Loving The Mafia

Together forever - 48

Emerald's POV

Christian has been out for hours - I really miss him. I just really want to kiss him and cuddle him. I called him a few minutes ago and he said he will be home soon.

But what the hell is soon? He is taking way too long.

Being pregnant is making me feel way more paranoid and worried. I feel so shaky and scared at times. I'm also getting really terrible nightmares and it's just annoying the hell out of me.

The living room door opens and Christian walks into the room. I feel my heart beating really quickly, he walks over to me and pulls me into a hug. He kisses my forehead, "I missed you so much Em." He whispers and then he rests his forehead on mines. I put my arms around him and I bury my face into his chest.

"I missed you too Christian." I say with a sigh, "I was so worried, it was getting la-." I stutter as tears start falling down my cheeks. Hormones.

"Hey." He says and he kisses my forehead again, "It's fine, I'm here. I'm not leaving you again babe."

"Sorry." I groan, "I just feel frustrated a bit."

"Well I've got an idea." He says with a smile, "Come on, I'll help you pack."

I look up at him with wide eyes, "We're going?" I laugh and he gives me a nod.

"Yes, we are heading off to Turkey." He chuckles and he kisses the top of my hand. I look at him and smile. Oh my freaking god I'm going to Turkey. Yay, this is the best news ever.

"Eek." I exclaim, "We're going to Turkey, we're going Turkey." I sing happily.

"Yes we are." Christian laughs, he then goes down to my stomach, "You hear that baby? We're going away." He kisses my stomach and then gets up.

"Yeah." I smile at him and I give him a hug. "When are we going?" I ask him.

"In two days." He says, "We have a lot to do, I've got a check up ready for you tomorrow."

"A check up." I repeat in a mutter, Christian just sighs. I know he can sense my uneasiness and my sudden mood change.

"What is it Em?"

"I... It's nothing." I lie and Christian raises one of his eyebrows at me. "It's just that, I'm scared. I don't know what it is, I'm just unsure about this whole thing."

"Unsure about us having a baby?" He questions me.

"No, no. Not that, I want everything with you. I want this baby but I want this baby to have everything that we didn't have." I stutter, "I mean, what if I'm not a good mum or something." I fiddle with my fingers and Christian gives me a sad smile.

"Listen to me Em." He says, he gently puts me down on the sofa and then he sits down next to me. He moves a piece of my hair away from my face, "You will be the most perfect mother ever." He says softly, "You're so kind, generous. You're perfect, believe me. This baby will have everything."

I give him a smile and a little nod, "Thank you." I mumble. He pulls me into another hug and kisses the top of my head.

"Don't ever put yourself down like that babe." He says firmly, "You're so perfect and I know that things have gotten bad and stuff but I'm here. You are my first priority and I will help you."

"Oh ok." I laugh, my eyes are already watery, "Please do not make me cry again."

Christian just laughs at me, "It's fine if you cry babe... Just tears of happiness though. I never want to see you upset."