I'm so sorry, but the time has come where I have to own up to my lack of activity. I will discontinuing this story. I won't make up any bullshit excuse, but I will explain why. I have no motivation for this story, and am no longer in the YouTube fandoms I was previously in.
I still watch and enjoy Jack, Mark, Dan, Phil, and Thomas (along with various other YouTubers) but I'm a casual fan now.
I wanted so badly to hold onto this story, and my previous fandoms, that I neglected my mental health and physical wellbeing, continuously guilt-tripping myself into writing for this story. My lack of activity for many months was my fault, and I'm sorry for keeping this story ongoing even though I've long been feeling this way.
||Though I am discontinuing this, if anyone would like to continue it I'm willing to give them claims to the story and permission to continue it. I will also explain what I had had planned. If anyone wants this story, my plans will be a general guideline that can be changed or altered anyway they see fit. Please note that even if you ask to continue my story there is a chance I will decline your offer. Also, please do not comment asking to continue this story, privately message me.||
To my readers,
I love you, so much. Each and every one of you has given me joy. You're comments have warmed my heart, and I hope you've all been well and happy. If you haven't, then remember that the bad days will eventually give way to the growth of your person and you will see many good days. If you want to be better, remember, you can. You can start or stop things, sometimes for no reason, and you don't owe anyone an explanation unless you want to give one. You can do those things to benefit your health, to lead a better life, or just to live the way you prefer. You are as important as the Earth, so please treat yourself kindly. Again, I love you so much! 💚💚💚
I am still so proud of this story, and consider this work my greatest. I will also be deleting Wattpad from my phone. I still can log in on my computer if I wish, but I don't see that happening often or at all. Wattpad has become one of the worst writing sites, littered with ads and overrun with stupid and overwhelming updates. Like every time someone posts on their own message board I get a notification, and I cannot handle everyone's depression. Most of my followers, mutuals, and friends have depression, and I love them dearly but cannot handle talk of that. Depression is something I will always deal with, but I've learned my limits and what I can handle. I'm so much better than I was yesterday, last month, last year, and I will be so much better tomorrow.
Thank you everyone, for all of the joy you've given me. And, I hope any amount of joy I've given you is something you may nostalgically reminisce when you read this. Please don't be sad. I love you!
-Nova