[Namjoons POV]
Everything was great. I could breathe for once. Jin had cooked so much food, a lot of it my favorite. Everyone was smiling, laughing, giggling. Hoseok was sitting next to me, his hand on my thigh, refusing to remove it. On my other side was Taehyung, who held my hand, and gave me food constantly.
However, when I coughed, everyone freaked out again.
I coughed and placed my hand over my mouth, as I tried to stop my constant coughing. I moaned slightly as I stopped, and Taehyung was rubbing my back while Jungkook had stood up was now kneeling beside me, whispering cute words.
I pulled my hand away and there on my palm was blood. I sighed, grabbing a tissue to wipe away the blood. "Namjoon are you okay" Seokjin asked, helping me to wipe the blood of my lips. "It's okay, I know I'm dying anyway" I said, giving a weak smile to everyone.
"Don't say that" Yoongi said sternly, giving me a look. I smiled at him, my chest rising up and down heavily, as my lungs tried their best to work. "Baby, you're strong, you're amazing, you'll beat this stupid disease" Jimin said, as he leaned across the table and placed a small kiss on my lips.
"Sooo can I talk about sex?" I asked and next thing I knew Jungkook was screaming "ah fuck" as Jimin spit out his orange juice, which just so happened to be in the direction of Jungkook. "Shit shit shit" Jimin said as he ran around grabbing tissues to clean Jungkook. "Hyunggg" Jungkook whined and I couldn't help but to giggle.
Jungkook turned to look at me, a glare on his face but once we made eye contact he burst out laughing, while taking his now sticky t-shirt off.
"You're lucky I love you mister" Jungkook laughed, throwing his t-shirt at me, which I quickly dodged.
"Guys, let's just listen to Namjoon okay? Jin said and I sent him a smile, thanking him.
" So even though you're gonna beat this disease you have a bucket list? " Yoongi asked and I nodded slowly, not saying anything as I didn't want more tears.
" You want somebody to take your virginity?" Jimin asked and I once again nodded.
"Isn't sex while your extremely ill even worse for your health?" Hoseok asked, a pout on his lips as he thought about me being ill.
"I have to go back to the hospital in 2 weeks, and then I'll be even more weak because I have to get chemotherapy, my hair will fall out and I'll probably lose even more weight" I explained. "I want to lose my virginity now when I still look young and beautiful".
"Oh kitten, we will all still love you, even with no hair, even with no eyebrows, even when you get sick" Taehyung whispered out, and everyone else nodded.
"When you lose weight and you can't eat or drink, when you don't want us there because you think you're horrible, we will all still love you, forever" Jin said and I couldn't help but let out a small sob, with a smile on my face.
"T.. Thank you.. Hyungjes, I really... L.. Love you" I stuttered out, wiping my tears with my sleeve. With that said, everyone stood up and crowded around my chair, and we had a group hug.
"Who's the person you have in mind though?" Jimin asked and Yoongi hit him over the head, telling him to "not think with his dick".
We all laughed and I fiddled with my sleeves until I looked up to see all of them looking at me, waiting for me to speak.
"Em.. Yoongi hyung" I whispered out.
Yoongi froze, his hand wrapped around the glass, half way to his mouth, the liquid almost falling out. Jin on the other hand, had burst out laughing, clutching his stomach in pain as he laughed so much. I swallowed the saliva in my mouth, before I whispered out "what's so funny?"
Jin was chuckling now, and Hoseok who had also laughed, was taking deep breathes while smiling at me.
"Why Yoongi hyung?" Jimin asked, as he did a squat on the chair, bringing his knees up so he could wrap his arm around them. I blushed as my eyes made their way to Yoongi, who was staring right at me. "I.. I.." I mumbled out, not knowing the reason why my heart and mind had chosen Yoongi.
"It's okay, you don't have to explain" Yoongi said, his voice calm and deep.
"Baby, it's your first time though, but em, I guess why we laughed and were kinda shocked is because for your first time, Yoongi hyung isn't exactly.." Jungkook spoke, trailing of at the end as he didn't know what to say.
"He's not exactly soft" Hoseok said, biting his lip as he spoke.
"Okay listen Joonie, baby, I'm gonna be honest, as you know already we are all dominant, we like fucking, we like being in charge, when I fuck, I fuck until I can't fuck no more, I tease and use cock rings and don't let you cum unless I say so, I love teasing, I love overstimulation and then cuddling and cute baths afterwards " Jin said bluntly and I stared at him as he spoke with almost a spark in his eyes.
Before I could say anything else, Hoseok was talking, while holding and rubbing my hand.
" I like rough sex, back scratching, screaming, bleeding. I'm the one in control and you should know that, I love when you do what I say, I give punishments, I give rewards, but know that aftercare is the best, and there should be no sex unless aftercare is guaranteed. Hair pulling, biting, you name it, I'll like it."
After speaking about what he liked, he then turned to me and flashed me a huge smile which had me thinking how the heck was this man rough and hot one second and cute and giggly the next.
[So fricking adorable, I just akdhsllk]
I nodded and whispered out "aftercare" which sounded fun to me.
Jimin was smirking at me and as I looked up we caught eyes. "You know what I like being called" he said, his voice clear and loud. I gulped and nodded at him. He raised an eyebrow and didn't say anything and I quickly realized he wanted me to say it. "Yes Master" I mumbled out, for once not caring that my cheeks were turning red.
I noticed Jin place his hand on my thigh and start to rub it, which gave me tingles. I turned to face him and he just smiled before listening to Jimin. "I'm very possessive, you're mine, and I'll make sure you know that. I like BDSM I guess, I like tying you up, I like using ice, candle wax, blindfolds, chains, whips, anything that you can think of in your cute little imagination" Jimin had said and now Seokjin was squeezing my thigh and I was fidgeting in my seat.
"When I was younger I used to dip my finger in the hot candle wax" I muttered out. Jimin smirked at this, "oh you'll love it on your chest and thighs then". I blushed before looking down at my Thighs, imagining them with candle wax and smiled.
Taehyung called my name and I looked up at him, to see him sitting back, staring at me with a smile, his arms crossed. "You know I like being called sir, I also like being called Master sometimes. I like messing around in public, like if we were on a quiet train or even in the cinema, I'd finger fuck you hard and you'd have to be quiet. I also love the idea of fucking you in front of the other boys, or my friends, it's a great turn on for both me and them, and wouldn't you like to turn on multiple men at the same time? " he spoke and my mouth hung open slightly, as I had never even thought about doing anything where other people could see. I just nodded at Taehyung because as much as I tried to deny it in my mind, it sounded amazing.
" Good boy" Taehyung smirked and I blushed at the praise.
Jungkook noticed my cheeks going red and decided to talk about it. "It looks like our baby has a praise kink". "He does?" Jin asked before turning to face me. "em what?" I whispered out, my eyes on Jungkook. "It means you like when other people praise you baby" Yoongi explained and my mouth went into an "oh" shape before I nodded, agreeing. "I do like praises" I giggled and they all smiled.
"I like praising during sex" Jungkook said as he winked at me. "I am a sadist, so I do like causing pain, I like biting, and spanking using a paddle, I like using toys, I would say my style of sex is a mixture of Hoseok hyungs and Jin hyungs, with a little bit of Jimins tying up kink."
My eyes were focused on Jungkook the entire time that he spoke, that I didn't even realize that Yoongi had stood up, to go get some water, to try calm himself down.
" What's your style like then Yoongi hyung? "I asked and he started coughing, slightly choking on the water.
" em.. I" Yoongi began speaking, but his words were stuttering, and he couldn't speak properly.
"The reason we told you our style is because Yoongi is like a mixture of all of us, although Hoseok is the most dominant always, when it comes to sex Yoongi is the one who explores the most" Jimin explained. "He also likes using knifes" Taehyung added and my eyes widened at the mention of knifes.
"That's why Namjoon babes, I think it might be better to lose your virginity to somebody else, maybe Taehyung wouldn't mind it being just you and him for your first time, and Jin wouldn't mind not using over stimulation on you, even Jungkook could tone it down a bit" Yoongi said, a small smile on his lips as he spoke. I couldn't help but feel slightly sad as he spoke, and a pout made its way onto my lips.
"Hey why are you pouting" Hoseok asked as he leaned over slightly and poked my lips causing me to giggle. "Yoongi hyung" I said, and it came out in a slight whisper. "Yes baby?". "I still want you to take it" I muttered, looking down at my lap, a pout on my face.
I heard a slight sigh and then it was silent so I looked up to see Yoongi biting his lip, his hand in his hair, pulling slightly at it with annoyance. The other boys just sat there, with an awkward face, not saying anything.
"Namjoon no, I can't, okay?, I'm sorry baby" Yoongi said so I puffed, and stood up, pushing the chair back. Everyone's eyes were on me now except Yoongi, who was looking anywhere but at me.
"Please daddy?" I asked and I noticed Yoongi fidget in his seat.
"If you don't fuck him, I swear I will" Hoseok said and Jin slapped him over the head, causing me to giggle.
I walked over to Yoongi, who still hadn't said anything before sitting on his lap. Yoongi finally looked at me and smiled before wrapping an arm around my waist and kissing my cheek.
"Please daddy?" I asked and Yoongi sighed. "Namjoon, I said no, I'm sorry" was his answer. All the other guys were now looking at us and wondering why Yoongi wouldn't fuck me, even if he was the roughest of them all.
I stood up, before staring at Yoongi, and sticking my tongue out at him. "You're a meanie" I shouted at him before I ran up to my bedroom, regretting it 2 seconds later as my chest burned and I started coughing.
I sat on my window, staring out at the pretty view, with a sad face. My pout soon turned to a smirk though as I realized I knew what to do to get Yoongi to change his mind, and I was going to start my plan right now.
[Word count - 2050]
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