This chapter will keep switching between Umar and Hameeda's POV
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Umar's POV
I turned on the coffee machine just as my phone rang
I brought it out from my pocket to see Abdul calling me again
I've ignored every single call for the past one month since I arrived here in England
Abdul has been calling since a week ago, I do not know why he keeps bothering me
I decided to answer the call once and for all
I answered it and I kept quiet waiting for him
to speak
"You're an idiot" he said when he realized I picked up
I leaned back against the counter waiting for him to say whatever he has to say before I hang up
"A big idiot, why are you treating my sister like this?! If you don't want her as your wife anymore then let her go, divorce her! We all know what you are going through but that doesn't mean you have the right to detest her like this, you have no idea what she's going through because of you, she's becoming miserable!, what you're doing now is making her turn into a complete different person! You are ruining her Umar!...as much as I want to point out all the wrong things you've been doing, I didn't call to give you a long talk, I'm calling to make sure you aware of what's going on, because with how things are going, if caution isn't taken, I am scared that I might have to lose my sister, just like you lost yours"
With that he cut off the call
I stood still and i watched the beeping coffee machine as I let his words register into my head
Something about his last sentence stirred something in me
And before I knew it I began dialing a number
He picked up
"Hello sir?" Steve said
"Get the jet ready, I'm going back home"
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Hameeda's POV
Rumaisa and Rabiah left a few hours ago
I just prayed Isha and I was seated in my carpet when a call from Aisha my doctor came in
She was the doctor who revealed to me that I'm pregnant
And from then I've been going back to her
And we've become close friends
But she somehow seemed to become more closer to Ya Abdul
I have a strong feeling there's something going on between them
"Hello Hameeda?"
"Na'am Aisha"
"Ya kikeh?, ya jiki jiki?" She asked (How are you?, How's your health?)
"Lafiya Alhamdulillah, ya gida?" (How's home?)
"Alhamdulillah, did you take the medicine I asked you to?" She asked
"Mhm" I said
Honestly speaking I didn't
I forgot about it
She sighed and I knew she saw through my lie
"Haba Hameeda, bakya kyauta ma kanki da dan nan, we can all see what you're going through but you need to be taking care of yourself, you are putting you and your child at risk" she said (You're not helping yourself and this child)
"I'll take it in Sha Allah" I said
"Ok good, have you told your husband yet?" She asked
She's another person who knew about this issue
"No, not yet" I said
"Hameeda, you're almost 7 months pregnant now, when will he find out?" She asked
Well it's not like I see him
"When I see him next" I said
I wasn't in the mood to have a long talk and all I wanted to do was to lay down not to have this conversation
I was tired of it
"Ok Toh, if you need anything or you sense anything unusual give me a call" she said
"Ok, thank you so much Aisha, for everything" I said
"Haba Ba komai, sai da safeh" (c'mon its ok, Goodnight)
"Sai da safeh" i said as she hung up (Goodnight)
I stood up and I got the medicine box before I went back to my previous position
I opened it trying to find the medicine she was talking about
After a few minutes of searching through I found the medicine
I placed the pill in my mouth before I took the bottle of water next to me and I washed it down
I placed the medicines I brought out back into the boxes before I pushed it away
I stretched my legs in front of me as I looked down at my nails that were getting long
I literally cut them last week and it's looking like I didn't
I was about to stand up to get a nail cutter when I heard someone clearing up their throat and I immediately looked up
I was so surprised to see Umar standing there next to the opened door
How long has he been standing there?
I blinked "Ina wuni" (Good Evening)
"Lafiya" his deep voice replied
That's literally the only thing we say to each other
He could have just added another three months to his stay since it didn't seem like he wanted to come back
I held the edge of the bed before I slowly stood up
I don't even know what he's doing here
When he comes home he doesn't look for me
I'm the one who looks for him to greet him
After that he just stays locked up in his room, he sometimes comes out to eat, and goes back to his room, and then he leaves early in the morning
I don't understand the use of coming home then, He doesn't sit with me nor talk to me
"I didn't know you're coming back today, let me heat up dinner" I said
I turned to gape at him when he nodded
He doesn't do that! When I offer food he just shakes his head no and he walks away
I turned away from looking at him and I turned to leave
I went into the kitchen and I brought out the macaroni and chicken that I made for dinner some hours ago
I didn't even eat it so I kept it in the fridge
I heated it in the microwave before I placed the macaroni and the chicken in different dishes
I took them to the dining table to find him already seated there
I brought out the plates and cutleries and I kept it there
I turned to leave
"Sit with me" he said
My eyes almost widened
What?
Was he talking to me?
I looked at him and he was looking back at me
I watched him cautiously as I dragged the chair facing him and I sat down
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Umar's POV
I knew she was feeling very uncomfortable under my unwavering gaze
But I couldn't help but look at her
I felt like I haven't seen her in months
Which wasn't practically a lie
I ignored her intentionally
In fact I ignored everyone intentionally
It was my only way to an escape
After my mother's death
I became miserable
I learnt to survive by ignoring every other person around me and just being on my own
People's company just seemed to add to my sorrow
Losing Mami shaped me into this person I am
I built up walls around me and I never let them down
I only let them down for one person
My baby sister
She had been the only person who I let see the other side of me
I love her with all my heart..She was an exact replica of Mami
But now..she's gone too
It hit me harder than it did when Mami died
They shot her right in front of me
I watched as her eyes that were looking at me filled with fear roll back into her head as she fell unto the ground and she left me, forever
I might have told Hameeda it was her fault that day
But deep down I knew it wasn't
I was too frustrated and I was angry at myself that I allowed her to make me change my mind about letting Aliya go out in public when I promised myself that I would never let that happen
She had a way of making me do things that I never thought I'll agree to
I realized it for a long time now
She is my weakness
I knew it wasn't her fault
I knew for a long time that no matter what happened, My Uncle, Bello would have found a way to get to Aliya
He left a note the day Mami died saying he would come for the baby too
For 9 years I worked hard to find who left that note
Until that day in the car when I found out it was my own Uncle
Mami loved him more than she loved herself, that is what hurts me more than anything
I could swear on my life that she would have given her life is she had to for that stupid excuse of a man
And when his men killed Aliya in front of me
I knew that I wasn't going to stop until I found him
I did find him
He was in England
I found a way to work with the Police there
They found him sitting in a restaurant two weeks ago
I made sure they didn't kill him, Instead they brought him to me
I didn't dare let him be killed, I wanted him to be tortured until he can not take it anymore
I wanted to find out why he did what he did
Why he has such hatred for these two people I loved the most
But he didn't dare speak
But gradually the truth will come out, he will will continue being electrocuted until I'm satisfied
It won't kill him, but it will make him wish for death
I didn't feel guilty for ignoring my family, I'm very sure they had expected me to act this way towards them
But I won't lie to myself, I did feel guilty sometimes with my attitude towards Hameeda
As much as I'm in pain
She didn't deserve it, and I knew that
I also knew she loves me a lot
She tried to get me to talk to her or to engage me in a conversation
But I couldn't let myself allow that
I was too focused on finding Bello
I didn't want any type of distraction
I knew she was my weakness and I was scared she might make me make a drastic decision which will ruin my plan, despite that I still wanted to have my walls up
I didn't want anyone to let me bring them down again
Even Hameeda included
But When Abdul called me yesterday
It made me realize, I can lose Hameeda just as I lost Mami and Aliya
And that thought has been circulating my mind
I couldn't imagine how life would be without her in it
It also made me realize
Aliya is not the only one I have shown another side of me
Hameeda is another person who has seen that too
With the little time i've known her, about a year now
She has managed to make an impact in my life more than people I've known my entire life
She has taught me how to smile again
How to laugh again
How to appreciate again
And how to Love again.
Yes, I know that already
I know I'm in love with her
I started to accept my feelings for her since that day she told me she loves me
But I haven't told her that yet
Something I also realized is there's no way I can bring my walls up just like I did after Mami's death
I didn't have a responsibility at that time
But this time, I have a wife
Whom I have ignored for the past 5 months
I didn't speak to her
I didn't look at her
And I did not allow her to speak to me
All in the name of trying to get myself together
But She is the only who can get me together
And all I did was push her away
I knew I was wrong
I have not felt as remorseful in a long time as I did right now
If she does not forgive me
I would not blame her
When Abdul said she was becoming miserable
He was not wrong
She looked fragile
Any Fat on her that has been there before was gone
I wonder if she eats well
Dark circles were evident under her eyes, and that shine off happiness that she always carries around with her, it was vanished..completely
I knew I caused this
And I hated myself for that.
She's been frozen looking at the dish placed on the table for the past 8 minutes now
And it was starting to bother me
I slowly chewed on my food as I watched her
I waited until I swallowed
"Hameeda" I called
She didn't look at me she was still looking at the dish
"Hameeda"
Silence
"Hameeda"
Silence again
"Hameeda" I said a bit louder
She didn't move
This time I frowned
I moved forward and I moved the dish away
Her eyes were still trained on the empty Space
What the hell is going on?
"Hameeda!"
She immediately flinched and her hand hit the serving spoon and it fell unto the floor with a loud sound which caused her to flinch again
She placed her hand on her chest as her body quivered a bit
She turned to look at me with wide eyes
She looked so scared
Why did this startle her so much?
What's wrong with her?
Is perhaps this what Abdul is talking about?
"S-sorry, I didn't h-..hear you" she said
She didn't hear me?
My voice was quite loud
There's something wrong
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Probably one of the longest chapters I've written 😂
I hope you enjoyed it
Umar opened up to us o 💃🏾💃🏾💃🏾💃🏾💃🏾💃🏾
I don't know why I teared up a bit 😭🤣💔
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