-AMANDA-
Since Raven is taking a little bit too long, his cousin decided to watch one more video tape.
It's about the squad. He said it was from 5 years ago.
"Okay, Ladies and gentlemen. I am your one and only Frederick." Lance, smiles at the camera and walks towards the drum set.
-He looks kinda younger than now, but he already looked perfect with his handsome face, I admit.-
"You should introduce your band members too! You egoist!" Christopher, who looks like he's 10 years old, barks. Troy is beside him and giggles as he hands him the microphone.
"No." His brother hisses. "I am the best band ever."
Lance chuckles beside me. "True facts. They were nothing without me." I giggle in response.
-He still loves himself way too much, I see.-
"Guys, let's just sing already." I spot Kim behind the keyboard. He looks like your typical nerd with his glasses and bowl cut. -I have to say, he had a big glow up.-
A boy with braces and shoulder length blonde hair stares surprised at the camera lenses. His blue eyes flash excitement out. "Woah! Is that a 'Canon' camrecorder?"
-Awww, his voice is so cute. High and soft.-
"No, it's a goddamn 'Penny board'!" I hear Christopher sarcastically say, making Lance laugh beside me.
"Stop fighting you two! Get your ass out from the camera, Samuel! The world needs to see me, not you. " The younger version of Lance barks, making the poor boy walk away.
-WAIT?! THIS IS SAM?!... OH MY... Not to be rude, but woah he changed a lot... WHERE IS MY GLOW UP !? -
"We need a singer." Kim points out, while Sam grabs an electric guitar.
"I can sing-" Sam smiles, but gets cut off.
"Hell no!" They all yell, making him frown.
"Imma do it then!" Lance grins. "I'm the most handsome and talented afterall!"
Troy shakes his head and looks at the camera, but not directly at the lense. "Bro, you need to jump in. Otherwise Lance will sing!"
"It will cause us ear cancer!" Kim adds.
"EY!" The drummer barks.
"No." I hear a familiar, but a bit pitched voice. -Puberty hits hard.-
"Raven! Please!"
"C'mon!"
They beg him.
"Why?" Raven's voice pops out again, but he can't be seen... yet.
"You don't want to hear..." Christopher stares at his brother. "This sing!"
-Looks like they were always fighting...-
"Shut up!" The young Lance growls at them.
The next minutes are just the squad fighting against the drummer, who's cursing at them. Until, an emo boy creeps out of his corner. -If I say emo, then I mean it!- I've never thought that Raven would have a scene haircut and only wears black. He looks totally different with his hair, the 'Metallica' bandmerch, piercings and the all black theme.
"Fine. One song, just so ya'll shut up!" Raven's british accent can be heard clearly, as he grabs one electric guitar and the microphone.
The next thing he does is, he commands the squad to follow his lead. He ends up singing 'American Idiot' and '21 Guns' by Green Day.
His voice is raspy and yet so soft. Listening to him now, makes me blush. My heart pounds as I catch myself smiling widely.
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-RAVEN-
I just picked up Evelyn and Troy from their school. We're now standing infront of our frontdoor. -I'm nervous. Since when was I ever nervous to enter my own house?-
"What are you waiting for? Open up, big brother." Evelyn snaps me back to reality and I sigh.
As I open the door, I hear Lance greeting us. "Welcome back!"
-I swear, I'll kill him if he did shit. What is most likely possible that he did shit.-
My siblings rush to the ladies as my cousin appears infront of me.
I shut the door close and spot the biggest bastrad grinning widely.
"You missed out a lot." My cousin says.
I roll my eyes at him as I place the keys on the table. "No, shit-" -Fuck no!- I hear our old video, playing in the living room and groan out loud. "YOU SHOWED HER THAT!?"
He laughs, making me much more aggressive. "Chillax man~"
"' Chillax' my arse! You know exactly that it pisses me off! I never wanted her to see that! You little piece of-" Before I can roast his damn life, she appears before me.
She shyly smiles. "Hey."
-Shit! Does she think I'm weird! Did she laugh!? What exactly did she see that I don't know?!-
I gulp and send Lance one last glare, who's smirking at me. He eventually walks away with his perverted mind, leaving us alone.
"What did they do?" I nervously ask and feel like I'm about to have a heart attack right now.
"Your mom trusted me your family story and that Lance is your cousin."
-Oh...- She simply says, making it harder to breath. "And I heard... you wrote poems, correct?"
-She really did?!... The family story and Lance is okay, I guess. I mean, I trust her too... but the poems... FUCK! WHY MUM, WHY!?...-
I'm speechless. I stare at her for a while, but catch myself smiling anyways. -No, more hiding now, huh? The sooner she knows it, the better... BUT IT'S STILL EMBARRASSING AS FUCK!-
"Correct." I smile and try my best to play it cool, although my hands start to sweat. I expect her to ask me about it, but to my surprise she doesn't ask me to show it to her.
Lance pops out from the corner and angrily barks. "I can't believe you kept it from her! The fact that I am your fucking cousin!"
-Pff... never thought it was relevant. And it would be really embarrassing, if they knew that we are related.-
"So, what?" I laugh, making him growl.
"I WOULD FUCKING BRAG ABOUT MYSELF, IF I WERE YOU! LIKE, WHO WOULD NOT!?" He suddenly snaps out.
Troy chuckles as he walks past us. "That's cause you are a disgrace to this family."
-Lmao. What the fuck?... Well said, little brother.-
"You're dead!" Lance hastily chases him.
I catch myself laughing as Troy sprints away. Amanda joins me and shakes her head. "You guys ..."
I still hear myself singing in the living room and blush as she turns to stare back at the screen. I rub the back of my neck and curse internally. -AH! I'M SO DEAD!- "The video..."
"I find it really cute!" She surprisingly says with a smile and blushes. -YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME! I'M ABOUT TO DIE!-
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Amanda and I are in my room. And yes, just when I thought she wouldn't ask me, she did.
I feel my heart racing as I grab the red box out of my shelf. My hear start to shake and I internally groan.
-'You thought, she would never found out? Damn bastard. You need to think more wisely the next time you do such things!'
"Can I take a look?" She asks as I hand her the box.
I nervously smile at her, but try to play it cool. "Sure."
She slowly opens it, making my heart skip a beat. -This is way harder than I thought!- I gulp as she grab the first letter out.
She blushes as she reads through it. "W-Wow."
-'Wow, You really are a fucking freak! Stay the hell out of me! Don't you dare talk to me ever again!'-
I shake my inner thoughts away and curse internally for roasting myself.
She continues reading the other poems I wrote and then suddenly widens her eyes. -WHAT THE FUCK IS IT THAT SHE SAW!?-
I clench my teeth together and try to calm my racing heart down. "What is it?" I ask and walk closer.
My eyes widen on it's own as I spot the reason, why she is so shocked.
-THE FUCKING PICTURES I TOOK FROM HER, WHEN I WAS DAMN 15!!! SHIT! I FORGOT TO THROW THEM AWAY!SHE MUST THINK I WAS STALKING HER! I-I MEAN, YEAH I DID... BUT NOT EVERYTIME!... SHIT! Who am I lying to?!-
I nervously cough and try to talk me out of the embarrassing side of mine.
"I-I didn't thought I still had those... Don't get me wrong! I was 15 at that time and was really stupid. Sorry, for creeping you out..."
-'Good job asshole!'-
She parts her lips open and suddenly laughs. -She really laughs?!- "You're so sweet, Raven."
-Wait. This isn't the reaction I was expecting! Why isn't she mad about that?-
"Wait, you aren't creeped out?" I confusingly ask.
To my surprise she shakes her head, making me feel much more relieved. "It's really cute. This is the first time, I saw a boy think me..." She blushes and looks away from me. "It was always the other way around... I would be the one, who would do this. Secretly write things about him and secretly take pictures... I always thought, does the person even think about me? Does he do the same thing for me?"
-I see. She had this phase too...-
I feel my cheeks heating up and can't help but smile at her. I grab a paper out my shelf and start writing something for her. I sense her staring at me as I start writing something down.
"Here." I hand it to her as I finished it.
She grabs it and reads. "Roses are red. Violet can be seen as blue. My life would be perfect, if God gave me you."
-It is just a simple quote that comes from my heart. I could write more intense one, but I think this is enough for now.-
Her face heats up as she stares at me. -So fucking cute!- I unconsciously smile at her. "Keep it. I want you to know, that I am still waiting for you."
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-I can't believe, my mom told her my biggest secret... WHY DID SHE HAVE TO MENTION MY SECRET PHOTOS AND POEMS!? SHE KNOWS EXACTLY THAT AMANDA IS CURIOUS ABOUT EVERYTHING!!!!.... I HAD TO SHOW IT TO HER AFTERALL! ....FUCK! IT'S NOT COOL... AAAHHH!!!!-
After Lance and I brought Amanda back to her home, the car became silent again. My asshole cousin wanted to third wheel so bad, he volunteered to tag along.
"What happens with Harper?" He suddenly asks.
"Nothing. We are just friends. " I say and he nods.
"Makes sense and Crystal?"
"I'll apologise, once we meet again." I say.
"Kay."
I inhale deep in as I slower the car down, since the traffic lights turn red.
"What is the actual reason, why you came?" I ask and glare at him. "I don't think it is, because you wanted to roast me so bad."
Lance grins and leans back. "I did wanted to roast though."
"Gawd..." I groan, making him chuckle. -I would actually kick him out of my car right now!-
He soon stops and stares surprised at his phone. "Oh shit!"
"What is it?" I ask.
He suddenly turns deadass serious and stares a while at me, sending chills to my spine. -He used to look at me just like this, when he found out that I was going to commit suicide.-
"Dash has been missing for 5 days already."