-AMANDA-
"Are you really sure about your decision Amybear!?" Nath looks unbelievably at me as he stops the car.
"Yes, I'm serious." I stare at him for a while and he sighs.
"Alright, as long as it makes you happy." He seems upset about something. I don't understand why. It is my decision.
"Thank you." I send him a small smile and step out of the car. I hastily look at my surroundings and unfortunately, cannot spot them.
-Are they going to skip class? We just had school break... I could send them a message, but I think talking personally with them is better...-
-Today is the day, I need to end it all. As much as it hurts me, keeping them would hurt them even more... My conversation with Charles this New Year, made me realise that he was always there. We kissed, after he expressed his feelings, he pulled me to a kiss. What should I say? It felt right. I know, I've kissed Raven and Blake too, yet it didn't feel right I feel cruel for doing so and I hate myself for that. They deserve better, than me. Charles secretly liked me first, before the two of them. He is loyal, sweet, kind and just perfect. Why was I so blind not to notice this? Of course, I felt attached to Raven and Blake as well, but Charles is something different. It just feels... right.-
"Amanda?" I spot Courtney beside me. She looks concerned. -What is wrong now?-
"Yeah?"
To my surprise, she stops me from walking and hugs me tight.
"Although, I share the same thoughts with Nath, I wish you the best luck. If it makes you happy, then do it. I'm here if you need me." A warm smile appears on her face. -Oh goodness... I'm really lucky to have an understanding friend. -
"Thank you very much." I'm near tears and am afraid to cry. -I really feel like I'm doing the right thing for the first time ever.- I smile back at her. "I appreciate that."
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-BLAKE-
-I need to ask her now. Now or never. Truth or lie. I just need to know the reason why!-
Thanks to some dumb ass traffic, I arrived later than I planned to be. I wanted to meet her first. It's been bugging me for days. Just the fucking thought of it!
I stomp my way past these psychopathic teens. They send me multiple glares and even talk behind me, but that doesn't bother me now. -I'll fuck them up later, after I've talked to her... What? I don't accept being disrespected. -
After walking past some hoes, I finally spot her. I catch myself smiling as I approach her. But as I take a closer look, I spot her with a special someone.
I feel my blood boiling inside of me and my heart pounding way too fast.
-Why am I so fucking nervous?-
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-AMANDA-
I didn't expect this to happen, but here he is. I nervously smile at him as he sends me his colgate smile.
"I am going to answer your question." I take a deep breath in and try my best to remain calm. My heart is beating so fast and I can't help it, but squeal internally.
-This is the moment I've been waiting for.. The moment I've been dying to be in!... It is really happening isn't it?! What should I do if I faint now?-
My childhood crush stares cluelessly at me for a while. He soon widens his blue eyes as he realized what I meant. "You mean-"
I know, I've reached my maximum blush and feel like I'm really about to die. "Y-Yes. That. My answer is, Yes." I hastily mutter out and avoid his eyes.
-I've said it! I really did! Oh my god! I REALLY SAID IT!-
"You ...are you serious?" I hear him ask and nod. "No joke?"
"No joke." I assure him and stare back. "I want to go out with you."
As I spit that out, I notice how the atmosphere changed. It feels like everyone is suddenly silent in the hall.
It feels nice being in the centre of attention for once.
He smiles as he suddenly pulls me into a hug. I get squeezed to his chest and feel his warmth. "You don't know, how fucking happy I am." -WHAT?!-
-Did he just said a bad word?!-
I hastily lift my head up and spot his deep dimples. I gulp at the sight of it and blush. "D-Did you just curse?"
"Sorry, I can't control myself, when I'm excited." He shyly admits and pulls me into a kiss.
His soft lips are pressed to mine and it honestly feels like I'm in heaven. The way he kisses me, seems like he was longing for this, just like I did.
-This kiss is way different than theirs... Charles feels like the right one.-
His huge arms are wrapped around my waist. The touch of his hands, drive me crazy. -I wonder what would happen,when ... WHEN DID I EVER FELT LIKE THIS?!-
-He smells so good. Ehy did I never notice how buff he is? He is literally like an Iron, when you touch him. The question is, when did he changed into a man?...Not what I expected him to be like. He is just perfect in every way.-
A sudden loud 'bang' hallows into my ears. I startle and quickly release myself from Charles and spot Blake dead glaring at us with his right fist still resting on the curved in locker. -OH NO! This is not how I wanted it to be...-
Blake removes his injured fist, but doesn't release his gaze from me. I notice, how his once mesmerising eyes now look broken and painful. It aches my heart seeing him like this, just the same way Raven stared at me after finding out about Blake and I.
I feel tears rising up my eyes. -Why do I feel like I did a wrong mistake?...-
"How... long." Blake trembles as he speaks. "For how fucking long were you hiding this?!" I startle as he yells and expected him to jump right into Charles, but he doesn't. Instead of that he sends me the most 'hateful and broken' glare he has ever shown me.
I sense people staring at us and some mumble loud enough for me to hear.
Being unable to say a word as I stare at the broken boy before me, makes me feel much more guilty. "B-Blake, I-" The tears in my eyes start rolling down and I hastily swipe it. -Why does it hurt so bad?...-
"She has her own rights to choose what she wants." Charles suddenly speaks up.
Blake let's out a little chuckle as he glares at him. "Yeah, right. Because you fucking brainwashed her! You son of a b-"
Before he can lose his control and attack Charles, I interrupt him. " I made my decision! It isn't his fault!"
Blake widens his eyes at me as I continue talking. The pain I feel inside me starts hurting me more and more. "I want him in my life and I didn't want to tell it to you this way... I just... If you could please respect my decision, I'd be really thankful for that."
He looks less intimidating now, but the same broken look on his face can't seem to fade away. He parts his lips open, but shuts them and shakes his head. He then stares at me one last time. "I wish you all the best, Amanda."
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-RAVEN-
-What is wrong with these pack of students gathered in the hallway? What is wrong now?-
I can't walk further, if they are blocking the fucking way. I groan internally.
"They are at it again." A boy whispers next to his friend beside me.
"I know. They keep making scenes just because they are damn popular. How ignorant." The other one adds.
"Goddamn Clichès."
"Why is it always them?"
-Sounds familiar.-
Since people are blocking my view and no I am not fucking short, they are just taller than I am, I inform myself. "What is going on?"
They stare at me for a while as if I'm out of this world. The boy with a 'Celtics' Jersey answers. "Blake Cohen."
-Ah, that type of shit.-
My adrenaline suddenly rushes up. I curl my fist together and thank them, as I make my way through. People try to push me back, but I still managed to walk forward.
-Fuck. If it is what I believe it is then... I just hope not!-
As I finally see the whole scenery, my heart drops. -What?...-
Blonde Dick, Fuckhead with Amanda in between them.
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-AMANDA-
-Wait ... just that?...- Without thinking, I follow him as he walks away. My heart is throbbing so fast, I just don't know what to do. I unintentionally grab his shirt and he turns around.
"What is it?" A little hope glimmers in his eyes, making my heart ache much more worse than before.
-I don't want to lose Blake. He means a lot to me. I just can't let him stay disappointed like that. There are times, when I wish we were a couple, but it is impossible. The connection between us is way too far. He's a popular, perfect and rich boy... While I'm just average. I'm just lucky to know Charles, who's also the opposite of me. Perfect. But we've liked each other from the start and I don't want it to vanish just like that. -
"Can't we atleast be friends." I sound like I'm begging him. I feel hopeless and it is making me tear up.
He suddenly changes his mood. "Friends?" I carefully nod. "I'm sorry to upset you, but that is not going to work. It's better to keep distance from now on."
Just like that he coldly releases my hand off his shirt and walks away. This time I don't follow him.
As I turn to look at my surroundings, I spot Charles beside me and a whole pack of kids staring at us. Unluckily, inside the crowd I spot him.
My heart drops again and I feel like I'm about to faint.
Raven has the same look on Blake's face. -Please, not him too! Why did it have to turn out like this?! It hurts like hell!-
I hastily make my way through the crowd. Behind me I hear Charles, calling for me to go back. I ignore it and marsh to my target.
-I want to explain why this happened like this. I don't want to lose him too! I need to figure this out! If only they would listen to me...We can still be friends, right? -
Unfortunately, he already vanished without a word. Leaving my troubled and broken heart alone.
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Author: I'm sorry, if I upset you guys. :( It had to come.
Charles ain't a bad guy though. I think some are fine with it, right? :3
What is going to happen now?
Will Blake forgive her?
What about Raven, will their relationship stay like it was before?
And what about Charles?
Find out in the next chapter and please don't forget to vote♡