Shizaya one-shots

I Love You

So this story is based off of the song 'I hate you I love you' by Gnash ft. Olivia O'Brien. This story is sad so if you don't want to read just wait for the next update. I hope you guys enjoy!

Izaya's POV

I know I've been used, but whenever Shizu-chan leaves I get this empty feeling inside. I just want to be with him and feel his lips on mine every night, but he has his girlfriend Varona. I am just a time filler whenever he and Varona disagree on something. Day by day I watch Shizu-chan happily walking with her and have a pain in my heart that makes me cry. Though every single time I see him I want him and it hurts.

I always claim I hate Shizuo Heiwajima which is true but at the same time I love him. I hate that I love him so much it just hurts me badly. I can't ever think of anyone else who I could love more than him and it's frustrating.

What makes it worse is that I know he loves Varona more than me I have the feeling he needs her. Not me, someone who's been used as a toy and teases him every time when seen in public. I'm horrible to him I've done many things to him that makes him hate me as well.

This is just some of the things that goes through my head every day...

Shizuo's POV

Sometimes when I can't sleep I think about Izaya. I have feelings for him, but I don't know how to deal with a relationship like that. I'm only going out with Varona because he's unsure about his feelings with me, so I guess I just go to him when Varona and I get into a fight. He just agrees with what I do to him so I haven't really minded doing things to him.

I guess spending a few nights with Izaya made me attract to him. Sometimes that just kills me, so I close my heart because I don't want to feel broken about it. I just start to not care anymore and just stay with Varona. I'm not saying the Varona's and my relationship is bad, I just would want to choose Izaya if he wasn't so unsure.

That's some of the truth that's going on...

Izaya's POV

Now it's a regular thing to go to Ikebukuro and not get yelled at by Shizu-chan. So I walk around do some work then go back home no problem, but I don't really have much work anymore. I'm just not sure what to do anymore it just that I go around kind of lost now.

I walk into an alleyway seeing Shizu-chan and Varona. I quickly hide behind a light pole and watch those to be happy together. It's like he looks at her like she's the only person in the world that he loves.

They just look so great together, why would I even think that I would be with Shizu-chan. The reason is I'm unsure so my chance to be with him is gone and I'll probably never have another one again.

Everything is slowly killing me, so I ask myself why am I on the roof of a tall building. Well easy because I'm thinking of jumping.

I hear that people take off their shoes before they jump it's interesting. I look out at the city where many things have happened. I feel tears go down my face thinking of the good memories with Shizu-chan.

I look down at the ground below and start to get scared. I've been on top of high places before and looked down, but this time it's different since now I'm thinking of disappearing.

I suddenly hear the roof door open so I turn toward the noise and see Shizu-chan trying to catch his breath. Then he says "Izaya please don't do it."

"Why you don't care right?" He doesn't respond. "See I was right... You know I don't know what I was thinking wanting to be with you."

He looks at me then says "Izaya please I do care about you so just get away from the edge." He looks as though he's about to cry.

I start thinking if I did this will Shizu-chan really be okay if I was gone. Is he saying the truth that he cares about me.

"Izaya..." He gets my attention then says "please believe me I wouldn't be able to go on without you. I love you."

I walk to the edge closer to where Shizu-chan is and away from the open air. He starts to come over to me smiling with tears down his face. When he's almost close enough to hold me I quickly step back and say "I hate that I love you."

Then start to fall...

Shizuo's POV

Izaya starts to come closer to me so I calm down a little feeling tears coming down. I walk toward him to help him down the ledge where he's standing and reach out then I hear him say "I hate that I love you." Then falls backwards.

I quickly try to grab him hoping my reflexes are fast enough and grab a hold on to his hand. I quickly grab the ledge to so I don't fall myself. I am now Izaya's only thing between life and death. I start to pull him up and then carry him far away from the edge of the building.

While I'm carrying him I hear him ask "Why?"

I answer "Because I don't want you to die and I care about you remember." I hold him close to me and kiss his forehead.

"I still mean what I said though." he says then moves closer to me.

"I know but I don't hate that I love you." He starts to cry so I hold him tighter being sure that I don't hurt him. I'm glad that I learned that it's good to have feelings, I just needed to be sure of them and I know I'm sure about these.

We stay on the roof holding each other for a long time then I kiss him on the lips. I don't care if he says he hates that he loves me. I love him and that's all that matters so I say to him...

"I love you."

Hope you guys enjoyed. See you next chapter!