zedxxx: Nasa UCC, Eastwood ako while writing this. Ahh~~ The feels. Lol. House blend tayo friends!
13 – As if I promised him the world but I gave him a peanut.
ZEDXXX POV
Flashback…
It was one of Corr’s walwal days…
Walwal is a Filipino colloquial term for getting wasted.
In short, basag.
It was a Thursday night, a happy Thursday for Taft people… but not literally for Corr Benitez.
It was the fifth Thursday after their breakup.
A month after their breakup.
If you can call it a breakup.
Kasi di ba? Hindi naman breakup ang tawag sa…
Biglang no contact.
Biglang iwan sa ere.
Biglang di pagpaparamdam.
Ang tawag dun…
Pagiging scumbag
”Isang bottle pa kuya.” Corr slurred with her words as she orders for another bottle of drink.
“Okay pa po ba kayo Ma’am?” The server asked in worry. “Last na ‘to ah. Pang ilan niyo na ‘to eh.”
“Kuya naman. I’m still okay! Kayang kaya ko ‘to.” She said with that foolish smile on her face. Na kahit sinong kausapin niya ay isa lang ang maiisip. Sabog na ‘to.
“Oh basta Ma’am, last na ‘to ah. Hindi safe yang ginagawa niyo. Iisa isa pa naman kayo dyan. May susundo po ba sa inyo?”
“Don’t ya worry Kuya. I have sundo~~” She said as she gulped her drink while trying to text.
KuyDA I’m sorryu I liedff. I’m inm Centralkj. Sundo pls.
*sent*
She should be resting at home; watching Friends reruns or having TWD marathon, while eating a bag of Cheetos or a BFF twister fries – just all for herself, forgetting about her diet and all…
She should be relaxing somewhere peaceful; maybe in a spa – drinking tea before having her favorite traditiona hilot or in a salon - having her usual mani and pedi, while browsing the latest issue of teen vogue.
But instead to use her off or free day for something nice, something to calm her nerves, to forget about the stressful and pressuring month…
She spent it here…
In Central.
Drinking local beers, a pitcher of badtrip and a shot of blowjob.
How classy.
What the hell is wrong with you, Corr?
Anong itinatanga tanga mo dyan ngayon?
This is so not you, moping and drinking like a dumped girlfriend.
Oh right, did I say dumped?
“You are soooo stupid. Sooooo stupid.” She foolishly said, facing and even pointing at her beer – as if it’s going to talk back. Muntanga lang teh?
“Who do you think you are?” She continued, not minding the glances from the next table.
“Then… Ano ‘tong naririnig ko kay Nics na nasa agno ka palagi? Ano ka? Tiga Main?” She hysterically added. “Sino na naman ang inaabangan mo dun at patambay tambay ka dun ha? Nananadya ka ba?”
Actually, this is the reason kung bakit bwisit na bwisit si Corr ngayon.
Binalita kasi ni Nics na may nakakakita daw kay Presbi na nakatambay sa Agno palagi. Actually every Wednesday and Thursday daw. They used to have lunch in Agno nung sila pa. Super dalas pa nga eh, na tipong may bakanteng table na para sa kanila, kahit wala namang reserved na nakalagay.
Then just this afternoon, may nakakita daw kay Presbi na nasa Agno na naman, but this time may kasama na daw na babae – from DLSU.
Then the rest is history…
Dagdag pa yung isang babae na nasa loob ng kotse ni Presbi one time. Take note, ibang babae daw ‘to dun sa dinedate niya sa Agno.
Anyare sa three month rule dre?
**
After 10 minutes, may humatak na sa kamay ni Corr patayo.
“Kuyaaa. Oh wag ka na magaliiiiiiit okay. Hindi naman ako lasing~~ Sorry naaaaa~~” Inunahan na niya agad na sinabi, Hindi naman halatang lasing na lasing siya ‘no?
She placed a five hundred bill on the table at umakbay na sa kapatid niya. “Why are you suddenly so tall Kuya? Naka-heels na ako nito ah~~” Makulit na sabi niya habang tinatap tap ang ulo ng kakambal niya.
Tawa pa siya ng tawa habang pagewang gewang yung lakad nilang dalawa.
Nang makalabas na ng Central…
“What the hell, Corr. Ba’t lasing na lasing ka?” Her twin-brother furiously asked.
“Kuya namaaaaaan. I’m sorry naaaa.” Pero hindi yata niya napansin na galit na yung kapatid niya… or napansin man lang na tinawag siya nitong Corr.
Corr?
But the last time I checked, Lyzzie or Lyz ang tawag ni Steve sa kaniya.
Di ba?
End of Flashback…
CORR POV
“Are you seriously standing there like a love fool?” Presbi mocked.
WHAT THE HELL IS HE DOING HERE?
AT THIS HOUR?!
I inhaled deeply before facing him, patience, pride and values, Corr. I reminded myself.
“No.” I said, sabay lakad at nilagpasan siya.
No shit. After a month?! Yan pa ang ibubungad mo sakin? You fucking kiss me for Pete’s sake! And then—
But you kissed back, Corr.
I don’t care!
“Corr! Wait!” He called and I felt his hold on my arms.
“What now?!” I hissed, medyo hindi ko na napigilan yung inis ko sa katawan.
“Why didn’t you call me?” He asked as he stare straight to my eyes.
He looks hurt… betrayed…
As if I promised him the world but I gave him a peanut.
And it made me angrier.
Siya pa? Siya pa may gana at lakas ng loob magsalita ng ganito?
Bakit? Simula noon, nakarinig ba siya sakin ng kahit ano?
Sinumbatan ko ba siya? O sinugod dahil sa mga panloloko niya?
Hindi di ba?
“Why should I?” I retorted, raising a brow at him.
“I waited, Corr…” He said and noticed the people around us murmuring, maybe about us, kaya mas lumapit siya sakin at bumulong. “I waited… But nothing. Then now eto ibubungad mo sakin? You… kissing in that guy’s car. Are you seriously making me a criminal?!” He hissed, kasabay ng paghigpit niya sa kamay ko.
“You’re hurting me.” I said, na dahilan kung bakit niya binitawan agad yung kamay ko.
“I’m sorry…” He apologized, sabay tingin sa malayo. “Let’s talk somewhere else, maraming nanunuod dito.” Sabi niya habang sumisimple ng tingin sa paligid.
And of course, ayan ang mga nurse sa paligid nakatingin at nagbubulungan pa.
“I need to see my Mom—”
“She’s sleeping. Balikan natin siya after an hour. Let’s go.”
I want to ask how he knew and what the hell is he doing here. Sobrang aga pa’t nandito na siya.
I want to ask what happened to him this past month. Why didn’t he call me? Or at least texted me?
What happened at home, nung sumugod siya sa bahay? I asked Kuya but he didn’t tell me anything.
Why is he so drunk the last time he called? Sino kasama niya? Nasan siya nung panahong yun?
I have so many questions I want to ask, but I stopped myself.
Don't ask questions you don't really want the answer to.
Or better yet…
Don’t ask questions that will make you crawl back to him.
“Let’s go, Corr.” He repeated.
“Fine.”
**
“You look tired… and sleepy.” He said as he watches me eat.
I have a plate full of carbs, habang siya naman ay coffee lang at toast.
Okay. Don’t look at me like that. I really don’t know how we ended in a café near the hospital and thank God it’s not UCC. But damn it., pagtapat kasi namin sa may pintuan, biglang naggrumble yung tyan ko.
So yeah, we decided to eat.
“Uhm.” I mumble while eating my toast, totally not minding him.
“And you look hungry. Nagpapalipas ka ba gutom? Do you always skip your meals? And looking at your eye bags, I’m sure wala ka pang tulog.” Patuloy na sabi niya, habang ako ay panay subo lang sa pagkain.
Dang, I’m so hungry—
“Kelan ka pa naging pabaya sa sarili mo? I don’t like this, Corr.” Mariin na sabi niya. Okay. Muntik ko ng maluwa lahat ng nakain ko. “Water.” He said, sabay abot nung tubig sa gilid ko.
Agad ko naman ‘tong ininom pero panay pa din ang ubo ko.
“Dahan dahan kasi.” He said while patting my back. “There.” Pahabol pa niya na punas ng tissue sa bibig ko.
“Uh… Thanks.” I awkwardly said.
“So?” He asked after a minute of awkward silence.
“Huh?” I absentmindedly asked.
“Hay, Corr… Pagod ka nga. Wala ka sa sarili.” He muttered, bago uminom ng kape niya.
“Why are you drinking black?” I distractedly asked when I saw his mug. Plain black lang kasi, while yung sugar at milk sa tabi ay hindi niya man lang nagalaw.
Kinuha ko agad yung cup niya, at binuhusan ng enough milk – just how he like it, saka naglagay ng tatlong teaspoons ng crystal sugar. “Kelan ka pa nahilig sa plain black? Di ba nagpapalpitate ka pag—” I continued then suddenly stopped.
What the hell are you doing, Corr?
Natulala ako sa kaniya ng marealize ko yung ginawa ko.
Damn it. Damn it. Why are you so stupid, Corr?—
Pati siya, napatulala din. But unlike me na natulala sa kaniya, siya naman ay panay lang yung titig sa kape.
Nakatitig lang siya dun sa kape niya na hawak hawak ko, yung tingin na parang pot of gold yung hawak hawak ko.
At kung pa-awkwardan lang din ang usapan, idagdag pa natin yung biglang pagpapatugtog ng Forever and Always sa café.
*intro*
♪ Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye. And we caught onto something I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me. ♫
Okay...
Lumipas ang isang awkward na minuto ng mapansin kong nakangiti na siya, habang titig na titig pa din sa kape niya na hawak ko. Syempre, nawirduhan na ako kaya tinulak ko na palapit sa kaniya yung mug.
“Thank you.” He said with a sincere smile nang kunin niya sa kamay ko yung mug.
Natulala pa tuloy ako lalo.
Ngayon ko lang kasi ‘to nakita ulit. Yung totoong ngiti ni Presbi. Yung abot mata niyang ngiti, may dimple pa…
Titig na titig ako sa bawat features ng mukha niya. From his expressive eyes, long lashes, perfect nose and his jaw line.
Damn. Don’t make me start with his jaw.
He’s just so perfect.
Presbi…
My Presbi.
“God, I miss this.” He suddenly said, still staring at his coffee mug. Mas lalo pa siyang ngumiti ng amuyin niya yung kape bago uminom nito.
Habang ako, nakatitig lang sa kaniya, sa bawat galaw niya…
Parang nagaabang ng bagong reaksyon na ipapakita niya.
Then he smiled again. “Ahh… That was nice.” He said with contentment. “Really nice…”
And I couldn't help but nod in complete agreement. “Yeah…” I breathlessly said.
And I don’t know how it happened…
Suddenly, everything is okay.
Everything is perfectly imperfect.
As if nothing has changed.
Just the two of us over coffee. Enjoying each other’s company.
No words are expressed….
Just silly smiles and secret gazes.
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Might update again later, or depends. Busy kasi tom. May company event :(
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