Tears in The Ocean

Chapter 5

Chapter 5.
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"No come on play this song." I said switching off this rap song he had playing which was about bitches, Marijuana and money. "Here we listen to soul." I teased as I connected my phone to his car and played Mnqobi Yazo sweet melodies but he gave me this weird look but I just turned the volume up as I sang along to the song. He would steal a few glances at me for a few seconds before he concentrated back on the road. We were driving to his hotel where we were going to spend the night together, I had on my onesies and my slippers since my family think I'm in my room sleeping. "What does this song even mean?" Drew asked turning down the volume. "Sweet melodies ujabulisa umoya wam. You make my spirit happy." I smiled before I leaned to his side and pecked his neck before retreating back to my seat and I saw him blush and that's made me smile so hard. "Out here making a rapper blush Damn I'm boss." I said feeling like a king as I dusted my shoulders but he rolled his eyes as he tried to hide his blush which was proving to be hard since he is so yellow. "Well the song is nice, so is this going to be like our song?" He asked taking another glance at me but I shook my head no. I mean I loved Mnqobi Yazo but nah fam, he ain't romantic enough to be our song. "We can always choose a song that you also like,it wouldn't be fair to make a song you don't even understand our song." I said before I handed him my phone to look through the songs and see if he likes any there because I knew in his phone there must be songs about naked girls and drugs. "man you have my jam right here." he said excitedly and just like that Juice wrld and ellie Goulding blasted through the speakers as he turned the volume to max. I was not a fan of rappers but this rapper was like an exception, I did have more than 2 songs of him even though I rarely ever listened to them. "I didn't know you fucked with rap like at all." He was bopping his head to the music clearly enjoying the song. "I'm low key a fan of this dude." I admitted and he gave me this surprised look. "for real?" he asked and I nodded. "So how did his death affect you as a fan?" He asked now I was the one who gave him a confused look. "He's dead?" I asked and that's when he chuckled before he nodded. "You didn't know?" he asked when he saw I was really clueless about Juice death and I shook my head no. "Nah I mean I don't even know what he looks like I just listen to his music from time to time." I was being honest, I never really care how a person looks as long as I can vibe with their music than that's all that matters. "Yeah nigga overdosed." Drew said in this flat tone, I could sense that he was saddened by that. "And you? Do you touch that stuff?" I asked after a moment of silence that had consumed us after the overdosed part, I knew majority of famous people had a drug problem and I wondered if he also fell in the statistics. he didn't answer and my heart shattered at the possibility that he touched drugs. "Drew." I still needed my answer but that's when he parked the car and I realised we had arrived at his hotel. "I used to do that shit when I started." his jaw was all clenched like he didn't even want to talk about this but shit we had to talk about this cause I was not about to defy my family for someone who does drugs.

"And now?" I asked but he sucked his teeth before he got out of the car and I followed him but taking my Macdonalds meal first that we bought on our way here. "Drew if you still doing drugs than just tell me so I can just forget about this thing we're trying to do." I said and I was not playing at all. I was following him behind closely. He stopped walking and turned to me. "Are we really about to argue over this?" he asked tiredly as we now stood eye to eye  and I saw his chest go up and down and I found myself concentrating on his breathing pattern instead of saying yes. "Drew I uh don't want us to arg-" he cut me off by pulling me to him closer wrapping his arms on my waist and my breath hitched at our closeness. He leaned down to my neck where he placed his soft lips on my neck and I bit my bottom lip as soon as I felt his teeth graze my flesh. "Than let us not argue."  he whispered against my flesh and I felt my knees buckle but he made sure I didn't fall as he held me tighter to him, he looked at me for a brief second and I saw admiration in his eyes, he moved to my lips and placed his soft lips on mine, we engaged in this passion filled kiss, there was so much need in this kiss, it was like he was showing me how much he needed me and just like that I dropped my food on the floor as I draped my arms around his neck pulling him much closer to me, I could feel his warmth, I just wanted to become one with him and in a swift motion I was picked up and I wrapped my legs around his torso and we continued kissing like some horny couples which I fear that exactly what we were right at this moment. "Shit." He bit on my bottom lip before he chuckled. "We need to stop doing this in public before the media has a field day with these pictures." He said and I nodded biting my lips and that's when he looked at my lips and smirked, he liked having me at his mercy, knowing he could do whatever he wanted to me clearly pleased him. "Don't do that sweetheart I might just take you here." He teased and swiped his tongue on his pink lips and instantly I felt hot all over my body and just like that I started ravaging his lips again and I heard him chuckle against my lips. "We should go inside." He spoke against my lips and I nodded still kissing on his lips. "I'm so comfortable in this position." I giggled when I had finally pulled away from his lips and that's when he made me feel how hard he was and I jumped when he did that. "You still comfortable?" he asked with a laugh and I nodded still. I don't know why was I so comfortable with this guy but I was and I liked the person I was with him. "You're a freak." He laughed as he walked with me inside the hotel all wrapped up to him. The lobby wasn't that busy so we didn't have a problem with people flashing their phones at us. We quickly made our way to his hotel room and when we got there the make out began and we found ourselves on his bed with him on top of me as he continued cherishing my body with his kisses. He unzipped my onesies and that's when I jumped when realization came back to me of what this might lead to and I was nowhere ready for what could happen if I continued letting him feel up on me. "Drew I uhm." I said pulling away from the kiss. "What's wrong?" he moved from me and I quickly sat up and zipped up my onesies. He saw that and than clenched his jaw like it pissed him off. "Did I do something wrong?" He asked, he was trying so hard to sound like he wasn't upset at all but his voice failed to hide the irritation. I quickly shook my head no. "It's just that I attend Reed dance and my family would kill me if they found out I wasn't a virgin anymore." I said and that when he looked at me like he was trying to read me. "You a virgin?" He asked like that shocked the shit out of him. "Yeah." no lie I felt some type of way when he asked me like that, don't I look like a virgin? Or Did I look like I was loose or was I too easy on him?  "Uhm I'm surprised not because you are a hoe or anything, it just the way you get around me sometimes just made me think you were uhm doing it already and I mean that in the nicest way ever like I don't mean-" he was just rambling which made me laugh which made him stop his ramblings. "The nicest way." I laughed which made him roll his eyes as he laughed at me. I pulled him to me and he fell on top of me and we both laughed  lightly. "Do you still want to be with me even though I'm a virgin?" I asked now playing with his blonde curls and he nodded kissing my neck. "Why would I not want to be with you? I mean
a whole virgin. That's just so damn attractive." he said in this hyper tone before  he laughed and I joined him also. "Mfundo, I like doing this with you, this relationship thing." he said raising his eyes to meet mine that were already waiting for his. "Me too." I said with a wide smile. "About the drugs issue, I swear I'm not hooked or anything, I do it to cope when I have to give like a thousands of people a killer performance. I couldn't cope knowing a thousand something people all had their eyes on me waiting for me to deliver the best performance. Being an artist is hard Mfundo. You know like you have 70 000 people waiting for you to prove that you were worth the money they spent on you and you can't afford to slack or you might just lose everything." he spoke, his tone was genuine but still I felt my heart break at the thought that he did drugs. He's really confessing his drugs issues to me and to be honest I didn't even know how to respond. "Drew I don't know what to say." I state honestly and we just laid there in complete silence. I was taking in what he just said and to be honest I knew if the media found out about his drug problem they'll just add me on that, probably assume that I'm also doing them and that could destroy everything I've dreamt off and I knew I couldn't taint my image or the Jones image like that. "You have to quit them otherwise this won't work. It's either me or the drugs Drew. It can never be both, in my world drugs are just not acceptable." I spoke softly playing with his curls and that's when he sat up and looked at me like he couldn't I just said those words. "You seem to want to dictate everything about us. How we date, what happens in this relationship, how it should happen." He sucked his teeth as he moved from me and I felt my heart thump at the loss of his presence. "I am not some ordinary girl. Drew you knew that when you came up to me." I protested but he shook his head in disbelief. "Than shit Mfundo I guess I made a big mistake than." he said as he stood up from the bed and that hit my heart so hard. "What does that even mean?" I asked afraid that maybe he wanted to end us. "Just that." he walked over to the bathroom and I decided to follow him and he was standing in front of the sink. I took this huge breath and just stood behind him, I looked at him through the mirror, he flared his nose, I don't know whether he was trying to contain his anger or let it out and just like that I wrapped my arms around his torso. "I'm sorry." I apologized kissing his back and I felt him tense at my touch but I still never moved. "You out here making me look like some junkie Mfundo now I don't ride with that shit!" his voice was hard and I kept quiet. That wasn't my intention but it was only fair he understood how I felt about drugs. "I get that you ain't no ordinary girl and shit but that does not give you no damn right to judge me." he said and I let him go at that instant. I wasn't judging him like at all. How could he say I'm judging him when I'm still here.  "Judging you? How is me not wanting anything to do with drugs judging you?" I asked and that's when he turned around and looked at me as he leaned on it. His face was passive. "Maybe we are too different for each other." he said his eyes were locked on mine
when uttered those m and there went my heart beating so hard when I realised this could break us up but I had to stand my ground or this guy was going to always use my feelings for him to get his way. "Maybe." I said, I was not about to act like I had no problem with drugs because of my feelings for him. I attempted to walk out but he pulled me to him and we stared at one another for quite some time with nobody saying anything,  he took this deep breath and pulled me really close to him and leaned down on me and our foreheads met. "I'm sorry. I'm being selfish and inconsiderate of you. It's just no girl has ever called me out on this so this is kind of weird." he said before his hand reached for my face and I found myself brushing my cheek on his hand. I liked the electric shock waves that his touch always gave me. "I'm sorry." he pulled me into a hug and I returned it. "How about we watch a movie? What do you feel like watching?" he asked after pulling back from the hug but I shrugged my shoulders. "I'm good with whatever you decide." I said flatly, I was still a little mad at him,  he frowned before he leaned to me and he placed a soft kiss on my lips and gave me this cute baby face and I tried not to smile but failed miserably. "Anything that's not action. I love romcoms." I spoke softly against his lips and he chuckled sending these vibrations all over my lips. He was pleased at himself when he saw the effect he had on me.