Gentle kiss of madness (DBS SERIES 1)

Kabanata 41

DID YOU KNOW?
- That Women were not excluded from the prophetic office in the Old Testament, and were honored with the right of prophetic utterance in the New Testament. It should be noted, however, that women like Miriam ( Exodus 15:20 ), Deborah (Judges 4:4 ) and Huldah (2 Kings 22:14 ) were not credited with the seer's insight into the future, but were called "prophetesses" because of the poetical inspiration of their speech.

PHILIPPIANS 4:12-13,17,19-20
I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.

I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

Not because I desire a gift: but I desire fruit that may abound to your account.

But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

Now unto God and our Father be glory for ever and ever. Amen.

KABANATA 41

Hindi ko alam kung paano ako nakatulog nang sumapit ang gabi. Nagpatuloy-tuloy ang ganoong treatment sa akin ni Isaac at todo asar naman sa akin ang tao sa bahay na para bang fan na fan sila ng loveteam namin ni Isaac.

Sadly, kinailangan na nila Ate bumalik sa London pero nangako naman siyang ipo-prosseso lang ang kanilang mga papeles dahil balak na rin nilang umuwi for good at dito na palakihin si Hadasah sa Pilipinas. It's just ang dami pa nilang mga naiwang trabaho roon at ministry. It will take time to slowly giving up their lifestyle and ministry there.

I know I will be sad lalo na't kami na lang ang naiwan sa bahay pero looking forward ako after one year na babalik din sina Ate. At mabuti naman na kami ni Papa towards each other kaya hindi ko na masyadong dinamdam ang pag-alis nila.

Si Isaac naman, tinotoo nga niya ang sinabi sa aking panliligaw. It's overwhelming. I can't imagine myself giggling whenever he'll drive me to where ever I'll go. Madalang ko na ngang magamit ang sariling sasakyan dahil sa pagsundo niya sa akin mula umaga at hapon. Halos magkasama na nga kami kaya parati ko siyang tinatanong kung wala ba siyang trabaho.

He always answer me no, don't worry or he schedules his work. Marami naman daw ang Pastors sa DBS kaya papalit-palit lang ang Pastor sa tuwing may regular service sila. Kumbaga, dahil siya naman ang handler, gagawin niya ang lahat ng gusto niya para lang mapuntahan ako.

I really appreciate his effort pero nag-aalala rin ako na baka mapabayaan niya ang ministry niya at eskwelahan. Baka sabihin ng iba ina-abuse ko ang rights ko dahil nanliligaw siya sa akin. Hindi naman ako ganoon. As much as I want to see him every day, God and ministry is always important.

He's a pastor. I should know that they have priorities. God, family and ministry. But sometimes family and ministry doesn't fits and the latter wins. Especially sa mga dedicated Pastor na uunahin talaga ang ministry kaysa sa pamilya.

Kaya last Sunday, para hindi na ako mag-alala, sinama niya ako sa DBS para sumimba. Doon ko ulit siya nakitang nagpreach kaya nahulog na naman ang loob ko sa kaniya.

Pinakita niya sa akin na kaya naman niyang pagsabayin ang ministry at panliligaw sa akin at nakita ko naman 'yun kaya lumuwag ang loob ko. Lumambot ako sa kaniya.