Dominating Love ✓

[Chapter Fifty-Five]

I will warn you, this is their first time since the babies and there are a some controversial ideas. So keep in mind that not everyone is like you. Not everyone has the same comforts, fetishes, likes or dislikes. 

This is them. They are their own couple, so i want to hear no judging. 

Chapter Fifty-Five

When it was time to leave for the weekend I almost wanted to cancel. Leaving them was harder than I thought it would be. Monica and Rochelle were the ones to push me to go; they told me I needed to have some damn fun and take care of my man, too.

Chase and I hadn't had sex in four and a half months; which was pretty much a year to us. This was the longest we have ever gone without sex and I did miss it. We didn't shower together everyday anymore, we slept with our clothes on and the girls and my doctor all assured me that it was completely normal for your sex drive to drop after children. Their advice was just to not let it stay there.

We were going to be gone Friday until Sunday night and I had to make sure to prepare for that and I also knew what it felt like when the pressure built up when I wasn't feeding enough. That part freaked me out because my body wasn't the same. All the energy I had left went to exercise so my stomach wasn't the problem; really my breasts were the only problem that I had and that after pushing children out sex wouldn't be as enjoyable for him.

My fears stayed with me and took over as soon as we got to the hotel.

"Relax." He rubbed my shoulders and I sighed; that felt so good. He was great about still rubbing my feet or massaging my back and shoulders. Just because I wasn't pregnant anymore didn't mean he stopped how caring he had been; it was who he was.

"Trying." He's known for weeks that I was pretty scared for this weekend.

"Try harder." He kissed my neck and I wished that it calmed me down but it just reminded me of what we would be doing later today. Rochelle and Monica fully admitted it could be awkward but when you have a great man; he's there and will support you.

"What if I start, you know; without the twins they're swollen." Three hours away from them was a lot. They filled and were sore.

"You're not the only one searching the web and looking into how different things can be. You're my wife and I understand. These aren't only mine anymore and you decide when they are. Seeing you with them, feeding them; it makes me happy because I know how badly you wanted to do it. And yes; I'm curious too." The curiosity; Scott was curious and Rochelle let him do it. Monica even admitted that when there was time away; Riley has.

We were open people but seeing them sexually was hard.

"I'm trying." He shook his head and hugged me.

"You're resisting. Brylee; I've done so much shit to you, pushed you and hell; forced you to suck my dick under my desk at work with your fucking brother standing in front of me. You think that your breasts being different is going to stop me? You think that because you had two kids that I'm not going to enjoy sex? There is nothing that can stop me from enjoying your body." He was sincere and I did believe that.

"Okay." He took a couple deep breaths with me.

"We're okay. We're prepared for things to be weird; but I will love you no matter if you like spray me with them. Because I guess it's happened." My eyes widened; I had read that too and it was a huge fear.

"Why." I groaned and he chuckled.

"Can you think of a please I haven't came on your body? Why does it need to be so different? It's all natural." He palmed them from behind and they were sore but it wasn't uncomfortable.