-AMANDA-
"You need to find out! The sooner, the better!" Courtney tells me after I've told her my problems.
I just couldn't keep it for myself anymore. It bothers me everytime I see or speak to them. -It has already been a month. The three confessed to me ... I know, I need to answer them soon... otherwise their feelings might change and I know I will regret it... Problem is... I don't know, who I love the most...-
"You're right" I admit and groan. -I hate it, whenever she's right! It just annoys me to know, I'm not capable to come to a decision!-
She bites into her chocolate bar and then grins at me. "Of course, I am! Love is my special area." -Yeah, you don't need to rub it into my face...-
I watch her enjoy her chocolate and then ask after she's finished. "So, what do you suggest I should do?"
She sits upright and crosses her feet together. She doesn't say something for a while and looks around. -I know, she's thinking about it right now. -
Her face lightens up as she came to a conclusion. She grins widely and to be honest, it's frightening me. "Go on dates!" -Is she serious right now?! I thought she was going to say something wise and this is what I get!-
I shake my head and sigh. "I've told you. I have been spending time with them and still can't determine my feelings-"
She hastily shushes me by placing one finger to my lips. "Hear me up first!"
A soft giggle escapes her laughter, as I raise my hands up. "Thank you!... Now, where was I?"
"The dates?"
"Oh, yeah right!" She smiles. "I've been thinking...Why don't you try it like in the old times? Going to real dates and try seeing them as your boyfriend. The one, where you feel the most attached to and know that it'll surely work out with the both of you... you'll know, he's the right one!"
-I like it, when she's honest with me...-
She might be immature and awkward most of the time, but when it comes to love she's the complete opposite of that.
"You're amazing!" I praise her. "I mean it! I'm so lucky to have you!" I smile and she grins.
"Oh really? Since when?" She jokes.
"Courtney, you might not have heard this often, but I want you to know that you're a saviour in my life. You always solve my problems and help me stand up everytime! I'm really thankful for having you. " I honestly admit.
"Awww!" She blushes with a bright smile on her face as she stands up from her seat. "Oh, stop it! You know, I get emotional!"
She squeezes me tight and I squeeze her back.
After talking about my situation an hour ago, I receive a phone call from Blake. Courtney thinks, I should take that opportunity and go on a date. Although I'm afraid things might turn out bad, I think I really should start getting out from my comfort zone.
-If I want a change, I need to start today!-
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I decided to arrive earlier, than the actual time we agreed to meet up. Courtney drove me to Théos model apartment, somewhere in middle of New York.
When I got into the shooting room, I spot Jeffrey. He's posing for the camera and looks professional by doing so. He looks different. I mean, I haven't seen him for a while.
-I admit, he looks hot and seductive. However, I know that I am just fascinated by his appearance and won't fall for him. It's impossible.-
"Could you stop giving him 'that' look, please?" I suddenly hear his voice behind me. I flinch and turn to look at Blake. -OH, COME ON! -
"W-What?" Just when I glared at him, I realised his bare upper body. It's well defined. His thick muscle strings are clearly visible, along with the veins around his arms. Not forgotten to mention the tattoos... just wow. -DAMN IT! STOP STARING AMANDA!-
I blush, when he raised his eyebrows with an amused smirk plastered on his reddish lips. "That's better." He says, making me groan out loud.
-He noticed... Oh, jeez.-
"Please get a shirt." I look away from him and hear his soft laughter beside me.
"You don't like me." He states for himself and I glare at him. -I forgot how much I hate it, when he teases me.-
"Why do you always say that, when things don't turn out your way?" I ask.
"So, you aren't avoiding the fact that you do like me?" He chuckles.
"Wait, what?"
He shrugs with his shoulders. "I mean, you didn't say yes and asked me a question instead." -He's so complicated... Hold up! Now, it's my turn to tease him... Let's see, if you'll like that!-
I playfully wink at him as I smile. "Whatever."
He looks surprised at me for a second, but then reveals his devilish smirk and amusingly stares at me. "Damn~ I like that."
-YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME! HE LIKES THAT!? WHAT A PSYCHOPATH!-
He steps closer to me, making my heart race. -What is he up to?-
"Blake!? Où es tu?(Where are you?)" Théo yells across the room, making him groan out loud.
"Shit! Just when things were getting hot!" He mumbles underneath his breath.
-HOLD UP! WHAT DID HE JUST SAY?! DON'T TELL ME HE WAS PLANNING TO MAKE OUT WITH ME!-
" 'Où es tu' my ass! Shall we get out of here, Cupcake?" He then asks.
I notice how my face heated up again. "Y-you should probably go..." I stutter.
He checks me out for a while and then does the 'side mouth lick' thing with a wink. -How does he do that?! He's so seductive!- "I'll be right back." He pats my head, turns around and walks away.
I catch myself staring at his back muscle and face palm myself. -GOSH! WHY?! KEEP YOUR EYES OFF HIM, AMANDA!-
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-BLAKE-
"How's Miles doing?" I ask, since I haven't seen that little boy. I kinda miss him. -I wonder, if he still remembers me though.-
"He's doing alright." She says and smiles warmly at me. -Oh, shit!- "Why'd you ask?"
"I kinda miss him." I admit and chuckle. "He grew to me, ya know?"
"Sweet." She replies and blushes. -Aww...- "Is your mom and the baby doing fine?"
"Yeah... I'm going to have a sister, by the way." I remembered what mom said and I catch myself smiling. "They miss you too."
She looks surprised at me. "Really? How cute! ...Tell her, I miss them too."
I nod. "Got ya."
I clinch on the box inside of my pocket. -Should I hand it now?... Yeah, I probably should.-
"Amanda." She looks at me and I smile. -Cute. Like a puppy, when you call for it's name.-
"Yes?"
I take the box out and hand it to her. I send her my best smile. "Here. Merry Christmas."
As I predicted, she's blushing as she takes the box. She smiles warmly at me again. -How much I love her cute smiles... AGH!- "T-Thank you, but it's not Christmas yet."
"I might be very busy during Christmas and might not be able to hand it to you on time. So, today's the only opportunity. " I say.
She looks kinda sad, after I've said that. "I didn't bring a present with me today."
-Is she serious right now? She's worried about that? Oh my god! This woman...-
I laugh and she looks blankly at me. "I really appreciate your honesty and concern. But, I really don't need anything in return."
"Why not? It's Christmas! You give and you receive." She states, making me smile.
"I already received my present though."
"What do you mean?"
I chuckle at her for being so nice and yet so clueless. "Spending time with you and having have met you is the best gift I have ever received."
-I'm serious over here. I have never laughed, felt love, been excited or frustrated this much before... -
Amanda reached her maximum blush and doesn't look at me. "Geez.. you're really sweet."
I smile at her. "Not hot?"
"Blake!" She hisses and I laugh again. -I'm such an ass, I know.-
"I'm just joking around." I point at the box and she looks at it. "Open. I want to see you wear it."
She does as I told her and I find myself smiling like crazy again. The look on her face is priceless. "Oh my goodness... Blake, this is beautiful."
I stand up from my chair to help her close the necklace around her neck. "It's nothing much, but I thought it really suits you."
As I place the silver thing around her pale skin, I noticed how much of a horny ass I am. I gulp and try to keep my thoughts to myself, as I slightly touch her bare neck. -Shit...-
"This is too much... and it must be really expensive." She stutters.
-When I saw the red ruby shaped thing as a tiny little heart for the first time, I immediately thought of Amanda. It wasn't cheap and I had a few struggles trying to afford it, I admit. But the hardwork was worth it. I'd do anything just to see her smile.-
"Nope." I add. -Why do people always worry about the price? Geez!-
"I don't know, how to thank you enough..." She stands up and hugs me tightly. -The best feeling ever...- I can sense people staring at us, but I honestly enjoy it.
I squeeze her tightly and let go as soon as she does. -Though I didn't want to.-
We sit down again and try to not blush at each other. Though, I can't stop smiling because of her. She tries to remain calm and acts like everything is back to normal.
I can't help but stare at her. She quietly nips on her drink as she looks outside the window. -Fucking cute! Aahhh! I'm going nuts!-
Just the thought of her arriving earlier at my work... Oh, damn! If only we were together. I would kiss the fuck out of her, right now.
"Blake?" Her grey orbs pierced into me.
"Yes?"
"You're staring." She says with a cute little smile on her face. -Is she trying to tease me? I don't think she can keep up any longer-
I smirk at her. "I don't see a problem with that."
She manages not to blush and shakes her head. -Respect.- " What do you mean? You are obvious, ya know."
"So, what? Since when is it forbidden to stare at someone so beautiful?" I counter and smile. As predicted, she can't keep up. Her face deceives her.
"Alright! Geez, you're such a psychopath!" She giggles. -Aww!-
"You put 'hot' in 'psychopath'." I say and nip on my drink.
She raises her eyebrows at me and laughs. "That doesn't make any sense."
"Just like us not being together, yet." I blurt out and try to keep my cool.
-I admit, it is corny as fuck... but smooth. Really smooth.- She looks away from me and blushes. I know she won't say anything to that, which is why I continue talking.
"Have you... decided already?" My heart somehow aches and I feel nervous. I can't keep still, somehow and impatiently leg bounce. -Bloody hell! I just asked her a risky question! What if she chooses Johnson or Charles, instead of me?! ...What will happen to me then?-
She stays silent for a few moments. -I wonder, what she's thinking right now.- "I need some more time..."
I nod at her and then notice how my heart calmed down. "Would...Would I stand a chance?" I blurt out and internally curse myself.
-FUCK! ARE YOU TRYING TO COMMIT SUICIDE OR WHAT?!-
To my surprise, she laughs in respond. "You know, the answer to that." -Shit... I wasn't ready for that...-
I feel a deep sting in my heart and sigh. "So it is a 'no'."
"Wow, how pessimistic." She then says and rolls her eyes. -Gosh... Why is she making it so hard for me?!-
"You expect me to be happy after hearing that?" I angrily ask.
She seems confused for a while. "I didn't say that."
-Don't tell me... She fucking thinks I'm playing around! That's it! SHIT! WHY THE FUCK DOES SHE THINK THAT WAY!-
I feel the anger boiling inside of me. "But you thought so! Do you really think I'm playing around, Amanda?" I unintentionally raise my voice.
She startles and widens her eyes. "W-What?..." -Now she's confused... ARGH!-
"It fucking pisses me off!" I groan in pain and shut my eyes.
"Blake?" I open my eyes and spot her concern look.
-Why do I always soften up, when I see that? It hurts a lot... she thinks I'm an asshole, who just wants to play... I don'tfucking want that! FUCK! I WANT TO HAVE A FUTURE WITH HER! I WANT TO SEE HER EVERYDAY, TELL HER THINGS I'VE NEVER TOLD ANYBODY, I WANT TO FEEL HER WARMTH... MOST IMPORTANTLY!... I want to make her happy and protect her with my life...-
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-AMANDA-
-Okay, I think I played enough already.-
He looks clearly broken in a way I can't tell. It aches my heart to see that, but I had to tease him back. -I'm so mean...-
Just when I was about to tell him, that I'm just playing around, he prevents me from doing so.
"I'm serious, Amanda. I've never been this attached to someone..." His eyes slightly tear up. My heart stings deeply and it hurts. I feel bad and guilty for playing around.
-What is this? Why do I feel the need to squeeze him tight, gently stroke his cheeks and kiss him?...-
"Blake, I'm sorry. I was just playing around." I admit and look away. -He must hate me now...-
"What?" He sounds surprised. "H-Hold up! So you're telling me, that you tried to tease me?"
I feel ashamed of myself as I nod. "Y-yeah, sort of. I'm sorry."
"Wow." I look back at him and spot the relief in his face. "You really got me this time." A sudden smile covers his lips.
"I really am so sorry-" I try to apologise, but he cuts me off.
"I won't accept your apology. This is unforgivable!" -WHAT!?- His warm smile turns into an evil smirk, letting me know that I've just brought myself into danger. "You better be prepared. I won't be merciful next time, Cupcake."
-ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!-
"Oh, c'mon! I had to pay it back to you! You always tease me!" I whine.
He softly chuckles and then stuns me with his sudden warm smile. -He looks cute...- "So, I do stand a chance?"
I sigh and blush. I nervously play with the necklace he gave me and feel my heart skipping beats again. -He's so sweet, I'm afraid to hurt him...- "Yeah."
He avoids my eyes and smiles on his own. "Geez~" -He is ...cute!-
"What is it?" I ask and he covers his mouth.
"Stop staring. It's embarrassing." He quietly mumbles and I find myself smiling at him. -Aww, he's embarrassed.-
"Uhmm, by the way." I say and he looks back at me. "Why do you have a scar on your cheek?"
He removes his hand from his mouth and grins. "That's a long story."
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-RAVEN-
I was told to jog around.
Yes, you guessed right.
My fucking cousin, called LANCE FREDERICK RUFUS BARTHOLOMEW, who has no life, is 21 years old and a teacher at NYU... fucking told me so.
That fucking retard judged my physical appearance and said I gained weight. He's not wrong though, but I hate the fact that he judged me.
I'm going to kill him! I swear, I'll lose weight and prove him wrong! Then I'll laugh at his face, for judging too much!-
I'm sweating and feel dizzy. I've been jogging for two and a half hour already. The main event is going to take place, before christmas, which means double paycheck. I also heard Isaac is going to be there. Lance told me, that I need to impress him, if I want to get paid higher than usual. In order to do that, I have to get in shape.
I'm doing this for my family. The more wins I get, the better.
New York is a crowded place, but it's okay. I still can dodge and jog around. People send me weird stares and some even stick their phones out, when I jog pass them.
A familiar figure steps out from a bakery store. At first, I didn't pay attention, but then I spot another person beside him. -What the hell?...-
I stop jogging. -There's no way! It can't be...-
I know, I'm not mistaken. Especially, if it's her. Amanda walks next to him and they are laughing with each other. They don't seem to have noticed me and walk towards Blake's red 'Harley'.
-Fuck... What am I standing here for?! What is this feeling? Why do I feel like wanting to storm towards them?...-
I'm not frustrated by the fact, that they hang around together. I'm dead ass pissed, knowing that she's happy around him.
The sound of his motorcycle loudly growls in my ears. I watch her drive away with my ex-bestfriend.
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Author: Enoyed this chapter? There will be more dramas to come! ^^
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