when you are depressed you can recall people telling you it gets better
a default response is" no it won't" rolls off the tongue so easily
the parts they never tell you is that getting better can be change
the constant change goes into the category we labeled as fear in our heads
getting better can mean healing parts you have ignored
I think they forgot to tell me how reality feels
you've ignored it for so long and the emotions with it
it's odd to shed a tear when your lip begins to quiver
or when you laugh until you cry
being in reality for me feels like a fever dream
the moments I thought I would cry for I have done the opposite
I just stand there taking it in
the moments I thought I would be smiling I cry at beauty instead of pain
it's so odd
they never tell you the parts where you feel as if you are in limbo
where you shut down and the whole world goes still
where faces blur together and all you can do is just sit in it
observe it all
with just your eyes and nothing else
they never tell you that
somedays I feel like I'm getting worse
like all those moments were fake
a stage of denial
a wave of false hope
but then I remember
before this, I couldn't feel
I couldn't love
I couldn't even smile like I really meant it
so with constant change
a different view of reality
I'm getting better
I think they never tell you these things because they never really know themselves
they can't see through your eyes
but maybe that's the whole point of the phrase
the whole point of life
to paint the world's beauty through your eyes
so when you start to feel like it's going dark
you remember that it does get better
YOU ARE READING
take it how you want it
Poetrythis is a series of poems i have written about past and current events. everyone handles emotions differently, here is how i handle mine
