when i have apathy
i'm immune to pain
i don't feel happiness
i don't feel anything
i coast and drift
i dissociate myself from reality
hiding in the shadows of my mind
hoping to not feel ever again
i ruin everything
at some point it's always me
it's not self blame
but it's self truth
i would be lying if i said i didn't like it
if i didn't like the tears that burn
the ones that burn my face
i feel pain and sadness
in its prime and glory
lord knows i deserve it
so when i can't coast
and i've drifted past my limit
i feel the tears pour
they burn my face
they burn my eyes
but they burn me
i deserve to feel it
i know i do
so when it burns i like it
only because i'm getting what i deserve
i feel every regret
every bad choice
every cut
every
single
thing
tears stain my pillow
my shirt
sometimes my face
but they stain the pieces of my heart
the pieces that survived to make me
sometimes i wished they would turn to dust
so i can give the world
everyone in my life peace
peace i'll never have
peace that i'm never going to feel
all that will be left of me are tears
the ones that are hard to hold in
the ones that burst from me
and the ones that burn me to my core
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Poetrythis is a series of poems i have written about past and current events. everyone handles emotions differently, here is how i handle mine
