Divergent High

Segment 18

I woke up with sweat pouring down my forehead. The vivid nightmare of my past had been terrifying and I found it hard to believe that I was once like that. That is the old Beatrice that I have pushed away. I need to get over it.
I wash my face in the bathroom and begin to curl my hair. I have never curled my hair before but I got it as a gift for Christmas so I should try it out. It actually looks decent and I sort of like my new look. I put on some jeans and a T-shirt. Today I am going for a comfy look. I wonder if Tobias will be at school today? What will he say to me? Will he kiss me? The thought makes me blush.
I run down stairs and grab an apple off the counter, heading for the door.
"Remember to come straight home from school." My mother calls out and I slam the door with a loud groan.
I quickly text Shauna and she texts me back saying "we are on our way."
I meet Chris, Marlene and Shauna at the school gates. They are sitting on the stairs in deep conversation. None of them smile or even acknowledge my presence as I sit down with them.
"Maybe you guys need to take a break?" Marlene frowns.
"I don't thinks so." I finally notice Shauna crying and I wrap my arms around her. I give Chris a look which she ignores. She is mad.
"Can I speak to Chris for a moment?" I ask Marlene and Shauna. They nod and walk away. Chris still doesn't look at me.
"I'm sorry about last night but I don't see what the problem with me is. You were the one who went to the party." I say annoyed. I hardly see this as my fault.
"Of course you do." She half laughs. "You only ever think about yourself."
"That is bullshit!" I growl, surprised at my own harsh words.
"Is it? I went to the party to meet Will who was pissed at me for not showing up. Then Shauna starts crying when she finds out Zeke was there with girls and we knew about it and didn't tell her while you were having the time of your life with Four in your very own bedroom!" Chris yells and walks away. How dare she! I feel myself fuming. I do feel bad for not telling Shauna but she didn't either. She is just being a jerk.
"Hey Tris!" I turn around to see Will and Uriah enter through the gates. When Will sees Chris I notice how he keeps walking towards me. Uriah seems clueless with his usual happy smile.
"Hey." I hug Uriah but don't touch Will. He looks like he's in a bad mood.
More kids start to arrive and the bell rings. Time for Science.

As I take my seat I wait for Chris to sit beside me. To my anger, she sits with Lynn which infuriates me. Does that mean I have to do my experiment alone? I'm really not good at dissections. They make me queasy.
I find myself smiling when Tobias walks in. He sees me but doesn't even smile back as he takes his seat next to Zeke. What the hell was that? Now I am even more angry.
The teacher begins with the role and Leighton bursts through the door.
"Sorry sir." Leighton excuses himself and looks to the taken chairs. I gulp down as I realize the only free chair is next to me.
When Leighton sits beside me he gives me a smile.
"Hey beautiful." He whispers and I can't help but blush.
We begin our dissection on a Pig's lungs. Leighton concentrates on the scissors as he cuts them open. I notice how cute he looks when he concentrates and the way his muscles show. When he catches me staring I look away blushing.
"If it makes you too queasy I can do all the work." He laughs. "You just concentrate on my handsome looks."
I roll my eyes but he pulls me gently by the chin to look at him.
"I mean it. It will help." He says sternly. I nod and watch him as he continues. I watch the way his muscles show beneath his shirt, the way his eyes are narrowed into slits, his brow is furrowed, his lips are pushed together and most of all the way I knew that all of that had once been mine.