Gentle kiss of madness (DBS SERIES 1)

Ika-apat na lihim

JOHN 8:32
And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.

IKA-APAT NA LIHIM

Isaac Reigan Govender

After she left, rain felt like a hurricane. Sunlight felt like fire. Wind felt like a tornado; And the night was the end of the world.

Being part of my dark days, I endured it all. Because I believe that it is part of life. Humiliations, miseries, heartbreak and loss, those are challenges that tests how tough person you are. How strong is your faith in God. And how unwavering you are as a person.

For once, I never wavered. I had been molded enough since child to doubt Him and I thank my family and friends for that. They are my greatest foundation when things went unbearable for each one of us.

Among so many beautiful and valuable verses in the bible, there's this one I like a lot.

John 8:32, Ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.

Ask your heart, knock it. And when you do, meditate. Because self meditation with God is the most powerful relief He can give to mankind.

I stared at the man infront. Mahina ang pagnguya ko ng pagkain habang nasa kaniya ang nanunuring tingin. This is awkward but I'm letting myself get use to this.

How many years have it been? Ilan taon na ba ang lumipas mula nang magkasalubong kami at tanungin niya ako tungkol sa anak? Ilan taon na mula nang maramdaman ko ang sakit na tinanim ni Ezra? Ilan taon na rin ba mula nang umalis siya? Pakiramdam ko, naghintay ako ng mahabang panahon sa loob ng tatlong taon. Patuloy pa rin akong naghihintay.

I sipped in my glass and withdraw my utensils. Tapos na akong kumain at tinunghayan ang Pastor na abala sa kaniyang pinggan. Ibinaba ko ang kamay sa kandungan at sinulyapan ang paligid. Wala masyadong tao dahil uwian na sa mga trabaho. Abala sila sa paghahanap nang masasakyan. Ganoon din ang ibang empleyado ng restaurant dahil papalit na ang mga nightshift.

Sa loob, may ilang lalake akong nakita na naninigarilyo. Umiwas ako nang tingin at umismid.

Smoking does not make you look cool, it makes you look moronic.

You may also be under the impression that smoking makes you hot, thinner and sexier. Maybe it does, but consider the trade off: yellow teeth, stained fingers, breathe like a dead rat, dull skin, charcoal lungs and a heart disease.

Not many people can pull off looking hot while they are breathing through a tube inside ICU. Actually, as what I read in a random book, a lot of things might seem like good ideas now, but soon, they aren't.

Wala akong imik. I waited him finish his meal. Tumunog ang telepono ko kaya inangat ko ito at nakita ang text ng Ina.

Where are you, son?

She texted. I typed a short reply.

I have a meeting, Ma.

Nasabi niya sa akin na pupunta raw siya sa family physician dahil sumasakit ang balakang at likuran. Signs of aging na iyan. Inasar pa ni Papa kaya nagkadahilan para magpatingin sa doctor. If we didn't bugged her, she wouldn't mind her body.

Tumatanda na ang magulang ko. At isa iyon sa nagpapasakit ng ulo ko. They keep asking for a grandchild. It stressed me day by day. Lalo na't namimilit sila at ilang beses na akong pinipilit kay Brazen, a family friend who pursued her college in States. Bukod kay Thessa, siya lang ang nakaka-usap ko minsan nang elementary. Pero hindi gaanong malapit dahil hindi ko ugaling makipagdaldalan sa iba. Kung kinakailangan lang.