"Emma get up we're going to the gym" Grayson throws my blanket off me
I run my eyes letting them focus on the alarm clock in the dark room before groaning "When I said that last night I didn't mean at five am in the morning"
"Training with me is training at five am babe" he winks after turning on the light
Forty minutes later, we parked outside the empty gym. I grabbed my duffle bag from the back before getting out of the car
"So what am I training?" I smirk turning around to face Grayson
He smirks "your second best assets"
"And my first?"
Graysons eyes stay trained on the sports bra I'm wearing, the smirk never disappearing. "Your eyes" he flicks his gaze towards them
I shake my head smiling nonetheless "your such a flirt"
"Only for you baby"
The huskiness in his voice creates knots in my stomach. The type I know I shouldn't have
Almost an hour later I've done a twenty minute run on the treadmill, done all types of squats and hip thrusts
"Drop to the floor and give me twenty"
I huff before doing what he says
"Your stance is all wrong" he corrects
I roll my eyes "then fix it"
I immediately regret what I said when his cold hands land on my back and stomach before straightening my back
I try to ignore the tingling on my skin and finish the twenty push ups but get no where
"Can you stop doing that. You're distracting me"
He leans down, breath fanning my neck "my touch distracts you?"
"Whatever" I mutter "it means nothing"
"Keep telling yourself that" he smirks before lifting me back to my feet with him
"I'm going for a shower" I sigh and walk towards the bathroom when we get back to the dorm
"I can scrub your back for you"
"Uhhh" I complain "I'm never telling you anything again"
"If it makes you feel any better babe, I think your hot too"
"How sweet of you" The sarcasm rolls off my tongue as I shut the bathroom door behind me
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In the aftermath of recent discoveries that Im feeling a little more than I should for my roommate I decided to make myself feel better by going on a shopping spree
It's been weeks since I've started to realise my feelings and unfortunately they were weeks full of me hanging out and training with Grayson. Weeks where we were finally friends and I can't let my feelings ruin that
The dorm was empty when I got back so I decided that instead of sitting by myself and overthinking everything, to go to the barbecue
I pulled my huge jacket tighter to me when the chilly winter air hit me. The forest was full of Christmas lights draping from tree to tree and even one tree had lights wrapped around it like a giant Christmas tree
"Hey trickster" Grayson walks up to me and wraps his arm around my shoulder and pulls me into his chest
"Hey" I laugh pushing against his chest to stand straight up
"Wherever you been?"
I shrug as we walk closer to the heat of the fire "just doing some last minute shopping"
"And you didn't drag me with you this time?"
"I just needed to think"
"You alright now?"
I nod "of course"
He picks up two drinks before handing one to me "I was meant to ask you are you going home for Christmas?"
I shake my head "New York isn't somewhere I want to be right now" I put on a fake smile "plus my family think I'm staying with my 'boyfriend' for the holidays"
"Then your coming to mine"
"What? No Grayson! I'm not interrupting your family time"
"I want you there. They want you there. Decisions final Em"
"What about your sister?"
"She's being a bitch. She'll get over herself"
"You sure?"
He nods smiling "now cheer up. We've got fun to have"
I laugh and for once today I feel better
Unfortunately that didn't last long
I turned around from getting more drinks to face Grayson and some red head making out
I walk back towards campus, handing some random dude the two drinks
"Hey babe" Josh, one of the biggest players steps on front of me blocking my path
I try to push past him but see Grayson in the background so I decide to stay
I put my hands on his chest "oh hey josh haven't seen you around in ages"
"We could make up for lost time" he leans in
Our lips are inches apart when someone grabs my arms and drags me away
The person who I already know is Grayson stops in the middle of the forest where no one is around
I snatch my arm back "What the hell was that?"
"Seriously Emma. Josh Smith? You don't do people like him"
"I don't? I talk to you?"
"You're seriously comparing me to him?"
"Pretty sure we were meant to be having fun, cheering me up but you were the one who got caught up with some random"
"She kissed me!" He shouts
"You kissed her back!"
"Same thing would've happened with Josh!" I shout
He ignores my last sentence "why do you even care about her?"
"Because I'm jealous Gray" I shout without realising
I smack my hand to my forehead "I didn't mean to say that out loud" my voice had lowered back to its normal octave
Grayson takes a step forward. His fingers snake around my wrist bringing my arm back to my side
"Em we can't d-"
"Forget it. Pretend this didn't happen. Save the rejection" I interrupt and start to walk away
Grayson steps on front of me less than a second later "Wait no! Em you have to know that if I could I totally would take you right here"
"But I can't let you get any closer to me than I already have. I should never have even let us become this close but I did. But I can't put you in danger any more than I already have"
His finger catches the tear I never meant to release
I try to smile and hide the pain. I know it's stupid, that I shouldn't be upset over something that never even happened but I feel like I've ruined the friendship as well as everything else
"Rejection. Great!" I mutter sarcastically
"Em, you know why I can't do this"
I nod "I get it"
I take a step back "your girls probably waiting for you back there" I turn around and walk away
I get back to the dorm and throw my jacket to try and make myself feel better. I slide down the wall and try to get the tears to stop falling but they don't
"You've ruined everything" I mutter into my hands "you idiot. You've got no one left. No more friendship with Grayson just him pitying another girl who stupidly fell for him"
I eventually change into an oversized yellow tshirt and lay on my bed
I woke up to someone lifting me slightly. My eyes fluttered open to see Grayson taking my blanket from under me
"Go back to sleep Em" he whispers "I'm just putting your blanket on you"
I nod slightly and my eyes flutter shut when my head meets my pillow
A few seconds later I hear him whisper again
"I like you too by the way" he whispers "I hope you still want to be friends with me though"
He kissed my forehead before quietly walking away thinking I'm asleep and a second later I am
Did you guys expect that? What do you think will happen next?!