Star Gazers | Completed✔

Chapter seventeen

Week eleven_(sunday) *this is what happened at the party in Saph's POV*

Rose went to Peter, but stopped and turned to us, "so ya'll just gonna watch?"

They all nodded, Elliot stood up, "I'm not gonna watch." Then left towards the kitchen.

I frowned, then went after him. I know he wasn't happy about this, specially after what happened with his friends.

He leaned against the wall, I walked to him slowly, I didn't exactly know what to say.

"Are you okay?" I asked as I hugged myself.

He looked at me for a second, then sighed, "No. And I don't wanna talk about it."

I felt intimidated by his gaze so I stared at my bare foot.

"So what do you wanna talk about?" I asked.

He shrugged, "Anything."

I don't think this is the right time.. but it's been two weeks!

I can't avoid this subject much longer, "so do you wanna talk about us?" I suggested. I didn't want it to seem like I was forcing him to speak, but I can't help but want to.

"About us? What's there to talk about?" He asked.

I shrugged, "I don't know, what's us exactly?"

As if realization hits him, he closed his eyes, "oh fuck." He whispered frustratingly.

"Elliot." I said wearily.

"Look Sapphire I-" he tried finding the right words, but he never did. So I guessed.

"You don't do relationships, do you?" I asked, already knowing the answer.

He looked at me with sad eyes, "I'm sorry Saph, I just don't get these things, I can't be the person you want me to be." He tried explaining.

"I don't want you to be anything." My voice started to shake, no Sapphire, stay strong.

"I can't be loyal, there's a big chance that I'll lie to you. There will be no trust in our relationship, and I can't bare the thought of hurting you like that." He tried coming closer but I stopped him.

My vision got blurry, but the tears never slipped, "so why did you do it huh? Why did you kiss me back there? At the restaurant? And your house?" I shook my head, why am I more hurt than I should be?

"This is my fault okay. I should've held my shit together, but I couldn't. I admit, I had a crush on you when we were little- fuck I still have a crush on you, but relationships aren't my thing, you're way out of my league. You deserve so much better Sapphire."

If he's not fighting to keep you, then why are you fighting to let him stay?

"Just go Elliot. Please." I begged quietly. No, I don't want him to leave, but if he stayed much longer I'll cry in front of him. I don't want that.

"You'll thank me in the future." He promised, then left. I quickly fixed my posture then walked behind him, I couldn't help but be sad.

I knew being something more than friends would end us in a bad place. I still do want him, I want to be his friend, but why do I feel like we can't be friends anymore. The awkwardness was the first thing that popped inside my mind, it wouldn't be the same, there will always be tension between us, and he just admitted that he still has a crush on me.

Fuck. Why can't he change for the good? Why can't he try? Why why why? Ugh this is so frustrating.

I would try for him, I would do anything he wanted.. well not anything. But I'll give what I have, and I'll try my best for our relationship.

Why can't he do the same? Don't I deserve that?

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After I finished telling Kristen what happened, her face turned red. Anger. That's all I could see in her eyes, but she held a calm face.

Kristen is one scary girl when she turns angry, she can do things.. scary things.

I remember one time, some guy at our school tried to hit on Lucy, but she instantly rejected him, but he wouldn't take the message and started getting physically close to her. Against her will.

Kristen and I saw her alone with him at her locker, and Kristen exploded, she literally chased him with her sneaker in her hand. She managed to throw it and it hit his head, but he managed to run away. That was nothing, there's this another time, where she had to beat the crap out of this girl who bullied me, she did that John Cena slam and all.

"I'll kill this fucker. Why didn't you tell me before, when he was here? I wouldn't have let him go home in one piece. Rose will have to sew his parts together." She was angry, that's for sure.

But I couldn't help but laugh, she looked at me with wide eyes, "the hell you laughing at?"

I laughed even louder, "I know I look crazy right now, I just can't help but love you."

We both smiled toothfully, and hugged each other, "well bitch I'm still mad, this hug ain't doin shit."

I chuckled then pulled back, "I know, but I don't want to do anything right now, I just wanna talk about something else."

"I'm okay with that, but promise we'll talk about this tomorrow." She said, giving me the look.

I rolled my eyes, "Alright, I promise." I took a tissue and blew my nose clean.

She scrunched her face in disgust, which had me laughing hard, "go wash your face and nose, girl this is just plain disgusting."

"I thought you don't mind disgusting things."

"Oh I don't mind, but when your nose is running, and your face looks like the zombie from the walking dead, I have my reasons to be disgusted." She pushed me to the bathroom.

After washing my face, we sat on my bed and chatted for what felt like hours, a knock was heard on my door. What time is it?

5:30 a.m! Wow

I opened my door, and saw a grumpy Nathan. "Yes?"

"Can you guys keep it down? I'm tryna get some sleep here." His tired eyes demanded.

I shrugged, "It's 5:30 in the morning, you're supposed to be up, not asleep."

He narrowed his eyes, "goodni- I mean good morning.... I'm going to sleep now, don't be loud."

I rolled my eyes at him, "good morning."

I closed my door and looked at Kristen and gasped, I almost forgot!

"Shit I almost forgot!" I fast walked to my bed, and sat in front of her. "What happened between you and Nathan? Are you a thing now?"

She laughed, "I don't think so, I mean we just kissed girl-"

"It was more than a kiss! What happened between you two was something special. My bro is probably thinking about you right now." I said smugly.

She furrowed her eyebrows, "or maybe he's fast asleep, snoring like a pig. I guess we'll never know." She shrugged.

I smirked evily, "or will we?"
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I know the chapter was lame, but I'll try to update soon😙

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