared?" 

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FLASHBACK

"Get him an I.V. we want to make sure he's hooked up." A stabbing pain. "Now let's pop his ankle and knee back in place." A crack and searing, throbbing, aching pain. "uh," A voice said. "What is it, Lou?" "We may have a problem," "Lou what did you do I swear!" black dots everywhere. "I may have...broke a chain of bones." blurred vision, searing pain, "God damn it, Lou, what the fuck did you do?" and darkness. 

PRESENT DAY

"I...was in a car wreck when I was young and..." My voice faltered. 

"You were in the ten car wreck," Alex said, awed. I just nodded, not trusting myself to say more. That's how my dad died and my mom was cursed with permanent brain damage. "but, I don't get it, how were you scared of doctors?" 

"Well, it-my dad didn't survive and...it hurt, a lot."

"Evan I get it, but you have to trust me, this is the only way we're going to be able to live for these weeks, at least come back in," Alex said. I nodded slowly and got up. whipping tears from my eyes. We walked slowly back into the hospital and my worries started all over again. 

"So, I have a few more patients to check on-"

"Wait," I interrupted, "I thought you said I was 'almost done.'" 

"Well, because you blacked out, I thought it would be better if we did it on another day, where you weren't so stressed when you get more used to me." I nodded. "But now I have some patients, you can hang out with Ethan, take a nap, whatever you want, but we'll get home earlier tonight, I promise." 

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